#meant
I had the softest, strangest dream–
sweet as silk, yet edged with flame,
a hush of longing wrapped in dark,
a quiet pulse that spoke your name.
Beside me lay a distant world,
turned away, too tired, too still–
but somewhere
deeper, under breath,
another hunger bent my will.
And then–
like dusk that knows my every sin,
you slipped into the space within.
Dressed in black,
a shadowed grace,
no face to hold–
yet I could tell,
my heart knew yours
without a doubt,
like something summoned,
something fell.
And softly–
like a prayer I shouldn’t keep,
I whispered low, almost asleep–
teddy bear.... teddy bear....
The name melted on my tongue,
a fragile thing, a dangerous thread,
half devotion, half desire,
a place where innocence had bled.
I moved to you, small and warm,
a trembling thing
drawn to your heat,
gentle, aching, almost shy–
yet undone at your feet.
My eyes found yours–
and stayed there, caught,
as if the world had come to rest,
as if every secret I ever hid
had risen quietly in my chest.
There was no rush–
only rhythm, slow and deep,
a closeness that felt almost sacred,
a promise only dreams could keep.
You held me like you meant it–
not soft.... but certain, still,
like I was something to be kept,
not broken– only bent to will.
And I–
I didn’t fight, I didn’t flee,
I let it take the rest of me....
Because it was you.
Something dark, yet tender too,
a sweetness
laced with something wild,
like being seen too deeply through–
not a woman....
almost a child
in the way I trembled,
the way I stayed,
the way I quietly obeyed.
teddy bear....
Again it slipped–
a sacred sin,
a name I wasn’t meant to keep,
yet wore it softly on my lips
like something mine,
like something deep.
You drew the breath out of my chest,
not cruel–
just claiming what was there,
and in that space between restraint,
I found myself laid open.... bare.
Not broken– no,
but reshaped slow,
like dark affection learning light,
like every hidden, aching need
had finally stepped into the night.
And I felt tears–
not sharp, not sore,
but something warm I can’t ignore,
a quiet joy, a trembling plea–
stay like this.... stay here with me....
Because with you,
even the shadows felt like home,
even the ache was softly known.
I don’t want perfect, polished love,
I don’t want gentle hands alone–
I want the way you hold me close
like something fragile you still own.
Your flaws, your voice,
your stubborn mind–
every edge I shouldn’t crave,
every part that makes you YOU
is every part that makes me cave.
So if I whisper it again–
if I let this feeling show....
teddy bear....
Will you hear me this time?
Because you know–
no one else will ever be
this hunger wrapped in loyalty,
this aching,
endless, burning thread–
this love that feels like destiny.
So take me–
not harsh, but sure,
not loud, but something more....
Something that lingers in my skin,
something I can’t ignore.
Make me yours–
your wild, your soft,
your little bunny, sweet and lost,
caught between the need to kneel
and the need to be devoured at cost.
Call me yours in silent ways,
trace your presence, leave it there,
make me soft and wild at once–
your little bunny....
for her teddy bear.
Or are you scared?
Not bold enough to take the flame,
not selfish enough
to stake your claim,
not reckless enough
to choose me whole–
and set our worlds alight the same?
So choose me.
Just once– don’t turn away,
don’t let this fire decay,
take my hand and run with me–
before I fade, before I stray.
♡ lil-usagi
Apr 28
Apr 28, 2026 at 2:41 PM UTC
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To be capable of skill,
Learning from failure, staying consistent
And truly believing in yourself!!
Mar 19
Mar 19, 2026 at 1:00 AM UTC
In a world filled with people who should stand beside us as our equal yet lonely is the world we live in divided is the world we been in happy to pretend, behind closed doors wishing it all would end.
uncomfortable in the skin you were born in man I wish I knew then what I know now walking the earth lost but never found.
No interaction cold is the steers we give one another icey is the hearts we hold deep routed anger set in our soul.
No more joy do we hold that is a thing of the old.
unlearned lessons to behold taught and told. Hate so deep it destroys us all leading to our down fall while love conquers all putting back the pieces as they fall.
we laugh and we learn we live and we burn
dead is the world we use to know gone is the people who use to sow into us as we grew up.
Dead is the seed once planted expected to grow unable to flow. Gone is the water quenching our thirst. Born is the beast of the earth.
Gone is the person who once was bubbly and whole and it shows now in his place is a shell of a man who could barely stand.
wishing if only he had a plan sanking faster than quick sand. Please tell me you understand.
Steep is the hills we climb deep is the sin in the mind. Keeping us trapped and binds burden by thoughts over time.
If only clocks were rewind, people seen the signs never being caught and intertwined.
Heavy is the mask we wear instead of heavy is the head who holds the crown. Walking around with a frown aren't you tired of being down?
Get up dust your shoulders off planted your feet no longer will you see defeat.
Its time you go after all you seek the dream you let die by the burdens you hind never understanding why.
Its the world we live in lonely, miserable and ever changing.
To God be all the glory
Written By Dawn S Barnes
9/6/2025
Jan 16
Jan 16, 2026 at 10:56 PM UTC
inspired by
https://hellopoetry.com/poem/5120189/love-cannot-be-controlled-or-confined/
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Love is Meant……
and there, I stop…
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nnnnyup; continuing on,
this phrase
a self~sufficiency, is it not?
no conditional clause, dangling particle,
no conjunction peg upon to hang your wintered hat,
no adjacent adjective for summer's ending sadness,
no preposition to lead us to sunny places, where we search more
for nouns and pronouns, or to project/protect, in adjectives to clothe our irrationality in logic-e,
logic to define, logic to confine,
illogically
love permits one to say to another human, you mine, hu-mine,
[an aside: "you mine,' (really?)]
a preposterous prepositional insanity notion, that needs no explication,
love is meant, love is meant, love is mean, dream & yet, meant!
stadium sized. concert hall big, mini pup tent,
love is clean+dirty s i m u l t a n e o u s l y
don't you see the self~sufficiency in that?
yet you still seek definition, reasoning, seasoning,
love is meant to-be bent irregular straightaway,
love is meant, to be/not, cold 'n bot, silly hot,
lover is inert, hurt, ert,(1)
love is every point of,
of a sword's length
hilt & blade,
yet ironic,
the tip alone
is a self sufficient *****
to be full~on damaging enough to ****
to fully comprehend,
that love is meant
needs no further modifying defying
pointless phrasal modification of explanation…
s u n d a y
(if the week did not commence with a sunday,
hu-mans would have needed to create one,
to understand,
love is meant)
4:39am
Sun Aug 10
Twenty Twenty Fidelio (5)
in a new york city frame of mine
Aug 17, 2025
Aug 17, 2025 at 8:06 AM UTC
An obvious glare to the past
Has left me with too many spells to cast
Fueled by anger and deceit
How could I have let history repeat
Fool me once, I thought we knew
Fool me twice, we can't pretend we don't have a clue
It's ego and it's fear
What's not making you see clear?
Betrayal is a must
When two souls are not meant to last
And if I'm the receiver of your hardships
Don't tell me I can't have my sips
Of bitterness and frustration
I've reached my culmination.
And when I can no longer look you in the eye
You know our love was meant to die.
Aug 13, 2025
Aug 13, 2025 at 8:11 AM UTC
Someone you love
May never touch you
Someone you love
May never hurt you
Both can be
Achieved
With words
And it is
Usually
From
Someone
You love
Sep 5, 2024
Sep 5, 2024 at 2:15 PM UTC
I know we will end up getting hurt
Every memory cuts right through
Passing time as we grow and change
The memories never do
To hold the fleeting happiness
Together once shared
Had to capture past with photographs
Smiles we no longer wear
Instead are small
Sorrowful
Strained
Matching the sadness in pained eyes
Say we can retreive love lost
Telling ourselves lies
Sometimes have this look about you
Current of convincing energy
Against all sense and reason struggle
Trick my heart back into loyalty
Head above devoted delusions
Waiting for the rest of myself
My body's still stuck at rock bottom
After years of your loosely veiled hell
Love is the true Eldorado
Is a cruel mirage
Paradise we're not meant to find
Love is just pain camoflauged
Apr 25, 2022
Apr 25, 2022 at 5:08 AM UTC
I feel like we're drifting apart.
I know you feel it too
We're stuck, helpless in our love, unsure of what to do
Seeking solace in nostalgia, I feel you reaching for my hands, lonely in their despair
Oh, how I miss that summer love, painted bright by sunny days
Those memories of sandy toes, as our excitement choked on salty sea air
Our sun kissed lips stole love in between laughter, made our knees weak in anticipation for more
I wish I could live in my denial
Blame our reality on winter, blame the shorter days, blame the longer nights
Blame anything, anyone
Turn our backs to one another as we struggle to find the words that'll fix us
As we try to read this stranger we once called love
What happened to us vs the world?
We were indestructible, impenetrable
Blind to the fact that we signed off for our own downfall
Perfectly imperfect, our desperateness to make it work
The little lies we'd tell ourselves, strangling the life out of hope
We nod and agree, let anger dwindle into empty solutions
And our hearts quietly weep, screaming for love in all its absence
I wanna say it was a foolish whim
A scapegoat we needed to evade reality
But I refuse to believe that this is all for nothing
You bring out the realest parts of me, knock down my walls with the flick of your finger
Your love engulfs me whole, caresses my broken parts
Gives my soul a place to be, a home I never dreamed I'd call my own
***** living for our summer love
I want you, all of you
The messy fights and silly spats
The goofy snort of laughter saved only for you
The late nights of fun, the mornings of regret
Our pounding heads, hazed by drink and drugs, yet solid and sure in knowing we're loved
My heart is yours beloved, to keep with my blessing
All my love too, cos, without you by my side
Only god knows what I would do
Nov 8, 2020
Nov 8, 2020 at 1:23 AM UTC
I told myself i didn't want to write about you anymore
But i cant lie, you've shook me to my core
You'll look deep in my eyes
And then your mouth will spit even more lies
I try to run away from you
We both know, you'll just leave me broken and blue
I try so hard to disconnect
It feels like i haven't slept
Don't pretend to love me
We both know, we could be meant to be.
Jun 18, 2020
Jun 18, 2020 at 9:35 PM UTC
Let's just say
we were destined
to stand out,
and yell on top of our lungs
till the world notices us.
Jun 17, 2020
Jun 17, 2020 at 9:27 AM UTC
How come I feel like my dream is so far away?
How do I know if it is really meant for me?
Maybe my dream will come true on some other day.
Maybe all I have to do is to try and see.
Will I ever reach my dream, I do not know.
Will I just sit back and wait, and let my dream go?
Must there be a way for me to find out somehow?
Must there be a destiny waiting for me now.
Jun 4, 2020
Jun 4, 2020 at 11:55 PM UTC
Subtle hints
Little glints
In your eyes
Tell me lies
But I can see
It’s meant to be
I want to feel
That this is real
Can we make it
Last for long
Will you stop
Is it wrong
Loving me
Or will it be
Too much
Your touch
Is never enough
Tough
This heart of mine
Can take it
Please don’t break it
Jan 29, 2020
Jan 29, 2020 at 8:50 PM UTC
I don't love you
But you still mean something
You mean pain
You mean lying awake
Trying to erase all those moments
The longest five hours of my life
And you caused them
You don't own me
But I'm your midnight memory
I bet I'm sacred to you
A pale body in the moonlight
Naked for you
I am nothing to you
And I don't want you
You are my snow spill bloodshed
You're the pill under my tongue
Dissolving, making me numb
I don't love you
It will always be that way
Jan 3, 2020
Jan 3, 2020 at 1:27 AM UTC
the only problem that I haven't told you
it's because you are my dearest friend.
you probably already know,
from the words I wrote,
that it all meant for you.
I'm not ready yet to prepare myself to heart the truth.
Because I know it would **** me softly.
Nov 9, 2019
Nov 9, 2019 at 4:48 AM UTC
Your heart was pure,
but was it real?
Was the heart you show,
ever meant to love?
If you knew it would
destroy a person who loves.
Jul 10, 2019
Jul 10, 2019 at 5:24 AM UTC