#knew
If you knew how it was affecting me
or that it was affecting me at all.
why didn't you bring it up?
why didn't you tell me?
You've known this whole time
and you couldn't just ask?
I knew it was off,
this whole thing is off.
It always has been
right from the start.
And you're still lying.
I wish you'd just tell me the truth.
I wish I didn't have to pry it out of you,
like a clam harbouring a rotten pearl.
I want the whole truth
all at once
not in little snippets.
I'm sick of putting clues together
I don't care if it rips me apart,
I don't care if it makes me hate you,
I don't care if i'm wrong,
I don't care if i'm right,
I just wish you'd tell me.
And I wish I didn't fall for this every time.
You're so good at pretending,
I'm stuck in what to believe.
You sound so heartfelt and sincere,
It gets me every single time.
I know deep down it's a facade
and deeper, I know it always has been.
Feb 24
Feb 24, 2026 at 7:13 PM UTC
He never knew the storms he calmed,
With just a glance, a laugh, a smile.
He never knew how deep I sank,
Until his light reached me, quiet, and kind.
Last night, sleep refused to come —
I waited, stared, held back a sigh.
Just hoping he might say a word,
Or send a sign, a soft reply.
But morning came with empty air,
He didn’t show — and I just stared.
At benches, books, the teacher’s voice,
While colours drained from everywhere.
He never knew how much it hurt,
To sit and smile, pretend, obey —
When all I wished was just to see
His silly grin light up the day.
He never knew, and maybe won’t,
How much he helped me breathe again.
Unbelievable! Someone whome I've never talked to-
Still in his silence,I found my strength.
You never knew you're the only star
My sky still chases every night —
Because no other light has ever
Matched the warmth you gave so right.
You never knew, you still don’t see —
You’re a soul I can’t replace.
Not because I need your love...
But because you gave me grace.
—Parisha
Jul 12, 2025
Jul 12, 2025 at 2:48 PM UTC
met Presidents,
kings and queens plenty,
so many princes and princess,
each one, most impressive
to their themselves.
but never knew an Empress…till now~(k)now
twice for emphasis, but better yet, enraptured,
her commandments, demand immediate readings,
never demanding solicitation, just a whispering
"come hither fool~baby"
the paucity of my words grow paler when I compare,
my tongue tied bonds, and I consider abandonment
of what gives me sparks of belief that tomorrow
will still be worth it, that I can create, something
worth sharing, and the words come up in the throat,
abandon all hope, ye who dare read the Empress
I know, you accuse me of exaggerated exaggeration,
plead the Fifth, the right not to self-incriminate,
pointless to demure, make an appoint~moment for later,
when by silence surrounded, everyone gone, re~Read,
out loud chewing every soft obsidian granule, drink
pure water, and curse myself again, who knew, eclectic
electric, as they jay jelly roll (😉) off my was just a few bytes
away, head in hands, equal parts of joy and despair
parting my hair, drawing lines in my scalp, and the
demon muse gleefully, perhaps, at last, thinking mmm…
this will be his last
First Poem of the Day (FPOTD0
and now the day a) mences b) ensses
Jul 24, 2025
Jul 24, 2025 at 7:32 AM UTC
you touched my hand.
and it felt like
it wasn't the first time --
it was like
your fingers already knew
my own,
in some kind of
quiet before.
Jul 6, 2025
Jul 6, 2025 at 6:35 AM UTC
It’s true, I’ve thought it
Through,
It isn’t right to feel this blue-
You told me too, you always
Knew
I shouldn’t have thought the world of
You
May 26, 2025
May 26, 2025 at 1:22 AM UTC
I couldn't help but smile when you talked, something contagious in your voice that sent bubbles through my stomach.
you didn't think you were attractive, and I guess I didn't think I was either....
but god, you had no idea.
everything about you was beautiful, from your hazel eyes to your red hair, every word you spoke was like honey, and I was getting more and more stuck every time we talked.
it didn't take me long before I knew....
I knew you were the one I wanted to fall asleep beside,
the one I wanted to hold hands with through life,
the one I wanted to tell my day too.
and all it took was your honeydew voice....
Mar 27, 2025
Mar 27, 2025 at 9:51 PM UTC
Every teacher has a lesson to preach
As each preacher has a surmon to teach
If they'd just left me get high
life was a beach! but...
"YOU MUST GET CLEAN!"
So I grab a pint glass
and reach for the bleach!
Happy new year, everybody!
Jan 2, 2025
Jan 2, 2025 at 7:06 PM UTC
I know, with absolute certainty,
that if I drowned,
****** under
by the relentless power of the sea,
you would not hesitate
fighting nature to save me.
Jul 7, 2024
Jul 7, 2024 at 4:32 PM UTC
i wish i was a
better daughter
for you.
i wish i knew
what it would do
to you.
i wish i wasn’t
so afraid
and i wish i never
stayed
in that orphanage
where i barely left
my crib like a
cage.
i wish i grew up
before today
because now it is
much
too late.
May 6, 2024
May 6, 2024 at 10:02 AM UTC
The door opens to world beyond
Say one final goodbye
We wish our time lasted longer
Your turn to be lifted into the sky
Always aware you were an angel
Now you have finally got wings to fly
Sep 25, 2023
Sep 25, 2023 at 5:53 PM UTC
If you knew
That you were already
Dead,
Would you still go to work?
Aug 20, 2023
Aug 20, 2023 at 1:06 PM UTC
I knew to my core thought processes
Unthinkable but thought
A shock to the recesses of my mind
A bout of this world I once knew
I never thought it would not grow old
Its shiny, but icy cold
I thought I knew fear
I thought I knew hate
I thought I knew disparity and truth
I never knew it was a homophone filled with illustrious ironies
A brand of say
A brand of way
A brand of order
A brand of decay
I Knew a brave world,
Knew a status quo,
Alas there is something different
invading our psyches at will
Sitting upon the steps of our memories of a world we thought we once knew
But not you.
You're so different now
You almost act as if you never knew how it was
What ever the case, its normal now...
Jul 27, 2021
Jul 27, 2021 at 5:59 AM UTC
When God abandoned me I thought
That at first he must not have cared
But after enduring a world of pain
I realized he was never there
Sep 21, 2020
Sep 21, 2020 at 1:17 AM UTC
there was just something about you
something I can’t place
maybe your sad eyes
and broken face
I felt something
when I saw you
I felt the pain
that you felt too
Somehow I knew,
that you knew it as well
knew of tears
knew of hell
I want to tell you
that it won’t always be that way
it does get better
it does, someday
Mar 22, 2020
Mar 22, 2020 at 9:49 AM UTC
I grew up in a small town just like you,
Wandering the streets with nothing to do.
We had dreams of beautiful chaos
Only stopping to laugh off our lives,
Don't talk about the issues that keep us up at night,
Standing broken but whole in the right light,
Standing whole seen through broken eyes.
Remember the times we hit the highway
Flying fast, transitioning from the 81 to 80
Hoping we might just run out of gas
Giving us a reason to not turn back,
While listening to all the anthems
That made us miss a childhood we never had.
With tears in your eyes,
you turned the music down low
Meeting your solemn gaze
You begged me not to take you home.
I grew up in a small town just like you
Until the night we didn't turn around
In search of something new
Feb 13, 2020
Feb 13, 2020 at 1:55 PM UTC
I knew our decisions were misguided
And I chose to make them despite that knowledge
I wanted you and I to act in harmony
Needed to know every heartbeat pulsating from our two chests was in perfect synchronization
Feb 5, 2020
Feb 5, 2020 at 3:56 AM UTC
I suspected this day was coming
Now that it's finally here
Realize I'm not ready
Face my biggest fear
I want to stop desperately
Seems I've tried a lot
Every time I am ready
Stubborn addiction is not
The drugs grab control of me
Steer me straight into a wall
Pull me back into the ditch
Doesn't matter how many times I go through withdrawal
I have learned my lesson the hard way
Much too often to count
Then again the hard way
The only way I've known about
Let the ocean take away
I drown in blue misery
Wash up on some greener shores
World that in comparison is easy
Do not smoke if you can't handle the heat
You're afraid of getting burned
Flames always steal a part
Once gone not always returned
I have given up on finding myself
Buried pieces too deep
Intention was to plant them
No harvest grows to reap
So remain trapped in a cycle
Strapped by only threads
Running from my demons
Tires me as sickness spreads
No one coming to save me
I've toppled overboard
Danced on the very edge
This is my reward
Consume me as I spiral down
Watch me crash in an explosion
Go enjoy the show
Not what I have chosen
When eyes can't stand my reflection
Monster staring back
Use to blur the edges
To smudge all that I lack
Time is always running
One minute after the next
Door to sobriety is always open
In the moment hesitating perplexed
Do not quit because I don't know how
I've done it once before
Daydreaming past recovery
Cannot remember what I did it for
When the silence starts mocking me
Following a great and heavy pause or two
Hold my hand tightly
It will pull me through
Dec 21, 2019
Dec 21, 2019 at 5:05 AM UTC
Stay your tongue to save discomfort
Stay your tongue and lose forever
The chance to speak of whatever it was
No forever lasts forever
(4LINE)
Nov 30, 2019
Nov 30, 2019 at 9:43 AM UTC
I used to live alone before I knew you
so
of the mundane tragedies endlessly writ
repeat rinse repeat
repeat
how awfully awful
is the complaining without cessation
of busted everything;
recall the the doctor’s office sign
"no cure for the broken heart here"
so when I hear a Buckley sing
the words of the Cohen, High Priest of Songs,
I, a broken hallelujah,
smile with recognition
though the true cure is
yet still forever being researched
patience is a patient within me,
for my muses and their endless,
poking aching whispers of write, write, write, right,
they are the company I keep,
they are the company that sweeps me up
I, a broken hallelujah
they are not the desired flesh, true,
that affirms confirms and denies me
denying my needy frailties
but for now,
mine company to keep,
so when we do meet and
you greet me with a
tell me about your previous lovers
as you humanly must
will recite my poems from
from before I knew you
Feb 17, 2018
Feb 17, 2018 at 1:28 PM UTC