#loveburn
because the darkness grew
I lied and said you would help me be strong
but the fires in my eyes came down to roost
and now I can't help but sift through your ashes
to find your bones
is there any way to undo
the knots I tied around you
before I lit those flaming words within your soul?
is there escape from the walls I build
to keep me in?
because I don't mean to build them around you too
but somehow I do
and then we're stuck together
and more ashes litter the floor
afterwards.
can I not do this anymore?
or is there something inside me that
claws its way through my eyeballs
to find your soul and **** it bare
and leave it to dry in the night?
is it me?
I wish i knew if I did this to you,
or if it is the night
inside me
flirting with the day to find
a little spark of
demented happiness
in the screams of your eyes
when you look at me for
who I really am.
you know what? I wish I knew who I was
because lost inside the beating of my heart
I think I see a spot of color
but then it's gone and
I don't know anymore
I don't think I ever did.
Because there's so much more
to being me
than burning you.
I just want to find out what that is
because this demon isn't gonna stop
and I kinda wish it would
because I think my soul
is dying
or maybe life is death drawn out in tiny ebbing circles
like a tiny ebbing tide
and the ashes that I make of you
are the tears of last year's bride
condensed and broken into
microscopic
shards
of
fairydust?
Jun 3, 2015
Jun 3, 2015 at 11:17 PM UTC