#liability
With these cold hands I write my symphony
With yours you've made yourself an enemy
And I sat and endured humility
Took the names and the liability.
I took it upon myself to curse and heal
I sat there and built a fever dream
Your words remembrance in my soul
A little fame from you I stole.
And perhaps I wanted you to be seen
In a light that was a little too mean
And I don't blame myself for the betrayal
Because I stood there a little too loyal.
And petty laughs I know you muffle
Ignorance in full throttle
We pray to the same deities but we do it differently
Are we to blame a deity
Or the society
For an unfair calamity
Id rather pretend to be
Almighty.
Sep 17, 2024
Sep 17, 2024 at 1:36 PM UTC
I crave consumption
An urge to purge,
If you will
To cease all function
I want my body to be still
I want my heart to be still
I want my mind to be free
I crave consumption
I want to undo my reality
I crave consumption
An urge to purge,
If you will
To cease all function
I want my body to be still
I want my heart to be still
I want my mind to be at peace
I crave consumption
I want to be decreased
Sep 2, 2020
Sep 2, 2020 at 11:11 AM UTC
She walked,
Alone, unseeing of the clamour behind her.
Cold, and bereft,
Yearning - for what?
She left. Just disappeared,
Cocooning further as hands
Invisible to her, tried to land
On her heart.
Jul 6, 2020
Jul 6, 2020 at 10:16 PM UTC
I crave consumption,
An urge to purge,
To cease all function,
To rid the the world
Of the destruction caused by me.
I crave consumption,
I crave to undo this liability
May 2, 2020
May 2, 2020 at 4:46 PM UTC
It's just another small
Little
Miserable day
For the
Liability
You know you had it coming
Here's some for all your nothing
Small,
Simple,
Incapable mind
Wasting
Everybody's time
Making molehills mountains
You'll never amount to something!
May 2, 2020
May 2, 2020 at 4:45 PM UTC
Minds connected
Souls intertwined
In a crowded room it was just you and I.
Spoken truths
Unspoken love
Above all is what you consist of
Beautiful trauma, tell me your name
I’m dazzled by your abilities
Oh tranquility
Am I going insane?
They’re the liabilities,
So save me
from the mundane
Eyes connected
Spirits combined
Our lives infected
by the world that we find
Sweet sweat of chaos
in the taste of your tears
Retain your innocence and
run with me for years
Beautiful trauma, tell me your name
I’m dazzled by your abilities
Oh tranquility
Am I going insane?
They’re the liabilities
So save me
from the ****** mundane
May 21, 2019
May 21, 2019 at 7:02 PM UTC
I wonder if I'm able to love without making a catastrophe of it.
Is my heart more than a catalyst for tragedy?
I wonder, did you ever feel like you were drowning in my feelings?
did you feel like you were breathing again as you walked away?
did you feel like another muse for my sad poetry?
I didn't mean to try and use you as the glue for all my broken parts.
I'm a natural disaster and the truth is the ground beneath you shook everytime you came close.
My pure intentions always seem to get twisted but I promise you I only ever wanted to love.
I know I'm poison running through your veins.
I know you wanted to spit me out the second you tasted me.
I'll kiss another boy who doesn't know my mind because if he did as well as you he'd walk away the same.
Just know I tried to be simple. I tried until I felt nothing at all.
Jan 13, 2019
Jan 13, 2019 at 10:49 PM UTC
its hard to fill loneliness
you cant find the solution if you dont know the problem
blindly searching for an object with no name
that may fix the unfixable
and knowing this keeps you up at night
makes you feel like you are the room itself,
not its occupant.
a liability,
is what they call it.
Aug 26, 2018
Aug 26, 2018 at 10:56 PM UTC
I was told I was a blessing although I felt I was a curse. They had to find a cure; they felt like something was missing, and that something was me. I feel like a burden with a weight too heavy to carry, too heavy to handle and too much to overcome. I feel like the unwanted insects that roam through the forest- stepped on and broken, but no one cares enough to stop. No one cares enough to do the healing. For all that I am, I am too much to handle. For all that I am, I have been labeled a burden. In a red striped shirt and blue Levi’s jeans I am all that I am, a burden indeed.
Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 6:56 PM UTC
And sometimes I lie awake at night with a feeling of loneliness but also a feeling of guilt for I feel as though I am a waste of space. I am a heavy burden with a fragile sign plastered on me. How could anyone love me for all that I am for I am too much to handle. I am too much for myself and I’m too much for others for i only take up space. I am a liability
Jun 24, 2018
Jun 24, 2018 at 4:35 PM UTC
You can think whatever you like.
That’s the freedom of thought.
Experience leads you to perception,
so let me tell you stories about
you.
There was once a time
where we were at odds,
and our spirits acted as
poles on a magnet.
I tried hard to turn myself around
but I ended up in an uncontrolled spin.
Ever gaining velocity
from your push.
There was once a time
where you were deceitful
and purposely put me in a situation
where I had to keep quiet
about your pathetic inability
to have an ounce of self-control.
There was once a time
I coddled you in a moment of pain.
I sacrificed my focus,
for your feelings,
as friends do.
There was once a time
where you invaded my personal space
without permission.
Too intoxicated to remember
but vain enough to run from the truth
of your unwelcomed actions.
There are many times
when the words that flow
out of your mind
and to your mouth
are convoluted, primitive
thoughtless, and egocentric.
There is now a time
where I do not call you friend.
When the veil has been burned to ashes,
and all that remains
is the same exact person
you claim to have slayed.
****** predator, pathological liar,
selfish, and narrow minded.
People never change.
May 16, 2018
May 16, 2018 at 11:19 AM UTC
Rudy's idea
that trump
hush money
with character
witness in
a defamation
law suit
rescind the
amount in
question for
favorable glance
with Stormy's
****** this
question of
honesty no
longer applicable
in case.
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 7:28 AM UTC
Eyes have vision
Mind decisive
Words bear meaning
Actions hardly furtive
Body is hale
And legs could carry
Resolution never stronger
But heart remains a liability
Jan 8, 2017
Jan 8, 2017 at 7:44 AM UTC
Let the flames consume me
Swallow me whole
Hellfire brings life
To my deadened senses
It used to be you
Maybe there’s a correlation
To this thrilling sensation
I feel most alive
When prepared to expire
Please, keep me here
Release these fears
I don’t know warmth
All I know is fire or ice
Why do I feel old
At such a youthful age?
Young me down
Dumb me down
Numb me down
What was wrong before
Is still what’s wrong today
Sometimes I just won’t say
What it is to you kids
Thanks, but move on
You hurt more than help
Though, helping more than hurting
Pains me much, still
Don’t assume so many things
Give your eyes a break
Put down your stone
Shoot your high horse
Chop up that pedestal
Become low and lesser
Then maybe you can hear me
Between the shouting
And the lashing
The tears and the blood
The putdowns to build up
Until the once built
Have crumbled to your consent
What’s my content?
For you to complete the job
Most business is unfinished,
But you’ll complete this task
You were contracted since, “Hello.”
Sad, I know, but
Don’t be sociable otherwise
Get over it
Burn me, burn them
Burn you, burn friends,
Burn whomever, whatever
Just leave ashes, dust,
Smoke, smog, haze, regrets
Apr 30, 2014
Apr 30, 2014 at 5:41 PM UTC