#momoir
Forge a destiny
and just let go of any
of my negativity
Listen
Please
Please
Listen
What rolls off of my stupid tongue
is never meant to cause
You're better than that
you are so loved
and along with your lows
there will be highs
and balance is the right
Nothing more
Everthing less
INTENSE
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 7:59 PM UTC
the insane pain
that just never
relents
i love you
but before you became my world
there were things
that i became enslaved to
and i'm sorry
but you're still my heart
my love
the one real thing
i cling
to for hope
helps me cope
makes me believe
i don't
need
the dope
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 7:41 PM UTC
Got so much stuff
penetrating my brain
Activists, blacktivists
my little girls pain
that I have caused
her pause to success
Stop the blame game
Prepared instead for the
sweet accolades
of your future around you
Life is short
Make it easy as you can, love
I can sit here all day and night
to tell you why
to stop dwelling
and start loving
But then I get so mad
when you can see me
The opposite of what you should be
Freedom is not a word
It's a choice
You've got it
Use it
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 7:36 PM UTC
Just one piece,
to contribute to this fabulous, wondrous world
Something to treasure
Something to remember
A piece of music
A picturesque piece of art
Save a life
Give some hope
To capture a smile
To the heart of another
Just to give,
is my only endeavor
Take all you want from me
If it makes you happy
That's good for me
The missing piece
From the puzzle of life
Lies buried an hidden
Down in the core of my soul
Where my heart beats vigorously
And seemingly endlessly, though potentially
Trying to expose to my brains
Stubborn ego
The creativity that lies within
Buried and hidden
In the core of my soul
My good ol' soul
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 6:18 PM UTC
Please don't call me to tell me nothing
When I ask you where you are,
I don't want to hear "somewhere"
When I ask what you're doing
I don't want to hear "something"
Keep in mind that I did not call you,
and if I had it would be for a purpose
Your elusiveness evades and insults me
If you have no trust in me as a friend,
Then why do you call..
Out of boredom of loneliness?
I know you are aware of my feelings,
Are you aware of how tender they are?
These little things to you...
are all so big to me,
I take it all so personal
No more can my precious heart bare burdens,
I'd rather not hear you call at all and just miss you -
rather than be taunted and haunted by you
If you are my friend,
Then trust me,
I can take you further than you have ever been in your life,
I can make you hear the stars not just see them in the blackened sky
I can show you the choreography done in a flower's dance.
Rather than just see a flower and smell it,
I can give you special magic,
If you have faith in me
And bring you closer to your material needs...
Push you towards your goals and help you achieve them...
And take NO credit when you attain them,
With me by your side... Be assured that you will attain them
My drive is unsurpassed no matter the mountain...
I can climb it...
I've done it for myself, soared with the eagles,
Only after slinking with the snakes and sinking with the lures of life.
Now it's only my pleasure to serve others,
If you have no trust in me, no faith, no belief...
Then I cannot make magic for you, nor bring you relief
from troubles sorrows and pain, nor show you how to enjoy and embrace the rain and terrain of life...
So you can hold fast to the good things when they come.
I have no way to prove to you what it is and what it's all of.
I can only tell you that my loyalty does not come easily
Nor in abundance,
But if you have it, which Paul, you do indeed,
then stop and listen to the music of the stars
watch the flowers dance...
And know with confidence that whatever your cravings on this silly earthly plane are... that your goals are achievable with me as your friend.
And if you choose another path
And choose not to trust me
Then don't bother me
There are other people
That can utilize this unique potential of mine
So all I'm asking is...
PLEEZE, don't waste my time...
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 6:11 PM UTC
The ****** is in hospital with full blown [illegible] one year later
One year ago today
I killed the rose
Because something was wrong
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 6:00 PM UTC
A SINGLE yellow rose
tipped with pale burgundy
scented with the bitter sweet
from being plucked too young
STRONG PENETRATING THORNS
****** halcion, alcohol, tuinal
CRACK *******
A ****** sweats on the ragged black leather couch
sick, whining,
in the dismal grey vampire apartment
Something smells
Something is eerie
Something is wrong
Good! You're home with the outfits
there's a knock at the door
Good! the stuffs here
let's drown in the chemical reprieves
because,
Something smells
Something is eerie
Something is so wrong
The relief sets in fast and I can relax a bit
Hey, where'd the rose come from?
"IT'S FROM ME BABE, HAPPY VALENTINES!"
Something smells
Something is eerie
Something is desperately wrong
IT'S TIME FOR ME TO leave, I KNOW THAT I MUST go
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 5:56 PM UTC