#miscarraige - Hello Poetry

Little Carole Jean You were born to early Only 20 weeks and 4 days into my pregnancy Born without a heartbeat I held you in my arms So tiny so fragile 8.6oz and only 21 inches long But so beautiful and pure You had your daddy's long legs And my annoying chin Nine Perfect Baby fingers And Your tiny feet so cute I'm so sorry babygirl That mommy couldn't protect you I failed you little one Please can you forgive me. I see how Daddy cries for you His eyes show how much he misses you You were his world, his little princess I miss you so much I miss you growing inside me Watching your daddy wrap his arms around my tummy And say he is on protection duty I wish I could have watched you grow up I can picture you in my mind Dark unruly red hair And bright blue eyes like daddy Your dad would have had to chase all the boys away I wish I could wake up from this nightmare And erase this whole last week Look down and see my bellies small bump Can I go back to when things were good? Rest Easy Carole Jean Be safe up there ok? You have a whole lot of people to meet you there And a whole lot of people still yet to come I will see you again one day Until then please be good. I cant wait to hold you again And I know Daddy can't either. We will be a family again one day Until then you are always in my heart. I will NEVER forget you I dont think I ever could I love you daughter And forever always will You are with me for eternity My little baby Carole Jean

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Jun 1, 2017

Jun 1, 2017 at 12:23 PM UTC

fenix-Flight

To My Daughter Who I Will Never Meet

Little Carole Jean You were born to early Only 20 weeks and 4 days into my pregnancy Born without a heartbeat I held you in my arms So tiny so fragile 8.6oz and only 21 inches long But so beautiful and pure You had your daddy's long legs And my annoying chin Nine Perfect Baby fingers And Your tiny feet so cute I'm so sorry babygirl That mommy couldn't protect you I failed you little one Please can you forgive me. I see how Daddy cries for you His eyes show how much he misses you You were his world, his little princess I miss you so much I miss you growing inside me Watching your daddy wrap his arms around my tummy And say he is on protection duty I wish I could have watched you grow up I can picture you in my mind Dark unruly red hair And bright blue eyes like daddy Your dad would have had to chase all the boys away I wish I could wake up from this nightmare And erase this whole last week Look down and see my bellies small bump Can I go back to when things were good? Rest Easy Carole Jean Be safe up there ok? You have a whole lot of people to meet you there And a whole lot of people still yet to come I will see you again one day Until then please be good. I cant wait to hold you again And I know Daddy can't either. We will be a family again one day Until then you are always in my heart. I will NEVER forget you I dont think I ever could I love you daughter And forever always will You are with me for eternity My little baby Carole Jean

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All she wanted In her life was a little baby To hold at night. Boy or girl To complete her crazy world. But all she ever got Was a doctor Shaking his head Saying: Sorry ma'am but The baby is gone Sorry ma'am Just stay strong You'll be alright You'll be okay Just close your eyes and try another day. But she didn't want to try again. For every night She'd close her eyes Counting her babies graves and all the names She'd never say And she'd just pray 'Oh Lord, not one, not two, not three, but four, when will death come to my door For I cant do this again." All this pain All this aching In my heart and Bleeding in my brain. For now She'll say goodbye Yet again For that's what they expect. All she wanted In her life was a little baby To hold at night. Boy or girl To complete her crazy world. But all she ever got Was a doctor Shaking his head Saying: Sorry ma'am but The baby is gone Sorry ma'am Just stay strong You'll be alright You'll be okay Hold yourself Just hold on tight You can try Again some other time But little did he know time wasn't on her side . -ARI

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Jun 30, 2016

Jun 30, 2016 at 2:48 PM UTC

ari-3

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All she wanted In her life was a little baby To hold at night. Boy or girl To complete her crazy world. But all she ever got Was a doctor Shaking his head Saying: Sorry ma'am but The baby is gone Sorry ma'am Just stay strong You'll be alright You'll be okay Just close your eyes and try another day. But she didn't want to try again. For every night She'd close her eyes Counting her babies graves and all the names She'd never say And she'd just pray 'Oh Lord, not one, not two, not three, but four, when will death come to my door For I cant do this again." All this pain All this aching In my heart and Bleeding in my brain. For now She'll say goodbye Yet again For that's what they expect. All she wanted In her life was a little baby To hold at night. Boy or girl To complete her crazy world. But all she ever got Was a doctor Shaking his head Saying: Sorry ma'am but The baby is gone Sorry ma'am Just stay strong You'll be alright You'll be okay Hold yourself Just hold on tight You can try Again some other time But little did he know time wasn't on her side . -ARI

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I died that day when I stayed alive, It got hard to find what little light I had inside, But I'd die again, a million times and many more, I'd give up every pounds of flesh so that you'd arise and take your first and final breath. I scream your name even though I never knew it, I see your face in every dream, and give up every one one for you. I'm not alone but I feel it and for that I hate myself. Every wall has a door but each one is locked, it's getting hard to breathe but I'm not even sure that I want to. I smash one down, through fear or anger or desperation, I don't know, But there's just a wall and behind that another, on and on, no roaring light to greet me, just the darkness of infinity. I hold steady on a floor that won't stop moving, I had my momentum stolen by love I never heard, This veil is stuck to me like my own crown of thorns, so deeply rooted that my brain bleeds with every step, every breath and word. I still smell you as you flowed away and joined the river, lightly, little angels wings departed, but here, forever, I'm with you. I'd stop thinking, living or drawing breath, I'd throw myself to the lions to pull the splinter from your paw. I will never stop loving you. I will never stop needing you.

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Dec 27, 2020

Dec 27, 2020 at 9:36 AM UTC

DADFORIT

Alive and dead

I died that day when I stayed alive, It got hard to find what little light I had inside, But I'd die again, a million times and many more, I'd give up every pounds of flesh so that you'd arise and take your first and final breath. I scream your name even though I never knew it, I see your face in every dream, and give up every one one for you. I'm not alone but I feel it and for that I hate myself. Every wall has a door but each one is locked, it's getting hard to breathe but I'm not even sure that I want to. I smash one down, through fear or anger or desperation, I don't know, But there's just a wall and behind that another, on and on, no roaring light to greet me, just the darkness of infinity. I hold steady on a floor that won't stop moving, I had my momentum stolen by love I never heard, This veil is stuck to me like my own crown of thorns, so deeply rooted that my brain bleeds with every step, every breath and word. I still smell you as you flowed away and joined the river, lightly, little angels wings departed, but here, forever, I'm with you. I'd stop thinking, living or drawing breath, I'd throw myself to the lions to pull the splinter from your paw. I will never stop loving you. I will never stop needing you.

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