#lovingyourself
All the little shutters opened up
feeling what is going on
in the twilight
within me
not fantasizing
feeling what is going on
outside, over there, a farewell
their arms around each other
and all the way long
my legs are tired
from the runner who smiles
at the happy woman
tears in my eyes
over the baby in her pram
it is getting dark
my window a mirror
in which my preliminary self
asks for love
for my marriage
under construction
and for my body
oh mirror image
I love you
I do what I can
Nov 8, 2024
Nov 8, 2024 at 4:09 AM UTC
At home, no clothes on
brushing my hair
putting on makeup
laughing in the mirror
Toasting myself:
I love me
after you
At home, no clothes on
the curtains open
free, free in sight
of the dark
In the night I am free
in the night I love me
after you
Let the streets see me
let the night see me
I'm not going to hide
after you
Everyone may see me
I love me
after you
Oct 9, 2023
Oct 9, 2023 at 2:52 AM UTC
Depilated from inside
opened and closed around
the navel, the core
of the beauty of the body
and the pearl in my scar
Cherish me, cherish me
let me feel and feel
that you are there, you are there
It is not my skin that I soften
in the bath, it is my muscles
and my soul, warm and supple
they must be to myself
to keep myself together
Cherish me, cherish me
let me feel and feel
that you are there, you are there
How much inner, how much
internal fight do I yet have
ahead, how much injury
to suffer before I can't
don't want to, will not go on?
Cherish me, cherish me
let me feel and feel
that you are there, you are there
Jul 13, 2022
Jul 13, 2022 at 2:12 AM UTC
Not to know myself,
to keep surprising myself --
yes, that's what I love!
May 9, 2022
May 9, 2022 at 3:37 AM UTC
Do it, blame me
that you get little attention
It's true
I am
occupied with myself
I'm very well aware
that my life is too short
to postpone
what is important
not only you
also my peculiarities
pleasures, habits
and responsibilities
for my health, at home
with the neighbours and at work
I am proud of it
whatever you think of it
so do it, blame me
that I love myself
Mar 27, 2022
Mar 27, 2022 at 3:56 AM UTC
Loving Apart Together, each
his own music, his own habits
I'm willing to change mine
for something more pleasant
but not just for you
not just anchor
in the rippling water
of a harbour, no longer breaking
the waves with the ship at my feet
my ******* untouchably
coveted, no longer being the bow
that steers the hands of the steersman
You give a sniff at the musky smell
of the rutting squirters
in my breaking charms
You mock them with envious eyes
you lay down sweet smiles
and hawsers of homeliness
You hit the quays full of bollards
you're so handy, unhandy
in love like landsailors
Jul 3, 2021
Jul 3, 2021 at 3:37 AM UTC
i sit here,
trying to refuel my passions
for the many things
he took away from me
i sit here
not embarrassed
of who i am
i sit here
sometimes questioning myself
because his voice at the back of my head
still judges me
for liking the things i do
i sit here
trying to regain the pieces of me
that had fallen all over the floor
i am almost there
i am almost full
Nov 9, 2020
Nov 9, 2020 at 3:28 AM UTC
They are not in love
anymore, but luckily –
they did conceive me.
Aug 7, 2020
Aug 7, 2020 at 5:01 AM UTC
Along the curtain, the caress
of the wind that embraces me
in the middle of the sun window
of the floor of the room
my feet on the carpet
reach deep into the earth
my heat salutes the heat
my breath kisses the wind
.....I pull the bed into the sunlight
.....and cradle me in well-being
.....stretched out and opened wide
.....I glide into the world
Apr 5, 2020
Apr 5, 2020 at 8:24 AM UTC
The rippling sings
for me, only I
am here, it plays
with itself and it sings
so beautifully and clearly
for me, everything
caresses me with colours
and is loving me
it exults and dances
charms
above and below
disappear
I exist, I can no longer
think, satisfied I am
sinking into the scent
of my seed
dressed in the spotty light
of rocking water
I am merging with you
and you sing, you sing!
Feb 29, 2020
Feb 29, 2020 at 4:03 AM UTC
Darling, maybe you are an angel
and I for you
someone who believes in you
someone who dares
as if it were forever
someone who decides so
and confirms with a clasp of hands
in the silence of not knowing
and exactly knowing
that love is too big
and cannot help
but disguise itself
in half work and failures
to love yourself
Jan 24, 2020
Jan 24, 2020 at 2:28 AM UTC
it all started at one dinner
"all of that is for you?"
"how can you eat so much?"
"are you sure you want all of that?"
was it wrong for me to eat what i wanted to?
i remember looking at my plate
i left it untouched the rest of the dinner
i thought it would never happen again
but again i was attacked with words
"girls dont stay skinny forever you know"
"you are going to get fat, stop eating"
"do you want to be fat?"
i was confused
had i done something wrong?
where was all this coming from?
what do you want me to do?
the tv made it worse
"look at how skinny she is"
"no wonder she has a husband"
"her child will be just as beautiful as her"
i curled into a ball ashamed of myself
why were you telling me this?
why were you being so mean?
how do i fix things between us?
i had stopped eating
the emptiness in my stomach no longer hurt
water was my only meal each day
my sleepless nights were filled with crying
"dont eat that"
"not that either, you have to stay skinny"
"you can go with one less meal"
my friends didnt know
they knew i didnt eat alot
but he knew right away
he knew something was wrong
"hey do you want this slice?" the pizza was put in front of me
one look at it and i was crying
"are you okay? whats wrong?"
i pushed the slice away and left
he was silent at first
he knew to give me my space
but you didnt
no you were still there beside me
"look what you did fat girl"
"you know skinny girls dont act stupid"
"what a fat freak"
when i finally told him what was wrong he smiled
"those are lies and you know it"
"you are so beautiful"
"you are stronger than those words"
and since then the words didnt hurt as much when you said them
sure you kept saying it
and you still do today
but i know that i am beautiful
my best friend had said so and he never lies
you cant hurt me anymore
Jul 19, 2018
Jul 19, 2018 at 10:35 PM UTC
*I love you
love you
you*
As the time went by,
I forgot to love myself
*I love you
I love
I*
But when things ended between us
I have learned to appreciate
and love myself more
Mar 2, 2017
Mar 2, 2017 at 9:17 PM UTC
Have you ever felt sometimes that you were not alive - living a life that has no meaning. A life where the world has come to an end - the kind of ending where colors have disappeared.
Have you ever felt sometimes that you were loved but loneliness has suffocated you so much that you could not even feel the warmth of the loved ones anymore?
I've always felt like I needed to be strong - for the ones I loved but lately I've felt the strength leaving my bones. I've felt like I could not give up on the people that surrounded me - but why does my life seems to be so empty?
Of all the goals I've achieved the past years - I should be tremendously proud but the only time I felt really alive was when I took ecstasy.
Feeling the rush through my veins again - feeling the music pumping through my heart and soul - I felt like I could die. I felt like I could die of a delusional happiness. What is happiness?
I almost forgot what it was when I met my first love - but when I came back to my senses - when I fell out of love I realized that loving was being able to cope with the solitude within myself. It is about loving yourself and being able to bare with the demons inside of you. I felt like I could go crazy - waking up with this unbearable pain inside of me. I do not know why or how I cannot stand the fact of being by myself - always searching for someone to warm the side of my bed and text me in the morning to feel like - I EXIST. I AM HERE. I AM SOMEONE.
Deep down I know I don't need someone to tell me who I am - I know I shouldn't find someone to make me feel alive - because it is my responsibility to find my own peace of mind.
It is my responsibility to bring myself happiness and joy - but I wish truly to find the strength to move on because I do not want to feel this way anymore. I do not want to feel this empty anymore. I do not want to feel lonely anymore. So please hurry up darling and love yourself already - life is so beautiful please don't give up now.
I will always be here for you even when you feel like there is no light, when you feel there is no hope - I will hold your hand.
Press it against your heart - feel the heartbeat - feel the life inside your chest.
You are here with me and I love you.
- Myself
May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 3:35 AM UTC
She's searches for the path that takes her right,
But of course; it's out of sight
She's makes life long commitments
For in her belly there is a figment
"Three months old"
she says "it is distant"
Her mom asks with Constance's,
how she's supposed to take care of something of her own,
because when it comes to her own self;
Well, she is all alone
every night there is a wish she grants
too find away out what she can't
For smoking ****
and doing wrong deeds
Doesn't fit her needs
For she dreams higher
She wants to be admired
Not undesired...
Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 2:07 PM UTC
my personality only comes in one flavor
and I'm not here
to custom-make an order or
wait on the haters
hand and foot
it shouldn't matter if my poetry is bland and tasteless
if my story isn't interesting enough to be told
perhaps I am a lone comic book sitting on a shelf in Green River, Utah
I may be useful to somebody
Someday
(but in the meantime I'll learn to love myself)
Sep 10, 2014
Sep 10, 2014 at 6:32 PM UTC