#lonelyheart
I am a drop of water from an empty tap –
the waters split in two by Moses’ staff;
a skeletal thing surviving somehow –
a chaff of my own skin, painting over
the scars of every other part of my being.
Sometimes so cold, paralyzed –
masked over time, heart sanitised…
a pandemic; to outdated for _mjolo_
to love solo, but for it all to feel so low.
Because ultimately what I give is all
I hope will return in full back to me;
still it all returns partly, where the ocean
remembers your tears, the deeper you
sink… __this must be my Brink.__
Oct 21, 2025
Oct 21, 2025 at 5:18 PM UTC
Anxiety, do you think you love me?
Oh mind, do you want to be my friend?
A lonely stone in the full quarry
No chance that it will begin to swim
Shadow girl, with your many faces
With every ash you take to sin
Big voiced tropes steady unfolded
A fear to never tell again
Aug 7, 2025
Aug 7, 2025 at 9:17 AM UTC
I am the lonely portrait— a relic of forgotten frames,
paused mid-stroke, as if the brush lost faith in its worth
My skin is painted by many words; learning how to be
tough, taking down note by hesitant note— while the music
always plays in a minor key, an echo with no crescendo,
a verse that never becomes a chorus.
I speak in shadows— duelling the lovely dark that dresses
itself as company. It moves like an earthquake beneath ribs,
quiet until it’s catastrophic, gentle until it crumbles;
paramount and omnipotent.
My tears are potent, but never that important – imported;
as they arrive like a contraband emotion, smuggled in through
brief touches, but never held long enough to feel like home.
No comfort in the snuggle, only a struggle for the struggle —
I carry a thousand reflections, yet none are my own. And still,
I try—stroke by trembling stroke— to repaint my worth without
a muse, without applause, just silence and canvas and longing.
I am the painter’s sad poem— unfinished, unframed; hanging
quietly in a gallery no one walks through anymore.
May 29, 2025
May 29, 2025 at 5:20 PM UTC
I wrote thousands of arcs in my mind about how we would meet and fall for each other. Yet none of them came true. Maybe I should have wished for one of those arcs from the treasure trove in my mind to come true—when that comet passed by earlier.
May 4, 2025
May 4, 2025 at 9:08 PM UTC
You’re so naive, so hopeless
Thinking everyone is the same
Thinking everyone will care
You’re so stupid, so gullible
You think they won’t forget
You think they will always remember you
Even when you’re not around
But you’re wrong
They’re not
When you alone, you remember them
When you busy, you miss them
When they around, you cherish them
When they busy, they forget you
When you around, they ditch you
When they together, they make you feel alone
You slips away, they didn’t notice
They slips away, you’re restless
You try to reach, they didn’t assume
They try to reach, you’re ecstatic
Clearly, even the blind know you’re left one-sided
The lonely heart, you just a lonely heart
You put up a smirk and be unbreakable
The lonely heart, you just a lonely heart
You put up a smile and be unaffected
The lonely heart, you just a lonely heart
Nov 21, 2018
Nov 21, 2018 at 9:04 AM UTC
What does the good heart ask
Who are still remain to compete
When a disease remains un defeat
Where on deathbed at the feet
Will I waste my last words so sweet
Why "Do you see, I won? "
Jun 6, 2018
Jun 6, 2018 at 4:50 AM UTC