#lovebomb
you said, “let’s make pancakes.”
and i said sure,
like i always do when i’m not sure
what else to say.
flour dusts the air,
tiny ghosts of what we were yesterday.
the bowl’s too small,
but so are we,
so maybe that’s fair.
eggshells crack like secrets.
we pretend not to notice.
you stir too long.
i stir too soft.
love burns if you look away too often.
and maybe that’s what this is.
half-cooked affection.
a sticky situation.
you drizzle syrup like confession,
slow and deliberate;
golden, heavy,
a little too sweet,
a little too late.
we talk about nothing.
we talk about everything.
you laugh,
and the sound lands like butter melting,
sliding off the edge of the pan,
gone before it sizzles.
i flip one.
it tears.
you say, “it’s fine.”
but i see it in your eyes.
you liked it better whole.
you say, “we’re messy.”
i say, “we’re breakfast.”
you don’t laugh this time.
the silence hums like the stovetop,
low, constant,
dangerous if left on too long.
syrup pools between the plates,
like spilled apologies,
too thick to clean.
you dip your fork in,
taste it,
and say, “still good.”
still good.
and maybe that’s us.
pancakes gone cold,
edges crisp with all the things we didn’t say,
but still somehow soft in the middle.
i watch you take another bite.
i want to ask if you mean it.
but the fork scrapes
and the moment is gone.
and love,
like syrup,
sticks to everything
it touches.
Nov 11, 2025
Nov 11, 2025 at 5:00 PM UTC
Alluring dark-brown mysteries
Extolled her imperfections
Blue-gray serenity
Kept their time-bombs ticking
Fragile and dismantled upon arrival
His jaded glass dark as night
What presented simple
But came from IKEA
Manifested anxieties left to fester
The organ’s sound halts in whiplash
One-day shipping
An expensive return label
Ominous unresolvable mysteries
Words which passed once easy
Now traversing trapdoors
Her reflection looked suspiciously good
A pulse with the force of a hurricane.
“Would you like to be my power of attorney?”
A small crack in her mirror inched…
“It would mean ultimate control, dot dot dot”
Increasingly noticeable nearby foley
Warnings of imminent danger
And a stream of cunning blood running…
A lip line with a hook
In a padlock’s darkness
Denies her golden key
“All lights out.”
Sweat pours as her shadow contorts
Dimensions of her familiar safety, enclosed
And a whisper from the blind…
“For me.”
Golden Skies
Black Eyes
Burning Desire So Magnanimous —
It’s hard to breathe.
You could just choke…
Ingrained.
Articulated.
Manipulation.
Covertly watered and tended to after dusk
A Stockholm Syndrome Food-Chain
Insecurities…
No Security…
Overworks…
An Overworked Vessel…
Into Silence.
𝒞.𝒫.ℛ. ❁ 7.20.23
Jul 20, 2023
Jul 20, 2023 at 1:05 PM UTC
I stand before you
my pieces put together in shapes
that do not cut when you get close
edges turned onto myself
press your lights against my chest
the coloured pieces of my hurt
shine in a mosaic
"you are so fragile, love"
"let me take care of you"
My eyes are closed
and I let myself be swallowed
into your words
they are cold but embracing
possessive and enveloping
Cradled and helpless
my pieces shift for the mold you've made
you tell me my pain is beautiful
and I let you eat my pieces up
until there is no more of me
and there I am, an empty shell
looking to be filled
seeking for the hands
and hoping they give me back
I don't know who I am without you.
Jun 27, 2020
Jun 27, 2020 at 7:48 PM UTC
I feel like I'm in that cycle again
Where you fill me so much of your love until I'm drunken by it
To make me fall deeply in love with you
And once I do, you step back, you hold back
The confusion game begins
I start to wonder, what have I done wrong?
Am I not enough for you? Or am I too much?
Is there someone else?
When you don't look at me the way you used to,
Who do you look at?
When you don't tell me you love me,
Who do you tell it to?
When you...
I've wondered and often so wondered
These doubts pushed me to hold back just the same
To go back to doing things on my own
To build a wall around me
Higher than me, higher than you
I'd be strong for awhile
But you always had your way of breaking through that wall
Again and again
And then the cycle of the game begins
Jun 1, 2020
Jun 1, 2020 at 8:29 PM UTC
To Love is to offer someone your heart strapped to a stick of dynamite; and trusting they never light the fuse
Dec 8, 2014
Dec 8, 2014 at 7:58 PM UTC