#lateatnight
My body is so tired
I'm exhausted physically, mentally and emotionally.
I just want a break
Is that too much to ask?
Apparently so, because
My brain is wide awake
And it wont let me sleep
Get ****** brain.
I'll just be tired and grumpy tomorrow
And that way everyone will get ****** at me.
Its not like you care is it? No.
You dont care.
You scream at me every time i eat something with sugar in it.
You whisper horrible things in my ears when i'm alone.
You convince me to hurt myself so i can feel something, after you've shut down all my other emotions.
You make me fall for people too late and too often and not enough.
You tell me i'm not enough.
**** you
I just want to sleep
Stop putting these thoughts in my head and leave me alone.
Jun 2, 2019
Jun 2, 2019 at 11:59 AM UTC
I remember the days when I knew
Or I thought I did everything I could do
To make this something that involved me and you
But my worst thoughts were the ones that got through
And broken glass has been all that lies in my center view.
I remember when
I was a kid and nobody ever questioned a single thing that I did
Now I'm the only kid
That stares hard at my hands and ***** the joy out of the life I live.
I was a care free heart devoted to the only Son
That shines bright, the only holy one,
But that was some time ago.
Nowadays I am captured by my fear, and driven by making time slow.
Oh God,
You can take the decisions I've made, all the days all the nights,
If it means that I have my heart back and can once more see the light,
Because I'm tired of being so lost in my own past
And all the things I wish I had.
I spend all my days just wishing
That I had a day where I'd stop giving away all I've given,
But I don't care if life is something that keeps me driven,
As long as I can remember that you're alive, you're risen.
Tell my friends I love them
And embrace them harder than I would've,
Keep my heart close to yours,
And help me find my way back to you
And to those sunsets I fell in love with in Africa,
Like the moon.
Like the dust blowing in the distant breeze.
Like the rain pattering down and flowing out in my streets.
Let me fall in love with you all over again,
Because those were my most joyful moments.
Dec 8, 2015
Dec 8, 2015 at 6:49 PM UTC
12:00 AM This isn’t a game
Your pain isn’t tame
Not getting your sleep
Now pull up your sheets
2:00 AM It’s late
You should close your eyes
Take the bait
Got to sleep before the sunrise
3:00 AM This isn’t healthy
You aren’t very stealthy
But it isn’t too late
Just close your eyes and then wait
4:00 AM It’s too late
It must be fate
But now you decide
You will reside
In your dreams
7:00 AM The alarm is blaring
Your eyes are bloodshot
Why are you staring
You have to stop
Three hours of sleep
You should’ve counted sheep
But now your beat
Accept your feat
You could’ve had more than
Three hours of sleep
Mar 18, 2018
Mar 18, 2018 at 12:41 PM UTC