#kingston
I often think about the summer before I went away,
probably more than I should.
I was working that job I hated
and you were living in the house
that felt more like a home to me than mine ever did.
I think about all of the nights that my life felt like a classic teen movie,
with my eyes acting as the camera
and your lucid words writing the script in real-time.
Us and a few close friends sneaking onto a rooftop
in the town where we grew up and grew to love.
Laughing until our stomachs hurt
and yelling things at the unsuspecting people below.
Forgetting what time it was.
Forgetting that there was a whole world below us,
which we chose to escape for the night.
My heart was light, and it felt like floating.
Now friends are in different states,
becoming people I’ll never know.
The garbage can we used as a ladder
is no longer where we could always find it,
and the gate behind the bank,
which was almost always conveniently left open,
has been locked for years.
I remember how carefree I felt on those nights.
But I tend to idolize nostalgia,
whether the past was truly picture-perfect or not.
All I know is, I was lucky enough to have had those nights,
and the unwavering memories that they created.
Aug 15, 2017
Aug 15, 2017 at 1:22 AM UTC
So I will walk these empty streets
This isn’t home, never will be
Thank goodness for that
I went to your house tonight
and cried at you
Then I left again
It would have been nice
if you hadn’t left
telling me to when
I was in front of you
But nah
So I will walk these empty streets
I will see everything
That your eyes do
And I will craft a newfound hatred
for all I’ve left behind
Tonight I’m crawling, high in the clouds
You could have just
Let me down easy
But no.
So I will toss in this boy’s sheets
and kiss lips that aren’t yours
I guess this is goodbye, my love
I hope she’s what you’re looking for.
May 4, 2017
May 4, 2017 at 9:08 AM UTC
My mother once told me I was talented
She encouraged me, and told me to fly
But yesterday night, she whispered to self, "the only thing my daughter is talented at is becoming a disappointment."
Jun 2, 2025
Jun 2, 2025 at 5:56 PM UTC