#mentallyunstable
I weep silently
As I grip the recyclable material
Apologising profusely
I am sorry
I know you
Do not wish
To spend more money
I am sorry
I really try
Another episode surfacing
I just can't, without a doctor
I am sorry
You try and
Find excuses to
Revoke the dosage
I am sorry
I really am, sorry that is
I didn't ask to be this way
I didn't hand-pick you
I really am sorry
Jul 24, 2020
Jul 24, 2020 at 3:51 PM UTC
Crazy
A word I have always hated
Am I insane?
Should I be locked inside an asylum?
Perhaps put on medication?
Please do not patronize me by exploiting my insecurities in a condescending manner
I told you where my soft spots were in confidence hoping you would understand
Hoping you would speak with a sliver of sensitivity
I'm regretting that now as you aquire a taste for the way it sounds in your mouth
You save it for those moments where you really want to see me boil over
The reason why I hate being referred to as crazy is because I am somewhat psychotic
I am already scared of my own irrational behavior as it is
I am terrified of my slipping grasp on reality
I know I am crazy
I don't need you to remind me
Nov 29, 2018
Nov 29, 2018 at 1:37 AM UTC