#lostcause
I hold you in songs and stories I narrate,
Turns out I was right all along.
We now know I did love you more.
We’ve had arguments before.
On who’s hurt who the most.
You’d say I did you,
And I’d yell “oh please”
You’d bring up the one time I slipped up,
And I’d hold onto the million times you let me down.
Your secrets mine, your scars mine.
Not that I was a better person, we were both kids after all.
And then I heard. you’ve been telling people.
Versions that don't exist.
What can I say,
I know we’ve had arguments before.
There will be no more.
I know it hurts, trust me,
I do.
However,
You did hurt me more.
And the price of it belongs to you.
And I’d rather walk away now,
Walk away and never come back
Irrespective of how much I miss you.
Irrespective of how it feels.
I’ll walk away, and never return.
Return to see how things could’ve been if I had stayed.
I hope in some time,
I would have moved on,
That you would replace me.
This is the way it is supposed to be.
This is the play we made to see.
It’s not our fault,
We were never meant to be.
Jun 21, 2022
Jun 21, 2022 at 2:36 PM UTC
After everything that we went through,
it's all now ashes on the ground.
I know I've said this is the last time,
many times before,
but this is the last time, I will let you hurt me again.
If I gave you up so easily,
why am I still hurting?
If I knew all along we were a lost cause,
why am I still searching?
If I made a lucky get away from the hell that was you,
then why do I still feel the same!
You were like a tornado,
tearing my world apart from the inside out.
You still haunt my dreams
turning them all to nightmare, all too easily...
So why do you still have me and when you shouldn't?
May 24, 2020
May 24, 2020 at 11:53 AM UTC
Lost Causes / (n) (plu):
1. Streets leading to dead-ends.
2. Children cursed shortly after birth by their fairy godmothers.
3. People diagnosed with last stage cancers.
4. Women you know are bad for your mental health and must chase nonetheless. Women, pretty, pretty women, with good hearts, and good intentions, and invariably bad decisions. Strong women who make you weak in the knees. Women with loud laughter who you know might make you cry for years afterward. Women, glowing, luminous women, leaving only darkness and silence in their wake. Lonely women looking for more loneliness.
Women needing love and not believing in it.
Women causing lost-ness.
Lost-ness causing women.
Jan 24, 2020
Jan 24, 2020 at 2:03 AM UTC
I have dreams I have goals.
I have everything I don't.
Sometimes I win,sometimes I don't.
The path I'm on is bleak to sum it all,I'm lost.
I am everything I'm not.
I live in my thoughts.
May 16, 2015
May 16, 2015 at 1:08 PM UTC
I am here
Though i am gone
Just a shell
Empty and souless
I listen to you
Without hearing
I look past
Not really seeing
Fearing feelings
I never dared to feel
Mar 30, 2015
Mar 30, 2015 at 4:02 AM UTC
Just give up,
Stop caring -im a lost cause.
Just forget it,
Love kills - i want to feel strong.
let sadness take me -
And happiness fade so far away.
Let pain feast up
Make it last forever, please.
Listen to me -
I dont need your love.
Watch me closely -
I am okay without you!
There are places Ill never go
Experiences Ill never have
Believe me- im good with that.
I like the way
Sadness tastes.
I am addicted to
This pain.
Just give it up already
Im a lost ******* cause.
Nov 10, 2014
Nov 10, 2014 at 5:34 PM UTC