#lashwritesonig
i went from craving
desires,
sxxxually.
to spurning alliance,
definitely.
from the stroking of ego,
walls evasively caressed;
to a glimpse of all that’s righteous,
& a conscience yet undressed.
drowning in depth of
intimacy,
clouding respective
intuity.
fxxxcking the **** out of my
actuality.
in reality,
there was no mutuality.
only a tempered battle flee,
consisting of my soul’s attempted plea,
to be free.
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 1:36 PM UTC
down play my intelligence
one time
then you’re irrelevant.
i’m witty
not so hesitant.
my instinct
nearly
heaven sent;
a part of
my inheritance.
you rival
my benevolence,
like Ann Frank in the Netherlands,
i hide behind my diligence.
my innocence,
equivalent
to my feeling
ambivalent.
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Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 1:31 PM UTC
i leave hints
with a stench of possibility,
& i can destroy the world
yet still be filled on humility.
a gentle balance
of
madness
&
misconstrued sadness.
im always writing about me.
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 1:27 PM UTC
i see no point in investing my energies where they are not appreciated or understood.
i will not tirelessly try to make my presence known when there is not a spec of effort to acknowledge.
i have no interest in stroking dying egos
or watering plants that are complacent in their withering.
i will not make a space for what intentionally brings me to my knees, no matter the emptiness i suffer.
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alone or accompanied,
i am living.
free & fearlessly,
wearing armor made of distance.
moving carelessly,
no regrets
& no resistance.
still
you are not worthy,
but you are who you are.
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 1:20 PM UTC
i found strength where i once saw only weakness.
i found the words to say while everyone stayed speechless.
i stood abrasive in my fears,
i shed like one too many tears
but in the end i am stronger than before.
see, with or without you
i live on.
all of my willingness
to be in the mix
is gone.
i will not die without you here!
i am self-made
remember, dear?
i am not chasing what i possess within myself.
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 1:13 PM UTC
with a depth of deception,
mysteriously vague.
only careless perceptions,
who dare to invade?
unexplored,
uninviting,
unfamiliar,
un-seen.
caressing riddled energies,
so powerful,
so keen.
Jan 13, 2019
Jan 13, 2019 at 11:07 PM UTC
beautiful pearly skin,
a head full of hair
with strands that dance to the beat of the waves.
stature equipped with light movements so swift,
i have not seen but i can tell your eyes are true.
out of the blue,
visiting shores
you reappear.
a simple peek,
dive in the deep
then disappear.
where did you go?
it seems like you were never here.
Jan 9, 2019
Jan 9, 2019 at 4:19 PM UTC
you make everything your sword.
running back to misconceptions,
strength & wit play the accord.
un-intimidated by wisdom,
unbothered,
unchanging.
consistent and complacent
but the patience is ranging.
from steady to dying
unfit but you’re trying.
misfit,
no denying
there’s nothing to confide in.
but you envision a love,
unkind,
unrequited.
in desperate need of
a simple teaspoon of new guidance,
dismiss all of the bad energies you’ve invited.
we’ll only survive if we fight it.
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 11:28 AM UTC
you’re my bestfriend,
like a side-kick made perfectly for me.
you’ve seen the deepest parts,
beneath the skin
like no one else can see.
i carried you inside,
& now my soul remains outside.
a fairy,
fearless,
magical,
unique
sent here to guide.
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i call you daughter,
i call you light,
i call you healer of the sight.
i call you queen
my heart your throne,
i call you spirit of the moon.
being with more meanings than one,
a product far beyond the sun.
you were created out of mercy
to remind me of a love.
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to spread and
teach the world on how to smile again.
you are my friend,
a keeping love until the end.
long as you’re here
ill be alright,
ill keep on smiling,
keep the fight.
you are my friend
& ill love you til the end.
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 11:26 AM UTC
seeking escape from a world
that thrives on my pain.
main focus is a focus
that drives me insane.
i can’t be still,
my mind is anxious,
my soul is erupting.
the most illogical of impulse
making something of nothing.
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i only exist inside,
where i never have to hide.
i’m never running from my actions,
never cancelling my pride.
resisting all that works against me,
no borders
or no fencing,
no offensive use of power can control.
no being similar,
persona young or old.
a living proof of distant energy,
words circulate the remedy
for all that can restart a dying peace.
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 11:22 AM UTC
share a home with the monsters,
made friends with voices.
settled in what is chaotic,
still at peace in the noise
and
the madness doesn’t scare me one bit.
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 11:18 AM UTC
so you lead and i submit?
well,
while the blind cannot lead
and you will most likely drag me to ****
atleast we’re cute.
you know? relationship goals.
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it’s funny,
men tell you what not to be then betray you with the same description.
& they ain’t messing with no gold digger but an encounter with a woman that has her sh-t together
leaves your ego fetal positioned.
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it’s tragic.
one day they are all over you,
the next day they are over you.
the mind games are the only thing that’s lasting.
attracted to big as$3s.
never mind
how she keeps her surroundings,
can she cook some food?
raise a child?
or raise you, for that matter.
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you base worth off of body count
or how tight a vagiina grips
your insecure little d-ck
that’s seemingly more of a man than you can ever be.
Dec 29, 2018
Dec 29, 2018 at 6:20 PM UTC
i never was
& i guess ill never be.
i didn’t change,
im just more focused on me.
more focus on what goes on outside of the opinion of those that could care less if i live or die..
or if im living
or dying...
i know that im not like the normal girls,
nor do i wish to be.
i like a life of serenity,
a life so full of mystery.
a little crazy,
a lot of different.
a savage dose of inconsistency,
& pure intentions.
so far from pretentious,
that’s how you know its real.
Dec 29, 2018
Dec 29, 2018 at 5:28 PM UTC
i hate to wonder what if,
but what if?
what if i am never allowed to taste your lips?
what if the flame is lost before we spark a match?
what if your heart is closed,
the most restricted latch.
what if your smile has faded?
& you are tired of waiting?
what if your love is out of patience for me?
what if our eyes,
they never formally meet?
what if i never get a chance to hear you snore as you sleep?
what if our bodies never touch?
what if we’re somehow out of luck?
not a moment
to hold you close,
or a single second
to show you
that you mean the most? ...
Dec 21, 2018
Dec 21, 2018 at 10:58 PM UTC
i am deep in relations
with a deeper meaning;
familiar to a larger view
of a picture that most
can only see a spec.
so when i’m distant
don’t you take it
as a form of disrespect,
or neglect.
my space
is required,
my ability to function
is in compliance with
my ability to be silent.
in solitude
i confide and
they say no man is an island,
i am an island,
isolated.
separated.
never to be integrated.
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 11:00 AM UTC
an ever-brewing ache,
one similar to the feeling of the world on my shoulders.
it never lets up.
a silent cry in the wind,
a scintilla of sadness,
gives the warning of a thousand violent storms.
it’s chaotic here,
it’s a mess.
each day i breathe,
each day
i love a little less.
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 10:16 AM UTC
i don’t need your attention,
bet that got your attention.
sometimes i need your affection,
sometimes i grieve with intention.
not used to someone that don’t need you,
you don’t need me?
i don’t need you.
say what you mean,
say what you need to.
i need proof,
i don’t believe you.
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Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 8:53 AM UTC
a past as dark as nothing,
as sound as the abyss.
with nothing to look forward to
keep going,
i insist.
if you’re willing
you will find your way,
after every night
a brighter day.
pay close attention,
hear the words i say.
don’t neglect the force,
obey.
you will prevail,
you’ll be okay.
Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 8:51 AM UTC
it’s sad,
the things you’ve been through.
it’s sad,
it be the ones
who
claim they
love you.
but
don’t let it change you.
i’ve seen what all that pain do.
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Dec 13, 2018
Dec 13, 2018 at 8:49 AM UTC
is it 4am?
cause these thoughts are slurring,
these steps are stirring,
my heart is heavy,
fear
re-occurring.
i am lonely,
i am in love.
fading on trees,
chaotic drugs.
my inner-demons
they need a hug.
a growing love.
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 9:43 PM UTC
depression has me by the throat,
it’s gripping tight,
it won’t let go.
anxiety,
has ruined love for me,
entirely.
im holding on by hair strands,
moving with death,
a slow dance.
im drowning,
with a life jacket,
without
your touch,
i need a hand,
will you reach out?
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 9:40 PM UTC
should i love
or should i leave it
i don’t know.
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should i drown in hope
or should i let it go.
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im tripping but
you’re out of reach,
it doesn’t show.
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so ill just save myself,
ill just take it slow.
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just let it flow.
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 9:34 PM UTC
i am searching for your warmth baby,
i need it.
i am falling in love & i can’t believe it.
i am lost,
all this space
is so misleading.
but your voice
soothes my soul,
keeps me believing.
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Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 9:31 PM UTC
the very heart of this connection relys on your consistency.
im in need of your persistence,
see
i need you consistently..
im not worried ‘bout the distance,
just make me feel your energy,
got this perfect synergy;
luv
i just need you here with me.
........rub me down.
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 9:22 PM UTC