#lifeanddeath
Entropy is increasing,
Slowly reducing order to disorder
Like all things must,
As confirmed by thermodynamics
And witnessed by aging,
To the point where all things
Weather,
Wither,
Die.
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Alive.
Love,
Loss,
Is the malady of experience;
A means to interpret energy
Such that
Whatever choices
You must make
The first law is final:
One conversion,
No waste.
Mar 28
Mar 28, 2026 at 5:57 PM UTC
The wings are enormous—
cathedral-spanning things,
broken open against the quiet earth
like a prayer that forgot its ending.
Each feather is long as a forearm,
layered in pale gradients—
ivory fading into ghost-gray,
tips kissed with a faint, dying gold
like sunlight remembered, not held.
They should be radiant.
They should be untouchable.
Instead, they drink.
Blood finds them slowly at first—
a hesitant spill,
a trembling red confession
slipping from the hollow of a ruined body.
Then it comes heavier.
It runs in rivulets down the barbs,
collects in the soft down
where warmth used to live.
The feathers darken,
one by one,
until the angel wears a second skin—
crimson layered over heaven.
The color is not simple.
It is deep, arterial—
a red so thick it almost breathes,
so dark at its edges it turns to wine,
to rot,
to something ancient and remembering.
It glistens where the light touches it,
wet and reverent,
like the world itself is mourning
in reflections.
When it dries,
it stiffens the wings—
each feather clinging to the next,
a fragile architecture of ruin.
Run your fingers along them
and they would rasp—
a soft, brittle whisper
like pages of a burned book.
The wings are vast enough
to have once hidden cities beneath them,
to have cradled storms,
to have brushed the face of God—
and now they lie folded,
heavy with gravity and grief,
unable to remember the sky.
There is sadness here, yes—
a deep, marrow-quiet sadness,
the kind that settles into bones
and builds a home.
But there is beauty too.
In the way the red blooms against the pale,
like roses forced open in winter.
In the way death does not erase—
it transforms,
it paints,
it makes something unbearable
into something impossible to look away from.
The fallen angel does not move.
But the wings—
the wings still hold a kind of majesty,
even soaked,
even ruined,
even undone.
As if life and death
were never opposites—
only lovers
pressing their colors into each other
until neither can be told apart.
Mar 27
Mar 27, 2026 at 8:40 PM UTC
If I were gone today
my name would fill the room.
Voices soft with sorrow
beside a bed of bloom.
They’d say I fought through storms,
they’d say I carried fire,
they’d say my heart was stubborn
and refused to ever tire.
They’d tell the world my story,
how strong they thought I’d been,
how bright my quiet courage
burned beneath my skin.
They’d wish they said it sooner,
they’d wish they held me near,
they’d wish they’d let me know
how much I mattered here.
But I’m not gone today.
I’m breathing.
I’m alive.
It’s only just my birthday
and the world goes passing by.
No flowers on the doorstep,
no voices at the door,
no sudden rush of memories
like they’d speak at death before.
And that’s the bitter lesson
this quiet day can bring—
how loudly love is spoken
when it’s said beside a ring
of roses round a coffin
for a life that can’t reply,
yet barely whispered softly
to a soul still passing by.
Because I’m still here breathing,
still standing in the light,
still living through the silence
of another birthday night.
So if the kindest words
are saved for when I’m gone—
maybe the real tragedy
is waiting that long.
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 2:48 PM UTC
The flowers in the glass vase
Pretty and fragrant.
Oh, the pretty flowers.
In a little glass vase
Alive for so long,
Eventually, the water runs out,
And the pretty fades.
Oh, they have wilted,
They were always gonna
From the start.
Oh, the flowers on the vase
Will wilt eventually.
All the pretty flowers’ destiny,
To be shown,
To be unknown,
To fade away,
Oh, the flowers in the glass vase.
They don't last forever,
Just like the water they breathe
Jan 16
Jan 16, 2026 at 12:37 PM UTC
May the dead rest in peace
we say, the rest
of dreamless sleep
in the afterlife
of limbo
during the tedious wait
for the thereafterlife
of heaven
Perhaps that is
purgatory: idleness
till eternity, Amen
May the dead rest in peace
we say, the unrest
of our memory
which knows it is too late
to undo what has been done
Perhaps that is
life: being restless
until death
Nov 29, 2025
Nov 29, 2025 at 3:15 AM UTC
The fact is, only
life exists, the beating hearts --
of birds in a swarm.
Oct 10, 2025
Oct 10, 2025 at 4:05 AM UTC
a life reflected in my tear— feels like
a whole ocean held in glass, _shattering_
as it dries across my cheek, breath
breaking shallow, thoughts spilling faster
than my lungs can keep.
and just when I reach for life, it drags back—
almost like smoke on a cigarette: each
inhale a promise, each exhale a quiet theft.
so time bites like an apple, sweet at first
taste, but rotting me slowly down
to the core.
wait... I found the colour of prayer
in the grass, my knees pressed low
until the earth became an altar.
to bend is to grow, to kneel is to root—
but the more I chase what isn’t mine,
the more pieces of myself scatter like
loose change, spent out on illusions.
so I pack away the versions of me—
drawers filled with colours, some bruised
like dusk, some bright as flame;
stitched together, I am still made of light,
even if the lamp inside me flickers.
and by the lovely darkness—
my contradiction, my just cathedral—
know my soul will ignite in an instant,
even if the tunnel stretches endless.
because it is darkness itself that makes
light _Undeniable_.
Oct 5, 2025
Oct 5, 2025 at 5:27 AM UTC
Life is the greatest killer of all.
Cancer. Sickness. ******
Wellness to illness, function to dysfunction:
Two sides of the same coin toss.
The greatest civil rebellion lasted
122 years, give or take, yet
In all the struggle few realize that the true oppressor
Is always enslaved to a certain animal within.
Our ancestors die, our rivals die, our sisters die,
We've been choosing death all along.
Look at our blood: from tree to house to ash
And mammal to mammal to dirt to memory.
All things before the sun, that great heap of ******
Will have the color drained from them.
The great white is an event
Of the great blackness. And when it explodes . . .
And there's a lesson to be told here,
Call it 1.1.
There is a lucky infinity
Of the few who, unlike us, life
Didn't take them, and there is a growing infinity
Of us the many who death will take. I fear
That there will be a great war
To ruin the eternities that dot the night skies,
The Olympians. I fear a great war
Where infinite darkness both ways
Will finally collapse -
And us in the middle, the living,
This star chained away
By space and time and
The magnificence of its light,
Breathing away every last drop -
Will fail,
And the big black bang will stretch out in both ways
As a final **** you to existence.
And that'll be the end of it.
Sep 21, 2025
Sep 21, 2025 at 4:25 PM UTC
I didn’t pay heaven’s worth for one hell of a ride— for all the
Valentine cards, I’m just calling their bluff. What’s carved into
stone is too heavy to skip across the rivers of my chest; love
sinks deeper than it pretends to float. A carousel of emotions
spins; all its horses in place— some only love _horsing around._
Round and round it goes; the painted smile, waiting for
the cycle to end, for the spell of tomorrow to break.
So I write letters to the future, hopes tangled in snares of my
doubts. The tongue—sharp as steel, soft as silk—knows how
to give life, and how to **** We cover scars with scars, as the
extending arm, just to say we’re armed, clutching too many
guns inside our ribs. But how can blessings hold on when
your hands stay hidden, when you wear a balaclava over
your smile?
Harvest comes only from what you’ve planted—patience,
honesty, or silence. Soil on the tongue buries every word
that could have fed us.
So tell me—was heaven’s worth ever meant for one
hell of a ride?
Sep 11, 2025
Sep 11, 2025 at 4:08 PM UTC
My breath, light as feather, words like dust—find it best
not to speak too much, lest I seem soft as a feather duster.
Dreams of a perfect body, shadowed by many premonitions,
permissions granted only by the mountains where I took life
by the heel—miswriting heal, and climbing that endless hill
toward closure.
I saw a fish in a teardrop, a sad smile crossing its face; and it
weighed the world on its scales. The river’s currents glistened
with depression— so I pushed upstream, crying a mountain’s
worth of water.
I fought not to wash myself away, lying beneath it all, while
an angel kissed my twisted hair; locked my thoughts in place.
Perfectly ready to die, dancing to a song of reoccurring suicide,
a melody only I could hear. Must entail the full act of dying,
feel the strings beneath your fingers— chords played in secret,
as if David himself taught me the strum. To be an instrument
to a horn, to hone your skills, to feel like a big man someday.
Think of this the next time someone says, “Yeah, I’m okay.”
So much hidden, beneath that quiet syllable, an entire ocean
of grief swallowed in one breath.
Aug 31, 2025
Aug 31, 2025 at 2:37 PM UTC
_Life is a wonder_ —no wonder I still wonder
how I made it to today. Life is what you make of it —
not like a butler who serves, but a self-made shape
you forge from struggle and grace.
We judge with our eyes, but on Judgment Day,
it won’t be our eyes that matter. And when that day
arrives —whether we walk or run to heaven’s gate —
know that love won't wear the form you tried to fit
into every heart.
To love in part means sometimes we must depart —
leave behind space wide enough for stars to breathe.
The emptiness you find may feel vague, but it’s where
meaning stirs quietly, and the hopes you laid on a lover
might be the very hope that led you astray.
We leave this place as ashes — but never to rest
in an ashtray. Because even dust has destiny,
and fire never forgets what it once warmed.
_Life is a wonder_ — in both a good and bad way.
And maybe that’s enough.
Jul 26, 2025
Jul 26, 2025 at 2:08 PM UTC
__Tragedy never seems to run out;__
a cat runs through traffic —
and unfortunately,
it finally
ran out of lives.
Jul 16, 2025
Jul 16, 2025 at 8:01 AM UTC
"O, you who march toward hell, embrace death—it is your only chance to escape alive.
Oh, you are oblivious to hope, beware—you stand on the brink of losing it forever.
Oh, you lingering at the edges of oblivion, existence is no game of hide-and-seek—find yourselves before you vanish.
You who arrive here know you are already among the departed. Calm your fears, for the worst has yet to come.
O, you who weep for the past, dry your tears. The past was once the present, but the future… the future will never be."
May 22, 2025
May 22, 2025 at 7:27 PM UTC
“At the end of life, when the final breath escapes, everything we chased loses meaning.
A single breath takes a lifetime to release—yet still, I wonder:
how many breaths must be drawn and lost before we truly grasp the values that matter in this world?”
May 19, 2025
May 19, 2025 at 5:59 AM UTC
Do you not think about it the thing we fear the most
Same way we will all end and have a string around our toe
Or is it just me wondering about something I really can not help
Something so honest but so hurtful to accept
Did it ever cross your mind
How soothing religion is to believe
Yet everyone still has that fear at the end,
because life isn't at all what it seems
You can only speak now
What you feel and what you know
But how certain are you of the place you end up when it's really time to go
They say give it to God and I did
And he gave the thoughts back
If hell wasn't such the curse
Would our good deeds still be an act
If you knew there was nothing at the end
Would you share that and instill fear
Or would you put your loved one's heart and mind at peace,
if you told them what they wanted to hear
In no way am I saying there is no super being
There's a whole wide world
So, God isn't what I'm questioning
What if we're supposed to just feel the right now
And feel all the moments
Just to say it has happened
Is that what the Lord only wanted
Life is a celebration
The poor suffer through, and the rich take a toast
But how can you be obsessed with something you fear the most?
May 1, 2025
May 1, 2025 at 8:29 AM UTC
Death is put away,
or it is lost, forgotten --
again and again.
Mar 28, 2025
Mar 28, 2025 at 5:10 AM UTC
Two souls have come together,
two magical beings.
What does the universe want,
to stir such a commotion?
Everything will be allowed,
when their time arrives.
Perhaps they are not the only ones
protecting themselves.
Perhaps beings from beyond
are shielding them too.
For they share the same fears,
and all will unfold in the earthly realm,
when they choose.
They were everything,
they were nothing.
Everything was mystical,
fire,
and air.
They moved from the battle of life
to the refuge of disaster.
Only souls,
finally found.
They were the dream
they never dreamed,
but that the universe
had already decreed.
Mar 8, 2025
Mar 8, 2025 at 2:05 PM UTC
death is humble;
death does not discriminate;
death is everything,
but life.
Jan 12, 2025
Jan 12, 2025 at 11:58 PM UTC
In the graveyard
silence reigns
Darkness all around
And loved ones
Memories linger never gone
And your all in our hearts
All day long
And the grass grows wild
Between the graves sadness
In my eyes as the
Names etched in stone faded with age
A reminder of life's final stage
And the moonlight casts
A ghostly glow over the graveyard tonight
For in death there is a stark reminder
To cherish each precious moment
we are given so
God bless you all.
Oct 6, 2024
Oct 6, 2024 at 3:53 AM UTC
Dying means little
without fantasy, else it's --
about everything.
Dec 2, 2023
Dec 2, 2023 at 3:47 AM UTC
The Friesian horses,
stepping in black cloths with hoods --
and snorting with life.
Jan 4, 2023
Jan 4, 2023 at 4:02 AM UTC
No age
no age at all
never a justification
a reason to placate us
just an implacable, non-negotiable theft
of love, histories and too much still to be
the solace, a skinflint’s compensation,
is that for a short while you had them
and they had you
and that was life
but that’s as much as you get
to try to make it through
Sep 5, 2021
Sep 5, 2021 at 12:03 PM UTC
• • •
And I wonder who's luckier —
the living hoping for his death
or the dead wishing for another breath?
• • •
Oct 9, 2020
Oct 9, 2020 at 8:01 PM UTC
When you are smiling in your dreams.
I am here crying myself to sleep.
When you are having a good laugh.
I am here practicing a smile to hide my scars.
When you are enjoying your day.
I am here wanting the memories of you to go away.
When you are having fun and getting wild.
I am here cooped up in my bed loosing my mind.
When you are there experiencing.
I am here regretting.
When you are having the time of your life.
I am laying here wanting to end mine.
Oct 1, 2020
Oct 1, 2020 at 6:42 AM UTC
if I were the Scar to your Mufasa,
then I'd re-write that whole disaster
and be th' one to go to th' hereafter,
for you, I gladly opt to be the martyr
Aug 12, 2020
Aug 12, 2020 at 10:14 PM UTC