#knifelike
i can remember the pain,
but unlike most other pain
i can't feel its touch.
i can remember how it felt,
the smooth yet knife-like edge
slicing open my dense skin.
i can remember that feeling,
i yearn for it to come back
and haunt me.
i can remember the sweet release,
the deep incision
and i want it back.
yet i cannot remember how it felt,
i cannot feel the cold glass
that was once there.
but i want it back.
Jan 3, 2021
Jan 3, 2021 at 8:03 PM UTC