#konmari
one of these days, i'm going to write about how taking care of my heart
is a chore i wish i took more seriously.
every time i try to clear out the cobwebs inside my chest, i bump my head and shoulders into things hooked on its walls; knock my knees and toes into things stuffed in its nooks and crannies.
i would lay low and slowly
unpack the baggage i accumulated and start learning to compartmentalise,
unhang the skeletons of souls that have been chasing me in my dreams,
undogear the chapters that are done and dusted where you, like all the others, remain a metaphor, a foreshadowing, a symbol, a period that i thought would fit my lifelong sentence,
but that's a story for another day.
my obsession with hoarding memories like my life depended on it
has long been a problem
just like my system being an "organised mess"
— you and i both know, i am the mess.
until i can fold away my feelings from my past
and tuck away my thoughts about my future
to make sense of my present,
i will have to keep collecting these scattered words and phrases
waiting to be bound and sealed in a box somewhere.
one of these days, i'm going to write about how taking care of my heart
is a chore i took seriously
so that when it stops beating
it is full
and light
at the same time.
- 20200218
May 28, 2021
May 28, 2021 at 12:53 AM UTC
Purge mode! Purge mode!
Everything must go!
I haven’t worn these pants in at least twelve months.
Purge!
This was my go to cute top in ‘07, but it shrunk.
Purge!
These shoes are embarrassingly loud, they go “THWUMP, THWUMP, THWUMP.”
Purge!
Once, in this dress, someone mistakenly thought I was knocked up.
Purge!
Cool expensive hat from Anthropologie I’ve worn not a once?
Oh wait, maybe keep that one.
Nah, just kidding, PUUUUUUUURGE!
Apr 16, 2018
Apr 16, 2018 at 5:49 PM UTC