#matrimony
A matrimony inside mausoleum doors
I feel the draft come seething in waves
All God's memories of me are fleeting
Floating into a plastic swimming pool
Back when the grass was teething
The sun scoured my young eyesight
Sunbeams echoing off the shallows
Excitement of summer was palpable
All was fresh & bright, a meandering
Voyeur-viewing the simulation
I feel the itchy friction of desire
Twinging in all the right places
As cowardice & collapse take me over
the clamoring water's edge
Apr 23
Apr 23, 2026 at 5:50 AM UTC
I recall the faux weddings
That youth had adorn.
We were something like five or six,
Playing in her attic.
They had setup
A whole play marriage altar
Out on the back lawn.
My "bride-to-be"
Was dressed in her attire properly,
White veil & everything.
We had often played at house,
But never at matrimony.
It was always explicitly implied,
In such games,
That we were already married.
I did, she did -
You may kiss;
Sweet pronouncement!
Just as with half of all marriages,
We eventually grew apart.
Maybe it was the economy,
Maybe it was our goals;
Maybe it was because we were children,
Maybe because it was just for fun.
I still remember picking for eggs
At her home on Easter.
May 26, 2025
May 26, 2025 at 11:27 AM UTC
The silence says more than you can ever realize.
You caught me by surprise and hurt by them lies.
I know you couldn't see my cries but my cries were genuine as my love was. Loving you has never been easy but has been painful. The pain drowns what could be a beautiful love. The toxicity has blurred the place of love.
Don't get me wrong the times shared are something that I'll never trade but memories fade. Love will forever be inside me but won't be the same as nothing ever will be. We both had a hand in the conclusions of what has taken place. I've forever seen the pain in your eyes but back then I was too into self.
As you get older and grow things come different for you. Growth and maturity plays a big part in our lives.
We can't expect everything to be the same, when we're aren't the same. Open your mind not keep our minds closed. Matrimony is sacred until that bond is broken. Once the trust is gone there's nothing left.
Your words spoken from anger and pain are more true than you realize. The truth comes from one in pain because they can feel it deeply inside them.
Never deny what's true to settle for something that's not meant for you. Accept what's taken place and what you're feeling and move forward.
Nov 30, 2020
Nov 30, 2020 at 9:39 AM UTC
I’ve got this massive ego
I need to deflate
Or else the only
time I’ll finish is when I **********
There’s apologies I have to make
But should they be heard
Should I write him or
send a bird
I might explode if I go unheard
But I should probably mind my business
So his baby mama won’t witness
The weakness we might share
What if the spark is still there
I’m not prepared, in fact I’m scared
His two beautiful daughters
don’t need to see that daddy still cares
Not just for their mama
But for someone whose not there
As far as I know
He’s unaware of how much I care
How sorry I’ve become
Don’t see myself being welcomed
Into his arms, into his home
****** up my chance
Now I wake up and feel alone
I want to atone
I pray she brings you misery
And you tire of her company
Like this fool broke his promise
Of matrimony..
I’m tired of being lonely
I’m tired of being late
So I lay awake
After I **********
I ask myself
Why did I wait?
Maybe I wasn’t ready
I think of him now
And I can’t keep my hand steady
Stare at the ceiling till my eyes grow heavy
The wettest of dreams
when I wake it isn’t as real as it seems
My heart sinks
It’s been so long.
Maybe it needed to go wrong
So I could write this sad song
Maybe I needed to get hurt
So I could see how much I treated you like dirt..
Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 11:42 PM UTC
Are you listening to the whispers? are you feeling scandalised?
Harbouring ***** little feelings that you wanna sanitise?
Walk through the swinging doors of a catholic franchise
Ask em for that sailors knot a black-n-white man-ties
To the pairs of prying eyes his practical rebuke
Is a marital disguise and a tactical puke
Throw the garter ‘mongst the pigeons, the voluntary victims...
Whose single minds are filled with matrimonial conviction
Paired up poets pool their miseries; the price of art
Each miserable synergy - the sum of its parts
Did he swear that he’d hold you ever dear to his heart?
To love and to cherish til your knees did part?
If she wants you like her father and you want her like your mother
What the hell are you gonna do when you’re bored of one another?
There she stands on ceremony all silk and sinew
While the vow evicted from his Adam’s apple continues
To stutter as the panic builds like stifled farts
Til it splutters its devotions on her lady parts
Her eyes sentence you to sit though your neck-hairs stand
She’s the ****** ****** written in the lines on your palm
Old scores squeeze sideways through her gritted teeth
And he takes on the debt of every promise she believed
Hide the love-bites in a polo-neck, your love life in a Rolodex
When the ***** hand of happen-stance runs its evil down your keks
Cos like the indelible digits on your bathroom mirror
Love is for life until you dress it with liquor
If she wants you like her father and you want her like your mother
What the hell are you gonna do when you’re bored of one another?
We are but experiments, seven billion shades of wrong
The clever ones stay celibate, the others pass it on
That’s an easy line to settle-on in present company
Single-riders in the peloton to pick up the debris
Mar 7, 2018
Mar 7, 2018 at 5:44 PM UTC
before quiet fathers
and weeping mothers
gentle sisters
stalwart brothers
before tying up
all loose ends
before small children
before friends
before sweet days
that lie ahead
the years of laughter
tears, and strength
before jubilant sun
that brightly sings
before melting snow
and newborn spring
before soft grass
and fragrant earth
before times of joy
sorrow, mirth
before the road
we stand as two
becoming one
(i do, i do)
Oct 4, 2016
Oct 4, 2016 at 2:00 AM UTC
Glistening water,
Harbors matrimony,
For us,
As it does for many.
Our feet,
Planted into the beach's sand,
Have carried us
Across treacherous land.
And now we're joined
Together on our wedding day,
Enveloped in blistering light,
That started as a ray.
We both agree
To love each other forever,
And life begins,
Light as a feather.
Dec 13, 2015
Dec 13, 2015 at 8:30 PM UTC
Love flows,
As hearts become one.
As souls collide.
As the beating of the drum.
Love is everlasting,
Through the dark and mist
Through death it still lives on.
In our loving kiss.
We are one,
As a whole.
Soul mates forever,
My love.
My love,
You are my happiness.
When I am down.
You are my warmth,
When there’s none to be found.
You are half my heart,
To make me whole.
The one I will love.
Forevermore.
Forever and Always,
I believe in our long years ahead.
Filled with happiness and children,
With the love that flows.
Nov 15, 2015
Nov 15, 2015 at 7:53 PM UTC
I can't walk into flower shops anymore because all I can smell is the rose that you wore on your lapel the day that you swore you'd love me forever. That was the last time I'd ever wear white. Now I can't think of you without having to swallow back the combined taste of bile and venom. You were everything I thought I wanted wrapped into the most beautiful form of lucifer that I had ever seen. Our first dance wasn't to my favorite song but to the sound of nails on a chalkboard and I still don't know how I missed it. You are the reason I envy snakes and their ability to shed their skin. More than anything I just want to live in a skin that you never had a chance to soil. Instead of being my lighthouse; my beacon of hope- you were the storm dragging me under the waves, drowning out any hopes of a safe return.
-o.m.h
Jul 27, 2015
Jul 27, 2015 at 10:31 PM UTC
"Can you not stay alone
and be with me and take on
the world as what we should be
claiming what the Creator promised us free.
Take my hand and let me
lead you to a trail we
sought after a life of bitter and sweet
because only our First Love made us complete."
Mar 18, 2014
Mar 18, 2014 at 4:26 AM UTC
I tried telling her
Of my life's wisdom and notions of fetters.
She relayed to me
Visions of nothing less than ecstasy.
I bemoaned where I went wrong
She said I'd been ******* a loser ****
She seemed so happy
I shrugged and agreed
If they weren't ******* me
I must be ******* them.
I lost track of that *****
But words register a score
And the more I seem to ****
The more I seem to score.
It's a cocksucker's life
Even if you just do it with your wife
She gets her way
Day after day
Until you may decide
Just to chop it.
Emasculation redirects
Power to new ducts
And the hammer rises
And the hammer falls.
Apr 26, 2014
Apr 26, 2014 at 3:33 PM UTC
Bluebirds dance gracefully,
Cardinals sing a symphony.
Announcing the return,
Of thee.
Righteous may be thy soul,
Kind may be thy heart.
What we ask of you,
Where art thou heart?
Harps ring beyond the flowers,
Of scarlet lovers.
Might the rose be thy veil?
Thy weddings renewal.
Bonded by Matrimony.
It shall be so.
Mar 26, 2014
Mar 26, 2014 at 11:19 AM UTC