#lovehurts
I caught you staring
at me,
you looked away,
and pulled
your sly
little smile.
I've been warned,
from the very first day,
to stay away.
But like our first
impression,
you're hard to forget.
You caught me staring
at you,
and i didn't look away.
You have my attention,
a forbidden engagement.
Dec 18, 2014
Dec 18, 2014 at 7:48 PM UTC
Sabi ng iba mag ingat pag nag mahal.
Wag padalos-dalos para sa huli ay hindi ma bigo.
Kilalanin ang bawat isa.
Intindihin ang mga intensyon.
Minsan sa bigla ng iyong pagdating;
madudulas, masusugatan, at masasaktan.
Dahil ang puso ang unang pinairal at isip ay saglit nalimutan.
Dahil minsan ay mas madaling mag bulag bulagan.
Kahit ang dumi ay bumubungad sa mga mata.
Para lang hindi sya mawala kahit hindi na masaya ang pagsasama.
Nakasanayan na ikaw ay laging katabi sa kama.
Pero malaking pagbabago ang nasa gitna.
Ang pagmamahalan na sobrang tamis noon,
pumalit ay asim at pait ng damdamin ngayon.
Paano at kailan nag simula mawala ang tamis ng iyong halik?
Dahil ba iba na ang nagpapatibok ng iyong puso?
Ang haplos na inaasam sa iba na dumadapo?
At dahil siya na ang dahilan ng kislap ng iyong mga mata?
Gusto ko man itigil ang kirot ng damdamin,
pero bakit hindi ko kayanin na ikaw ay mawala sa akin?
Minahal ka ng lubusan at buong puso ko'y inalay.
Pero ito ay unti- untin **** tinapakan at binali wala ang halaga.
Ngayon ako ay huling nagsisisi dahil hindi nakinig sa payo ng iba.
-MPS12
Aug 7, 2017
Aug 7, 2017 at 1:22 PM UTC
You don't understand
What you've done to me
I'm only half the person
That I used to be
Oh but it's okay
Because I know what's true
For you never loved me
I only loved you
Aug 13, 2018
Aug 13, 2018 at 6:39 PM UTC
Please take everything I taught you;
The surprises,
The late night talks,
The sweet texts,
Take them and use them for someone else.
Please don’t treat anyone else like you treated me.
Feb 4, 2021
Feb 4, 2021 at 10:05 AM UTC
Memories and moments we made
Are plastered in my mind
I try to let them go
But they won't budge and are
Engraved like your name in my soul
Stubborn as my heart is
When it comes to let you go
A whirlwind of emotions
The craziness of this heartbreak
Has taken away the tranquil I once possess
And made me a mess I can't save
Stubborn as my soul is
Which can't seem to let you go
I made peace with myself
Told myself I was not enough
But in the silence of the nights
My mind wanders to the happy days
And a question pops'what went wrong?'
You left with just just a line
'It's not you it's me'
As if it was enough
To forget the good ole' days and breathe
Stubborn my mind, my soul, my heart
Which just want to hold onto you
And torture me with all your
Sweet, beautiful reminiscences.
Jan 14, 2021
Jan 14, 2021 at 7:51 AM UTC
Feelings has so much emotional
So much feelings to hold
Which feelings are the best
How could I let go
My heart gave so many feelings
But not so much my soul
I love you with so much feelings
Why can't I let go
My first feelings was with you
The best feelings in the whole world
This feelings I've never felt before
Is what I appreciate the most
I still have this feeling
Even though your gone
This feelings will never go
Even though we're apart
This feelings is love
Love from above
To my heart to the universe to the star
This feelings I've ever loved by far
It's time to let go our love
So we can both move on
You said you wanted space
So here you go, goodbye my love
Sep 14, 2016
Sep 14, 2016 at 7:24 PM UTC
Parenthood.
My intimate incubator, for the forthcoming foetus;
Are you too, truly feeling this dream?
I’ll become a father and you a mom.
It’s really going to happen soon.
So let’s both cut down on the drinking and stop the drugs.
Find a new way of life and overcome,
Our addictions to the illusions.
This could be a whole new beginning.
Girls just want to have fun, but I have found a woman.
I have someone who wants the commitment
And feels truly safe in,
The knowledge I’m here for her, ‘til death do us part.
This woman is the only one, allowed to get near my heart.
Once upon a time, we were so young and carefree;
She loved to feel the breeze, between her knees.
The passionate rush she got, from ******** a stranger,
Has now passed thankfully; she has no need for another,
Because I am her only lover
And she’s my baby’s mother.
But I can still remember when we first met.
I asked how far are you willing to take this?
What can I not do and is the list only short?
What’s the magic word that says you’ve had too much?
What is the cutoff point?
And do you like to take risks?
We made passionate love, morning, noon and night;
Now we still make passionate love,
But have more than adolescent desire.
We have an understanding, of each other’s bodies;
We have the knowledge, to leave each other satisfied.
For we’ve both been there, for each other,
When we were suffering insufferable pain.
We had both reached the stage in our lives,
When we believed, we would never love again.
We both believed, we couldn’t be happy.
We both had the same desire; to one day have a family.
It was hard for us, to be truly open
And to truly love again after our hearts had been broken.
But we shall overcome, the hurt and the pain;
To rise up each morning, ready to face a new day.
For now we are parents, our world has changed;
Now our love can be shared, with our offspring,
Until the end of our days.
(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.
Jul 7, 2018
Jul 7, 2018 at 12:35 PM UTC
It’s the way you make me feel
It's the way you make me feel.
It's the way you make me feel so bad.
It's the way you make me feel.
It's the way you make me feel so sad.
(C)2020 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.
Nov 25, 2020
Nov 25, 2020 at 10:48 AM UTC
Before you,
I never moved.
Before you,
There was no love.
Never leaving my fog,
Never feeling more
Or less than blue.
Never thinking about you.
Now there's this,
And now I can't stop.
After you,
There's always a crash.
After you,
I feel like trash.
After you,
There might be nothing left
Because after you…
That's it. lmt
Aug 19, 2015
Aug 19, 2015 at 10:37 PM UTC
Back in December it felt like you,
Would never leave but I guess it's true,
That nothing gold can ever stay,
and so you have to go away.
I wont lie, I'm going to miss,
Your lips and how they feel when we kiss,
but I have strength and I have hope,
That without you I'll somehow cope.
In a place where my head is full,
Of thoughts like "hes so wonderful",
Is when ill need your touch the most,
Instead of just some wispy ghost.
Memories will help to ease the pain,
On the nights loneliness drives me insane,
But even so, in the darkness ill weep,
Myself into an uneasy sleep.
Maybe all I need is one more day,
To fix our problems and convince you to stay,
but time is the one thing that I can't suspend,
Because all good things must come to an end.
May 5, 2017
May 5, 2017 at 12:12 AM UTC
Daze
Feeling dead when I’m alive,
My sun no longer shines.
Crazy days are all behind me;
All I have is half-remembered memories.
Time is not a healer and I am not a friend.
Every time I see her face,
I want the world to burn to its end.
For all love ever caused me;
The scars upon my heart.
An empty box of what I could have been.
Written down is not who we hope we are.
These are just in pieces, the thoughts upon my grave.
Mask to hide diseases.
Once you have been lost, you have had your love me days.
(C)2020 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.
Sep 25, 2020
Sep 25, 2020 at 10:26 AM UTC
This feeling is hurting me
My relationship with her
My relationship with myself
When the line goes strait
When I need to take some time and wait
My heart will pound
Every time she comes around
I can't think straight
So here I wait
Going back into my darkness state
Sep 5, 2018
Sep 5, 2018 at 2:52 PM UTC
Sometimes
You make me want to scream
(You make me late for everything)
Out loud
(Too proud)
Like a beast howling with rage and uncultivated fear
(Just the same **** arguments year after year)
You make me ashamed to want attention
(You argue with anything I mention)
That isnt fought for or coerced
(Plans made with you are cursed)
And I just want to make you see
(All the things that you do to me)
That things could be different
(You never take things as they're meant)
Better or worse
(You cut me down first)
And I could still be here in a couple of years
(You dont understand the depth of my tears)
Or maybe not
(You forget what you forgot?)
And I love you
(There's nothing more true)
But loving you hurts
(And sometimes you're just a ****
Sep 16, 2020
Sep 16, 2020 at 11:31 AM UTC
There's a reason why you came and left my life.
So I can be able to handle pain and learn how to let go of that pain.
Thank you, dad.
Thank you for being my first heartbreak.
Sep 1, 2017
Sep 1, 2017 at 11:27 PM UTC
I clench my fist tight.
So dearly trying not to cave in and dial, but the device taunts me.
That Pandora's box full of the emotions, images, and echoes that drench me like rain.
It seems the pages have run out.
Every excuse, every apology, every sweet nothing drained like the battery on my phone due to the over use to distract me from you.
You, sitting there on your shelf.
With your legs dangling and hitting my face. Swelling my eyes and lips shut as you watch my greatest regrets play repeatedly in my mind.
Making me unrecognizable to those around me now.
This is who I've become.
A silent shell filled with the echoes of your laughs and smiles.
With only melancholy music to comfort me.
The world around me only now visible through rain soaked glasses.
Nov 8, 2017
Nov 8, 2017 at 11:36 PM UTC
I've tried fire and rain
Nothing can cure these wounds and pain
Holding her hands i want to die in her arms
I'm so much in love with her and her charms
My heart desires you but i can't get you
O my beloved O my sweetheart
Come make this heart understand
You aren't mine you aren't mine
Apr 17, 2020
Apr 17, 2020 at 2:07 AM UTC
Don't say it
I can feel each word
Last time we had this conversation ,every word you said slit my veins
Felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest
So don't say them
Don't say you love me but as a friend
Don’t say you don’t want to loose me
Just don’t say it
Feb 1, 2019
Feb 1, 2019 at 5:04 AM UTC
your love hurts
but i cant help but need it
i cant help but need you
why do you love me
why do you do these things to me
you tell me you love me
and i say it back
but do you really?
we haven't talked in months
you talked **** to someone who tells me everything
'it was just because of my meds but im in love with her'
you say to the girl who sleeps over my house for days and nights on end
the girl who loves me too
the girl who learned to hate you because you love me instead
why do i cause problems.
i fell in love with you day by day
it slowly eats away at me not being able to see you
why is it this way
why am i in love with you
i hate this feeling but...i love you
Aug 11, 2018
Aug 11, 2018 at 3:49 PM UTC
eyes bloodshot and burning red
like two swollen bags full of
acid tears staining my cheeks with
hot red blotches of fiery
guilt clouding my head like dense
fog settling into the room
between us is a thousand miles.
my eyes feel like bee-stings,
my heart a stone.
with my dead-tree body, withering and
wilting, i lay my heavy head and plead
for sleep to carry me away.
you already dozed off hours ago
like a sleeping child worn out
from throwing his toys 'round the sandbox.
your side of the bed is warm, soft and dry,
while the cold rain still pours over mine.
i guess tonight i'm sleeping in a storm.
Aug 16, 2016
Aug 16, 2016 at 5:30 AM UTC
My mind was filled with nothing but innocence before I met you
My heart was soaked in naive bliss before I met you
Now my mind is interrupted by the image of your face
And my heart is corrupted with your soft but piercing voice
The voice that once could put me to sleep like a lullaby
But now it's the only thing that keeps me up at night
You've etched the thought of you into the corners
And entangled it into the cracks of my now fragmented soul
What a torturous game that you don't even know you play
You show your universe to the girl with not even a star
You show her new ways of seeing your perfection
And new ways to show her to see her never ending flaws
I'm just an empty silhouette now, with nothing but hate
Hate for myself for no matter how much of myself I gave
That it would never be enough for you...
That I would never be enough for you...
Apr 28, 2014
Apr 28, 2014 at 8:01 AM UTC
Unlike Drake, we didn't start at the bottom,
We met about midway.
Two people amidst a common problem.
Darkness cloaks this part, at most I'll start to
Coast to the cause of the issues that bother
Cole the most, his heart revokes the thought
Of coming close to ignoring it farther.
I understand like a ghost, I see right through your father,
Voices don't come close to being as
Reprimanding as thoughts do.
They long for your heart to retain as much hatred as they can barter,
Until you can't stand the way that you breath or look at a person the same as you're recalling.
Much to the dismay of Blood,
I had to leave, I was falling,
Alcohol was more important than you all
And for that I'm sorry.
I tried to get away and break my chains
But veins yearn for that which takes the pain
Away and for that I only grew to know more pain.
One thing led to another and still the story's the same,
I've thrown away 5 years of my life to help me dig my own grave.
Amazingly I've made it through to write this story
And say that I've put childish things aside,
And live a better life today.
I support my son and make a living,
Just as Blood may.
As humans we're designed to seek that which
May better our emotional state,
On each individual level.
We chase that which can
Levitate our own knowledge in case there are
Discrepancies at bay.
As people, don't you want to know the full story,
I know your reputation for curiosity precedes you.
If not, why do I not deserve a chance at a sorry?
What means necessary must I take just to have a conversation?
It's quite hypocritical in fact,
But I digress in that partly.
Does trepidation rule over you,
Til you're blind to damnation?
Forevermore, you have risen,
Yet I remain uncomplacent.
Mar 31, 2019
Mar 31, 2019 at 3:54 PM UTC
Indestructible
I can no longer be…indestructible…
I have tried so many times.
I told the truth and I heard the replies…
They were always lies.
I tried, oh how I tried, so many times…
But I can no longer be…indestructible.
If love is all I have to give with nothing in return,
Then why must I give my love away when love only ever burns?
Love should be so much to give,
But all my love is worthless, it seems.
I am losing my empathy
And my understanding.
Losing my plan A and my plan B.
Losing when I should be winning...
I can no longer be indestructible,
For I am made of glass...
I can no longer be...
Indestructible.
(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.
Jun 11, 2018
Jun 11, 2018 at 2:22 PM UTC
She:I like him so much.
He(to himself) :Do u know, how much I like u???
She:I wait for monday to be with him.
He(to himself):Do u know, how much I wait just for ur one glance????
She:I am obsessed with him
He(to himself) :Do u know, you are everywhere in my thoughts????
She:Can you please gimme a solution because U are my bestfriend??
He(to himself) :Why me!!!! Can u gimme a solution for this situation of mine, just being your "Best Friend" ????
Jun 22, 2019
Jun 22, 2019 at 7:34 AM UTC
An illusion of happiness
If no love is faithful, then love does not truly exist.
If we are not of one consciousness, then we are simply nothing.
If we are heading in opposite directions,
Then we are no longer together;
So can I make a simple suggestion?
You go your own way and I will stand still.
Go climb your mountain tops, as I sit at the bottom of the hill.
You can reach for the moon; I will dig myself a grave.
You can go on without me, because you and I are not the same.
My idea of love is a castle, now in ruins.
Your perfect palace still shines,
So what are we doing?
You are so full of hope, whilst I am only ever helpless,
So I think it is for the best that we split up;
So we break up
And I will just leave love to the rest.
You can continue searching when I am gone,
Because I know you have already begun to look for love.
You must travel your own journey,
Because to me love is not real
And it is no fun.
It is an illusion of happiness,
So take it all with you,
Because;
With love;
I am done.
(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.
Apr 28, 2018
Apr 28, 2018 at 1:44 AM UTC
They say it hurts more and more
As you slowly crawl along the razors edge
That Beaming face has a rotten core
Your thick book of love has an empty last page
Conceal is your art, deception is your truth
Playing with this heart, shaking up its roots
The rainbow I loved always had an extra shade
The pain blow I absorbed morphed me into a living dead
Apr 29, 2020
Apr 29, 2020 at 3:08 PM UTC