#l4l - Hello Poetry

I wake up to blue light I see it when I close my eyes frustrated, weighted by comparison I filter my intensity condense my personality I show tongue and teeth but no failures or flaws I see you in your squares, in all your glow I want to see the dirt under your fingernails want you to see me cry, my pores up close, counting eyelashes Our moments cascading down a feed that never fulfills shades changed and tweaked at exposure I am exposed every day am I known I want to see the world by your side not through your phone hear the sunsets reflect in your tone I don't want to lose a bet with myself that I don't stare I don't scroll lose my evening to a screen my life to anxiety of how people see me but I want to be seen I want to know you beyond your squares and validation screams content for moments till I review my content view myself in the eyes of another a narcissistic shudder I doubt and judge myself wishing not to compare not to care yet impulse is too lovable addiction and algorithmic luring habits savaged a daily instinct to share to show my life through squares

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Jan 10, 2023

Jan 10, 2023 at 3:06 PM UTC

Shevapple

Squares

I wake up to blue light I see it when I close my eyes frustrated, weighted by comparison I filter my intensity condense my personality I show tongue and teeth but no failures or flaws I see you in your squares, in all your glow I want to see the dirt under your fingernails want you to see me cry, my pores up close, counting eyelashes Our moments cascading down a feed that never fulfills shades changed and tweaked at exposure I am exposed every day am I known I want to see the world by your side not through your phone hear the sunsets reflect in your tone I don't want to lose a bet with myself that I don't stare I don't scroll lose my evening to a screen my life to anxiety of how people see me but I want to be seen I want to know you beyond your squares and validation screams content for moments till I review my content view myself in the eyes of another a narcissistic shudder I doubt and judge myself wishing not to compare not to care yet impulse is too lovable addiction and algorithmic luring habits savaged a daily instinct to share to show my life through squares

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I didnt wanna tell you I was drunk I didnt want to crush anything much less the heart of yours you let me see it really is a beautiful gift to have it is a repeated cycle of loneliness and saddness why is you who always has the key out of it you with your set voice that could melt snow on a the coldest of days but I was drunk and I am lonely and sad and here you are and im falling again falling where I shouldn't be I am not yours I promise i won't or can't ever be it's hard to not talk to you I just wanna excite you dude like you do me I wanna treat you like you treat me but it seems to be mixed all the time and I can't stand you but you do things that make me smile you remember your *** doesn't let me talk though like someone else I can name is there something wrong with me why does no one want to listen idk I need to forget again. **** the bull **** July 3rd 2016

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Dec 14, 2016

Dec 14, 2016 at 7:49 AM UTC

cjf

i was drunk when i wrote this

I didnt wanna tell you I was drunk I didnt want to crush anything much less the heart of yours you let me see it really is a beautiful gift to have it is a repeated cycle of loneliness and saddness why is you who always has the key out of it you with your set voice that could melt snow on a the coldest of days but I was drunk and I am lonely and sad and here you are and im falling again falling where I shouldn't be I am not yours I promise i won't or can't ever be it's hard to not talk to you I just wanna excite you dude like you do me I wanna treat you like you treat me but it seems to be mixed all the time and I can't stand you but you do things that make me smile you remember your *** doesn't let me talk though like someone else I can name is there something wrong with me why does no one want to listen idk I need to forget again. **** the bull **** July 3rd 2016

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You treat me as though I am glass that might crack or snap; overprotecting me and encasing me in bubble wrap – you’re concerned I will fall apart so easily and become tattered but you cannot break what is already torn and shattered.

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May 12, 2017

May 12, 2017 at 12:20 PM UTC

Shannon-Perry

Fragmentary

You treat me as though I am glass that might crack or snap; overprotecting me and encasing me in bubble wrap – you’re concerned I will fall apart so easily and become tattered but you cannot break what is already torn and shattered.

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