my worst trauma 
beaten out of existence
comes from the stereotypical white male 
and those 
that have internalized the stereotypical white male
I cannot any longer 
handle 
being treated as that stereotypical white male
its over
in order to heal 
I need space from that projection
in order to escape the politics
to be allowed to expeirence and exhaust 
my trauma in society
that is why from now on I am to be referred to as
her
black her preferably 
my legal gender pronoun
is black woman