#lonelysoul
She's sitting on the couch,
by the fireplace,
under the solemn red light of her room.
She is "the portrait of sadness" — the unpopular one,
the quiet one,
the least favorite of all.
A ghost in the crowd,
a whisper in the background.
You beg her to smile.
She tries, awkwardly, uncomfortably, under the unappreciating pressure of your selfish demands.
She gives that "fake" smile you laugh at!
As if her refusal — her inability to be artificial — is a means of your shameful fun.
But who would distort the beloved portrait of sadness?
Is sorrow really that ugly?
Is it not of human emotions?
Can intensity, can that fire in her soulful eyes,
Not take the place of demanding, over-demanding joy
in a photograph,
nor in the real world?
Not even once?
**** Can you just let her be?
Let her dance,
or even breathe freely in a world of her own,
rather than acting awkwardly
in one of yours?
Would you, for God's sake, just let her breathe?
Don't ever beg her to smile.
For she is the portrait of sadness.
For she's only beautiful in her sorrow.
The very thing you fear.
The very thing you hate.
But secretly feel
in the depths of your hearts!
Feb 16
Feb 16, 2026 at 8:47 PM UTC
My heart is broken,
I don’t know what to do.
An empty silence follows me,
I feel alone, always.
Something is missing,
a piece I cannot find.
Tears fall without reason,
leaving me incomplete.
Sep 30, 2025
Sep 30, 2025 at 10:22 AM UTC
Siento un vacío en el corazón.
¿Y si lo arranco?
¿Dejará de sentirse?
No...
No debería intentarlo,
me moriré.
No lo puedo llenar con ninguna emoción.
Creo que estoy perdido.
Siento un vacío en el corazón.
¿Y si lo regalo?
No…
Sería un alma muerta,
un cuerpo sin sentido.
Quisiera estar acostado
sobre un suelo blanco,
ver cómo me desangro
y se tiñe de rojo.
Pero no…
Tengo que seguir viviendo.
¿Algún día dejaré de estar así?
-S.F
Jul 21, 2025
Jul 21, 2025 at 10:05 PM UTC
I'd feel like a stranger at my own funeral-
who's that in the box, dressed better in death
than I ever managed in life?
Better than my quiet attempts-those empty rehearsals
at suicide.
Was this the last chance I had left?
Even in death, my voice isn't heard-
nor the screaming ones trapped inside my skull.
Even my ghost wouldn't believe it's dead,
still hoping the lives I tried to save
might pay my way past the gates,
buy out my debts.
But what if there's no heaven waiting?
What if another kind of hell greets me instead?
What if I never see my old friends again-
never laugh without fear,
never smile without pretending?
What if I never stop
being so ******* afraid
so strangely ashamed
to feel nothing,
to be numb to even shame itself?
All I wanted
was to be born again-
not into some perfect life,
but one that wouldn't lead me
back to searching for another end.
And isn't it strange-
how only in death do we see our regrets
with such clarity?
Because there's nowhere left to run from them
once we get
to the end.
Jun 8, 2025
Jun 8, 2025 at 2:52 AM UTC