#lovewins
Thinking about you between meetings,
Between meals, between showers,
Between random scrolling on the internet,
Makes me giddy and profoundly safe.
Lately may have been hectic,
Crowded of thoughts and uncertainties.
Thinking about you solely,
Does not ease any of it truthfully
But choosing you among those things, does.
Remembering why we even started
How you make me feel enough and heard
How I can still picture vividly the first time you kissed me and how it smells
In hopes that the feelings and memories
won’t be slowly slipping away.
Those full infinitives
In the future are not what I am after all
From then on ‘til now
That’s what really matters.
Jun 1, 2023
Jun 1, 2023 at 8:37 AM UTC
The friend we all wanted with a smile we all need,
she was funny and loving, just a regular teen.
Black dyed hair with platform heels, nobody noticed she was missing meals.
A song in her head with a knife in her heart,
these rude little kids were tearing her apart.
"Too skinny." "Too fat." "Too this." "Too that,"
This confused little girl was getting kicked to the mat.
Teenage life is a struggle alone,
but she was being bullied and had problems at home.
We spoke up and spoke out, but the school swept it away.
A perfect reputation was bound to stay that way.
Sep 17, 2020
Sep 17, 2020 at 4:21 AM UTC
But the view's fine from here,
they say, all carbon copy cloying concern.
They don't know that the sun doesn't rise
and set quite so exquisitely
when your sky
is on fire.
But the view's from fine here,
they maintain, as unsaid words skulk in the throat.
They don't notice the skin that burns and crackles
and stretches at a breaking point
that's been broken
for years.
But the view's fine from here,
they confirm. And then turn away.
They don't see what shouldn't be seen,
what eyes can't afford to shut
even as glass splinters
edge closer.
And they are right, really,
because their view truly is fine from here.
#BlackLivesMatter i
Jun 3, 2020
Jun 3, 2020 at 4:50 AM UTC
Its been a long long time
I couldn't make a letter,
A hand writing letter.
I do missed writing,
Just like yours before.
I really loved reading it,
All the letters you gave.
I am felt greatful and honored,
Because somebody made
A letter just for me.
Who is caring and loving me
All by means, how special I am
Apr 25, 2020
Apr 25, 2020 at 4:32 AM UTC
and tonight, we no longer walk under the dripping yellows of the moonlight —
for the moon, it comes in phases.
but who i am, and who you are, and who we love
do not.
and tonight, we are made of half-darkness and half-stars borrowed from the night skies
but tomorrow, the colors of the daytime
will wash away the relics of this night
and darling, we’ll come out like the sun.
we’ll come out like the sun.
Jun 23, 2019
Jun 23, 2019 at 10:11 PM UTC
i’ll waste all my chances at heaven darling — i’ll waste all my chances for the midnights we spent dreaming, stranded inside an old lighthouse as the waves crashed on the shore. i’ll waste my chances for a mouthful kisses, dissolving the gaps between the stars. i’ll waste my chances for a sliver of early morning poems, for sunsets dripping on our skin, for seconds where i can hold your hand — free and unafraid, for minutes where i can be a sinner and you, my capital sin. for hours where i can melt all the world and its hurtful words inside your arms.
darling, i’ll waste all my chances at heaven if i can’t love you way past its walls.
i’ll waste all my chances at heaven — and i’ll waste them all on you.
Jun 22, 2019
Jun 22, 2019 at 3:58 AM UTC
If they don’t let me be with you in this universe
I’ll pull us into another
If they don’t let us be together in life
I’ll die for you my lover
They don’t decide what we are
Or what we get to be
They don’t make us
Our souls are free
They can shutup
Leave us alone
Let them say what they won’t to say
I won’t give u up
Whatever they say my love
They won’t mess us up
Feb 28, 2019
Feb 28, 2019 at 11:38 AM UTC
Be my mistake
Let everything be at stake
Girl, let's cheat
Everyone has a sin
Don't listen to them
For this is true
Theirs unsure
Be my mistake
For in this room
We are free
A prison of love
Baby you are my sweetest
- taste of sin
And when we reached the end
Baby don't let go
You are my life
My heroine
My favorite mistake
Feb 27, 2019
Feb 27, 2019 at 2:25 AM UTC
i've always been told to love;
and that if i do,
i do it raw and passionately
but now as i sit here with
the girl i may love,
i am told i cannot
for her body looks too much
like my own, so i am to
love the body of a man
whose soul does not
match mine like hers does
i wish you knew how
confusingly destructive
that sounds-- i am to love
the body of a man over the
soul of a woman
Feb 3, 2019
Feb 3, 2019 at 9:31 PM UTC
I'm banking on Love
Hope I haven't over-drafted
Dec 3, 2018
Dec 3, 2018 at 3:47 PM UTC
We can’t choose what we like. It isn’t easy when that thing you like is not accepted by everybody. Yeah I’m talking about love. We’re supposed not to care about what other people say but when it comes to family things change.. My mom can’t accept my homosexuality and it kinda ***** Every time I go through a break up with a girl, I can’t say anything to her. I have to grieve alone. I need her. But well, this is not the end of everything. She’ll eventually understand it and I’ll be able to be myself with her. If you’re going through something like this, I get you and I know how painful it is. I’m here if you ever wanna talk about it. We’re all humans, and humans fall in love with whoever they want to, regardless it’s a woman or a man. The thing is, we all deserve to love and be loved. We need to push away every hateful words and vibes and move on. And well, nobody is 100% hetero anyways haha. Hope this will give you at least a little hope that everything will turn out fine.
Dec 1, 2018
Dec 1, 2018 at 6:15 PM UTC
My heart pounding on the door of my chest like a bailiff demanding the rent to be paid
No, I say I just can’t
Acknowledge me please, says my love drunk heart
No, I say just can’t
But to ignore me is to ignore yourself, says my grief stricken heart
No, I say I just can’t
Nothing is stronger than my relentless beating, says my powerful heart; I’m waiting when you’re ready
No, I say I just can’t
Love my dear it can and it will
Nov 28, 2018
Nov 28, 2018 at 6:44 AM UTC
Long day
Meeting
Yelling
Fine I’ll have a salad
Love spilled out in green spinach
One day I’ll love myself as much as you love me
Nov 27, 2018
Nov 27, 2018 at 8:41 AM UTC
God so loved the world that She....
Gave Her only son; duh
She also turned our feeble existence into a barren, destitute and flood soaked wasteland
But then came the Rainbow
Her Rainbow
Her plea to humanity for forgiveness
Love spelt out in ROYGBIV
The sky glimmered with the foreshadowing of the ultimate form of sacrificial love
Let my heart be ensnared by Her Rainbow
Her grace came at great cost so mine wouldn't have to
Nov 25, 2018
Nov 25, 2018 at 9:38 AM UTC
Locked in I was
and grey spatter I spit
under fear I crept
for satan's name, used so,
at my dawn and at my wake
my own voice, soft like flowers who tremble
under trees so steadfast
then upon not one, but many
a sunrise, my voice grew up to be wind
~my love out-loud in the living room
prayers and fears to sentence my mouth not one more day
Freedom knew me
my pen knew what it wanted at 11
picking it up at 27
never so brilliantly
has ink bubbled
Nov 10, 2018
Nov 10, 2018 at 1:36 PM UTC
It was all too fast and unexpected. Suddenly I was there meeting a complete stranger not knowing what to expect. She was a heart-breaker and I knew it deep down but I ignored all the red flags for all those butterflies and rainbows. She knew where my buttons were, she knew when to push them, she knew how to play a girl very well. And now I'm left feeling like a fool because she has moved on to her next prey.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 10:24 AM UTC
She wrote love stories to hide the fact that she didn’t have one of her own.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 1:11 AM UTC
Im not the girl you wanted she will be in your future while i am just someone from the past.
Nov 7, 2018
Nov 7, 2018 at 1:09 AM UTC
There is no other person in the world I’d rather be with, there are no pair of arms I want to find peace in, or body I want to love. Just you.
Sep 12, 2018
Sep 12, 2018 at 1:10 AM UTC
It was all too fast and unexpected. Suddenly I was there meeting a complete stranger not knowing what to expect. She was heartbreaker and I knew it deep down but I ignored all the red flags for all those butterflies and rainbows. She knew where my buttons were, she knew when to push them, she knew how to play a girl very well. And now I'm left feeling like a fool because she has moved on to her next prey.
Sep 7, 2018
Sep 7, 2018 at 1:19 AM UTC
Man was created
Humanity was lost
We were given false promises of a new world
We fell in love with the idea
We started to give pieces of ourselves away to meet the criteria to enter
a place that only accepts the clean
But those who are “clean“ speak filth
There are those who shame us for who we are
There are things that they say that hurt
When you listen to them spread lies you hear hate Steam out of their pale lips
You Feel it wash over you and then you feel *****
They say we are condemned to a final punishment
Yeah we rise above the ashes but it still hurts
They don’t understand the concept of love
They think of it as a thing between a man and a woman
They don’t understand that it’s much more
Love is being able to connect with someone
Love is being free without hurt or pain
Everlasting life is a nice concept but why is it not obtainable for a whole community who has no choice in their sexuality
I might Offend some of you with my words
I might get nasty comments for this
But
I believe in love not a concept of something that hates us
Not a book that was written by man dictating whats right and whats wrong
I believe in love
And if there is a higher being
Looking and listening
I know that they would believe in love too
I can feel them sometimes
In my heart and in my soul and they are not condeming me down to hell
They are Holding me and my love in their arms
They are lifting us up to the sky
Calling us their children because we are infact theirs
They made us this way and they made us with love
Jun 18, 2018
Jun 18, 2018 at 3:21 AM UTC
I believe that love
Will always win
In all circumstances
May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 6:39 PM UTC
With you,
Lied all my happiness,
With you,
All that made me gay.
With you,
Goes away all my sadness,
At night,
Your smiles make my day.
Now without you,
I’m just a man with a flower,
Empty in a blank kind of way—
Because whenever I’m with you,
I’m more than half a man.
And more than half is missing,
Now that you’ve up and gone…
And as they mark this tattoo on my hand,
my flower,
pitch black,
in mourning for you—
All I can do is shove all my tears inside…
Remembering that half of me,
Cost the death of you…
—this is just the ‘smart thing’
that men always tend to do—
Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 7:00 AM UTC
Loving someone
who is broken
is like being attracted to shiny shards
touching it will make you bleed
holding it close may hurt
but to those who have true intentions
even small pieces can come with a bright luster
that even broken glass
can shine light into this world.
Mar 10, 2018
Mar 10, 2018 at 10:55 AM UTC