#letting-go
please hold me closer
before you let go
let me in your world
so far away
but i can reach up and grab you
paper that can crumble
let me inside your world
only for a few days
a few minutes
a second goes by
you take me
i'm gone
please
if you will
let me do it again
Dec 28, 2016
Dec 28, 2016 at 8:45 PM UTC
They say
He is perfect
Though she
Will always leave
Nov 13, 2016
Nov 13, 2016 at 12:16 AM UTC
Perhaps the bravest thing we can do is relinquish control and let the wind usher us where it may.
Aug 6, 2016
Aug 6, 2016 at 1:18 AM UTC
I built myself
a prison,
my address: flesh
and bones.
I built myself
a prison,
some walls to call
my home.
Inside: a ceiling
painted black,
a fireplace
so cold.
I built myself
a prison,
shackled my heart
with thought,
and squeezed and
showed my soul
into a tiny hole;
to cover all
the bases, blindfolded
my eyes so,
although the gate was open
there was no place
to go.
Jun 24, 2016
Jun 24, 2016 at 8:43 AM UTC
The sunset strings its rosary in beads of strawberry and mother's love as the day comes to an end. The light lays and prays.
When you miss something, you think of the small, fleeting moments that you gave no attention to before. You start to think of the way she pronounced things, tongue smooth over teeth and so unlike you. You think of the way her eyes moved when she laughed, the way she touched your shoulder gently when she looked at you, blue eyes and butterfly pink lips.
I wonder what it will take to pry me away from you. I wonder how much will ever be too much. What weight will stop my heart from giving anymore?
I saw the way you moved over the kitchen floor, your small feet gliding on the tile, dancing to your own humming. The sun was stinging my eyes, trying to count her days and count her blessings.
It felt like God almost cared about me again.
But God doesn't care about me.
He doesn't care what you like.
He doesn't even care.
And if all good things must come to an end, then let me just say amen to everything that makes you you. Amen to the smallest of moments and the tiniest of hints that someday, the sun would burn out.
Jun 11, 2016
Jun 11, 2016 at 2:48 PM UTC
In the instant it takes a shutter to click and close, you will be gone.
We collected pictures of our perfect pretty smiles, your pearl teeth bear in front, while my lipstick lips, curled into butterfly wings, charmingly drift through the summer air. You are there, you are still there, where I left that you. Before the future became the present and you were no longer here, still there. You are where I cannot reach you.
I held that memory on the tips of my fingers, flicking a lighter close to its edge.
Your hair fell so perfectly over your forehead, but somehow, I still wanted to push it to the side when I looked at the photographs. I guess habit doesn't cease in an instant like the snap of a Polaroid or beat of a heart. When I looked at our pictures, I still wanted to whisper into your ear how much I loved you, chin nuzzled into your neck, fingers draped across your chest, your heart, your warmth. Nothing is permanent. Not even promises. Not even the visions of the kids, the house, the daytime dish washing, and night time monster watching, kids curled up in bed and us, checking on the floor, searching for what is not there and it's funny how even now, even though you're gone, I still find myself doing the same thing. Just alone.
As it caught fire, I watched our perfect lives fall to ashes in the shoe box at my feet, I saw the flash of your eyes and reach of my hand, choking me as it went. They didn't burn as easily as I thought they would.
Im hanging new ones in their place, but the dark spots behind the frames still remain, and your name is written in them.
Apr 19, 2016
Apr 19, 2016 at 1:54 PM UTC
Please remember, dear.
Please continue to love you.
Please spare the heartache.
Feb 22, 2016
Feb 22, 2016 at 12:11 PM UTC
anger simmers quietly
until I find the strength
to let go
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 8:57 AM UTC
To the one that got away:
*I paint a rainbow everyday
with the tears I shed
and the sunshine I reckon
caressing my face*
To the one that writes the poems:
*One day, someday
the night in your words will be filled
with the stars of tomorrow
Reckon you’ll be okay*
Nov 27, 2015
Nov 27, 2015 at 10:29 PM UTC
let me show you my battle scars;
they form on the insides of my wrists
and the dark corners of my mind.
let me show you my pain;
how tired i am from the taunts in my head
and the oh so many
voices.
let me tell you how they came to be;
how i lay
bloodied and
bruised and
broken, hanging limp and injured
after a ferocious battle with
none other than
myself
let me show you my battle scars
in the hopes that you'll heal them;
and if not, then,
learn to love them
for these are reminders that are
permanently marked on the wide expanse of my skin.
reminders of my resilience
and the life I am learning to leave
behind.
Nov 17, 2015
Nov 17, 2015 at 10:43 AM UTC
Tonight we dance like pagans
Take my wrist with your tongue
Taste my words like the perfect combination of salty and sweet
Lift me high so I may crumble in your arms
Beads of sweat as much of a story to tell
As the tears you and I have shed over habits and heartache
Floating like a swift mist as heavy as dew
It doesn't have to make any sense
It's the soul finally letting go in random spores of silk
Simply titled but definition entwined
Like the calmest you in my arms
The deity's declare us their favourites tonight
So take my eye with your hand
Let's pray we never have to be alone again
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 10:50 PM UTC
Hello.
Again.
How long has it been?
since you took over my skin?
since you became my sin?
This sickness from within,
I'm sure you want my ending to begin.
Poison in my world,
a perfect place in hell,
inside a golden cell,
a story remains untold.
You want a special farewell
or something for my love to compel?
a destiny for your lies to quell
or a fate only God can foretell?
Do I have news for you..
I still remember how this path began.
A last broken vow, a final failed plan.
Invisibility your surprising shield
as you just concealed and disappeared.
Venom in your words,
a blight hidden inside,
corruption in your cards,
trust always denied.
Goodbye.
Again.
Apr 23, 2015
Apr 23, 2015 at 10:21 PM UTC
Love me or don't,
I'll not change my feelings.
People will say stuff against you,
I'll not listen to them at all.
Be mine or don't,
I seriously won't mind.
Apr 12, 2015
Apr 12, 2015 at 9:45 PM UTC
gasping for air
I feel like I am dying
can't breathe...
until at last
I realized I was choking
on my old resentments
as I let go of each one
the air I breathe become
clear and deep
flooding me with life
Mar 16, 2015
Mar 16, 2015 at 7:42 PM UTC
Sometimes in our lives,
We meet another Soul,
Who brings us dreams of our future,
Who brings us memories from our past,
Our lives that will be,
Our lives that once were,
Not in our lives of today,
Because. Your love belongs to another,
In this time and place.
How can I forget our dreams?
How can I forget our memories from the past?
How can I forget you?
How can I let you go?
© 2014 Ronald J Chapman All rights Reserved.
Dec 21, 2014
Dec 21, 2014 at 5:47 PM UTC
emptying out boxes
discarding things I no longer need
rediscovering treasures
I had frgotten I had
as I break down each empty box,
I feel a little lighter, more free
soon the things I have been hoarding
are all gone, and I can't rember why held on so long
one room down, few more to go
I wouldn't miss it for the world
Jul 26, 2014
Jul 26, 2014 at 2:18 PM UTC
I love you but not as before
When everything I can I would give
But now, not anymore.
I love you but some things changed
You're not the one bringing my smile
It is somebody that must not be named.
I love you but I don't miss your voice
I'm content now with your seldom text
That's not my making, it's your choice.
I love you but you're not what I need
When before your words gave me warmth
But now you withhold but I will never plead.
I love you as I know you love me
Twisted to some
But for us, it's the way and how we see.
I love you and that means
"Te Amo, my friend"
Now, I'm spilling the beans.
3.27.14
Jul 22, 2014
Jul 22, 2014 at 6:11 PM UTC