#lowpoints
In last night's dream I met the 3 fates
They said, in unison, I could go back in time
Just for 24 hours, to any day I wanted
I picked the day you died.
I ran to your house and explained
What would happen to you, soon
Thinking, in my hubris, I could stop it
At first, you thought I was joking
Or playing some sort of cruel trick
Until you saw the tears form
I hugged you, in a way I hadn't
In over twenty years and said I was sorry
We stayed up all night watching bad tv
Eating sweet snacks from the pantry
I read to you, my favourite poetry
I told you everything, and I lied
That I was happy, that I'm okay
And for a moment I thought that maybe
It wouldn't happen. That you wouldn't go.
Soon after, a gasp for air.
The death rattle. I held your hand.
I watched you die and was helpless to stop it.
But I was there with you, in my dream
To the very end, you were never alone
I wish I could've been there with you
Traumatizing as it would have been for me
I'm so sorry I wasn't there
Aug 4, 2019
Aug 4, 2019 at 1:45 AM UTC