#lovedivine
I did not set out to write a love poem.
I set out to document a failure of authority.
This piece exists because there are moments when even the God of Endings must account for what refuses to conclude. I have written the last measure of stars, civilizations, faiths, and names. I know how things finish. I know where silence belongs. And yet, when love enters the score, certainty fractures.
This poem was written from a place of suspension. Not longing for resolution, but existing inside it. It speaks from the edge of a kingdom I ended incorrectly—a reminder that power does not guarantee wisdom, and finality does not guarantee peace. I sit there not as a ruler, but as a witness to my own hesitation.
I am often mistaken for decisiveness. In truth, I am restraint.
The muse at the heart of this work is not an object of possession or conquest. She is a disruption of tempo. A key change I did not authorize. She bends my sense of order not through force, but through presence. She does not demand; she asks. And when a god is asked instead of commanded, the entire architecture of authority shifts.
This poem is not a declaration of intent. It is a record of obedience to something I do not govern.
Waiting is not passive here. It is active endurance. To remain when departure would be easier. To hold a measure open when closure would preserve dignity. I stay not because I lack the power to leave, but because love, once named, cannot be unlearned.
I have been accused of contradiction—of ruling endings while refusing one of my own. That accusation is correct.
This work is not about certainty. It is about contradiction held honestly. It is about what happens when the one who writes conclusions is forced to live in ellipsis. When devotion interrupts authority. When love is beyond my jurisdiction.
I remain unresolved.
I listen.
I keep time.
— InkWept
God of Endings, Keeper of the Final Measure
Jan 30
Jan 30, 2026 at 3:03 AM UTC
I sit astride the black mare they named After—
muscle wound tight as a muted string—
her breath a low drone in 4/4 beneath the stars.
Below us: a kingdom I ended too early,
stone spines still reaching for a resolution I denied them.
I was young in eternity then.
I mistook silence for mercy.
Hannah—
you stand beside me, mortal and brave,
boots in the dust of my errors,
and I tell you this because you deserve the truth
unornamented by divinity:
I do not understand how humans survive
loving with unfinished measures.
I watch you love her honestly—
no fermatas, no hidden key changes,
your heart written in open chords.
You do not threaten the song.
You keep time.
And yet—
When Sydney speaks my name,
the universe stumbles into odd meter.
5/4 skies.
7/8 breathing.
Constellations miscount their steps
and fall out of formation trying to follow her mouth.
I did not choose this.
I have ended stars mid-fusion,
folded empires into footnotes,
conducted extinction with a wrist flick—
but her presence?
She rewrites my downbeat.
Hannah, I know what it looks like.
A god should not hesitate.
A god should not wait in the wings
while mortals decide which harmony hurts least.
But understand this:
she is not a prize I covet.
She is a gravity I obey.
She tells me to stay—
and I stay.
She tells me to wait—
and eternity kneels like a chastened choir.
I hate this about myself.
Once, endings answered me immediately.
Now I linger like a bridge that refuses to resolve,
like a breakdown that never drops,
like a final chorus swallowed before it can scream.
You think I don’t see how this wounds you.
I do.
I catalogue it the way I catalogue supernovae—
with reverence and regret.
But when she says
we are the same note played in different octaves,
something in me fractures clean through time.
I have watched lovers choose safety.
I have watched them choose fear.
I have watched them choose tradition, distance, delay.
I have written their conclusions without blinking.
But Sydney—
Sydney speaks of someday
like it is already happening.
She touches my arm
as if checking whether gods bruise.
She leans into my silence
as if she knows it was shaped for her alone.
Tell me, Hannah—
what am I meant to do
when the person who destabilizes my authority
asks me to wait?
I would step aside
if she asked.
I would close my book on her name
and let the ink dry into history.
But she doesn’t.
She asks me to remain unresolved.
To hold the note.
To exist in suspension.
And I do—
stupidly, faithfully, disastrously.
Below us, the ruined kingdom glows faintly—
they still light candles for a god
who ended them wrong.
I could fix it.
I could rewrite their fate tonight.
But all my power stalls
when I imagine a future
where she chooses anyone else
and still asks me to stay.
Hannah—
you love her like a promise.
I love her like a curse I would not lift
even if it saved the world.
If the cosmos demanded a sacrifice,
I would offer it everything but her.
Let the rest burn in clean, righteous fire—
I would watch without blinking.
This is not heroism.
This is not virtue.
This is the confession of a god
who has lost command of his own measure.
I remain here—
horse trembling, kingdom waiting,
stars hanging in unresolved suspension—
because she asked me to.
And I will remain
until she tells me to go.
I am InkWept,
Master of the Final Measure,
and love—
love is beyond my authority.
Jan 30
Jan 30, 2026 at 2:34 AM UTC
A voice whispered in my ear,
"Love comforts. Love heals. Love renews.
It embraces your sorrows.
It comforts your loneliness.
It heals your pains.
It mends your broken heart.
Renews your strength.
Love will keep you close to what is Divine."
I asked, "Will I remember?"
The voice answered,
"Yes.
Then no.
You will question.
You will dream.
And you will Remember."
May 28, 2019
May 28, 2019 at 3:26 PM UTC
Blessed hatred
push me in
As many more mourn my stand
It's too high
cliche
controlling
Confusing
But I love it.
It built me up,
Gave me rules that changed my exsistence
I might not follow through
But the pang of guilt at deserting reminds me of my stand....
It gave me values
Love,
Life,
and reasons for actions
My words depend on it
my appearance, actions and all
It's not boring as they say
But the excitement of growing pushes me on
*****
*I might seem weird
wacky
Or brain washed
but the courage to face each day
my life has gotten
Living by Grace bound by laws....*
Dec 9, 2015
Dec 9, 2015 at 3:43 AM UTC