#lonelyhours
there is so much more to life
than just this feeling.
Oct 29, 2022
Oct 29, 2022 at 4:52 AM UTC
same feelings,
different person.
it’s got me wondering…
what is the lesson in all this?
Oct 29, 2022
Oct 29, 2022 at 4:40 AM UTC
i betray myself every night,
when i sneak off
and see you in my dreams.
Dec 28, 2018
Dec 28, 2018 at 1:42 PM UTC
i can’t form the words
to tell you how i feel,
and even if i could,
no words could expresss
the pain that i feel.
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 1:47 AM UTC
No more temporary highs,
to hide away the hurt.
No more lies,
No more “good-byes”.
No more temporary fills,
to fill the voids,
or making homes of
what we should avoid.
Dec 6, 2018
Dec 6, 2018 at 3:53 AM UTC
i guess my biggest fear is
giving the best parts of me
to someone who brings out the worst…
it’s stripping myself of pride and ego
while they bathe in their own illusions
it’s welcoming you to make a home of my heart
while you leave me banging on your front door
crying for comfort, dying for shelter
Nov 28, 2018
Nov 28, 2018 at 9:28 PM UTC
i’m not sure what to hold onto anymore.
everything seems new,
though i’ve known it all before.
am i living my truth,
upholding my truth?
who knows...
i’m not sure what to hold onto anymore..
Oct 24, 2018
Oct 24, 2018 at 4:18 PM UTC
no hangovers,
just leftover
memories from last night,
too faded to remember
what happened last night
Oct 20, 2018
Oct 20, 2018 at 7:22 AM UTC
crazy how
i let all this **** happen
just cos i didn’t wanna be the one
to hurt you...
Oct 13, 2018
Oct 13, 2018 at 2:01 PM UTC
i’ve been stuck in the same place
since, i don’t even know when.
my mind, soul, and body
welcoming nasty thoughts,
whispering ***** things,
i‘ve become anew.
yet so lonely,
so confused, and so lost.
there are cobwebs growing
above my head where i sleep.
who am i really?
Oct 6, 2018
Oct 6, 2018 at 6:15 PM UTC
let’s not make haste and waste it,
when you know you can’t replace it, just face it.
we were placed in these phases,
chasing pavements,
and foreign places,
cos it’s fate that we’re facing.
so let’s stay up late and create
a state of mind for you and i,
what’s new and mine.
and we’ll know
what’ll go
in time.
Sep 21, 2018
Sep 21, 2018 at 4:36 AM UTC
i wish i loved me better,
so i could have loved you deeper.
Sep 20, 2018
Sep 20, 2018 at 6:57 AM UTC
I need your absence
to rediscover the parts of me,
I had lost in the midst of you.
I need time and space
to try to get to know me better,
to heal from a place of disaster.
And most importantly,
I need my heart and mind
to agree that..
we’re just not meant for one another.
Sep 9, 2018
Sep 9, 2018 at 10:15 PM UTC
you’ve engulfed me,
in foreign waters..
drowned by this sea of
petty lies and empty cries,
so you could keep me around
for your well-being
but never asking
about mine.. or, how i’m doing
you never really cared about me,
you never really gave a thought about me.
you’ve only picked at my insides
from a distance..
ripping me piece by piece
while you struggled to stay whole..
i know you prayed i’d stay blind,
and now you’ve lost your mind.
because i didn’t
Sep 8, 2018
Sep 8, 2018 at 2:53 PM UTC
don’t you dare say i never cared,
about what we shared..
when i was so afraid to hurt you,
i would hurt myself instead,
i would suffer for you.
and don’t you dare say i never loved,
when every part of me longed for us,
and called out to you
every single night..
i loved our love.
but i never had enough to fill the both of us.
Sep 8, 2018
Sep 8, 2018 at 2:11 PM UTC
I’m afraid to let people in cos i’ve seen too many go.
I can’t trust your words cos i’ve heard it all before.
From different people
with different stories,
but the same intent.
It all ends the same.
And the honest truth is...
I’m just tired of getting left behind.
Sep 8, 2018
Sep 8, 2018 at 1:52 PM UTC