#kidss
I was on a bomb site
off Meadow Row
with Helen
searching for small stones
for my catapult
she had her doll
Battered Betty
in one hand
and was looking at the ground
through her thick lens glasses
how small do
they have to be?
she said
about this size
I said
showing her
with my thumb and finger
we searched amongst the bricks
and rubble and bits
of wood and weeds
is this small enough?
she said
picking up a stone
and putting it
in the palm
of her small hand
I went to her
and gazed at it
and picked it up
and said
yes that's about right
and put it in a small pouch
made from an old handkerchief
tied together
and tied to the belt
around my blue jeans
how many stones
do you need?
she said
because Betty
is getting hungry
and I will have to
feed her soon
with the bottle
in my dress pocket
o about a handful
I said
just a few more
ok
she said
and we looked on
Betty hanging
from Helen's hand
by her tiny hand
just then a copper
walked across the bomb site
from the New Kent Road
trudging at his own pace
towards us
Helen saw him first
and stood up
and clutched Betty
close towards her chest
her eyes large
and scared looking
I stood up and put
my hands in the pockets
of my blue jeans
you ought not to be
on bomb sites
he said
they're dangerous places
Helen opened her mouth
to speak
but nothing came
but air
we're collecting stones
for my catapult
I said
he stood upright
with his hands on his hips
staring at us both
I don't care
if you're collecting gems
for Her Majesty the Queen
I want you off now
and to go home
he said
his voice firm and baritone
only I need ammunition
I said
and this is the best
place for them
off and go home
he said peering at me
his eyes dark and enlarging
Helen was nigh
wetting herself
so I shrugged and said
ok but we'll be back
once you've gone
Helen stared at me
as if I'd passed wind
GO NOW
he bellowed
pigeons flew up and off
from the bomb site
at the sound
we walked off
the bomb site together
she looking ahead
eyes tearful
I gazing back
like I'd seen this cowboy do
in that Western film
before a gunfight
I'd seen with my old man
the previous night.
Feb 5, 2016
Feb 5, 2016 at 2:04 AM UTC
Sister Paul
walked across
the green lawn
her flowing
black habit
billowing
behind her
then she stopped
right in front
of the white
steel table
where Anne
and the Kid
were sitting
eating tea
(sandwiches
cut into
triangles
and pieces
of iced cake)
I've been told
the nun said
that you two
have said things
to Lulu
and young Colm
that were rude
and unkind
is that right?
when was this?
Anne asked
after the
afternoon
siesta
the nun said
don't recall
anything
Anne said
do you Kid?
Benedict
shook his head
Sister Paul
looked at him
it's a sin
to tell lies
Benedict
the nun said
are you sure
you recall
nothing of
what I've said?
but sister
are all lies
said sinful?
Anne asked
yes they are
the nun said
so if I
said you were
beautiful
would that be
sinful too?
Anne said
Sister Paul
tut-tutted
you are not
so clever
as you think
the nun said
so you too
can tell lies
Anne said
the nun stood
taking in
the young girl
sitting
her one leg
poking out
of a red
patterned skirt
her leg stump
visible
where the skirt
had ridden
up the thigh
don't be cruel
to other
children here
with your words
the nun said
Anne stared
at the nun
then picked up
a sandwich
and ate it
as noisy
as she could
Benedict
sipped his tea
as the nun
walked away
and wondered
how easy
it would be
for the nun
to pull up
all that gear
(the habit)
to go ***
that's a good
example
Skinny Kid
of Christian
love and such
did you see
her hard face?
what love there?
where God's grace?
Benedict
said nothing
just sipped tea
(warm and sweet)
recalling
Sister Paul's
long and white
naked feet.
Sep 12, 2015
Sep 12, 2015 at 1:57 AM UTC
After going to Janice's doll's
tea party in her gran's flat
I thought I'd best ask her to
a cowboy's tea party as a sort
of pay back thing so she came
to my parent's flat and I said
hi glad you could make it she
came in along the passageway
past the kitchen where my
mother was arranging a few
items for the tea and then
turned left into what I termed
the toy room where I'd arranged
a small table(tea-chest upside-down)
and cloth of bright colours
(tea towel) and two small chairs
(large seaside buckets turned
upside down) with cushions
on the sideboard I had arranged
my toy soldiers and guns a rifle
a sword and bow and arrows
and a number of Dinky cars
she said I guess you don't have
any dolls? no no dolls I said
I can borrow one of my sister's
if you want a doll present
I said no it's all right she said
gazing at me smiling weakly
while we were waiting for my
mother to bring in the food
items I showed her my guns
and holsters and she picked up
a silver looking gun and held it
in her hands it's quite heavy she
said is it real? no it's an old one
my old man got me some place
looks real though don't it I said
it's one of my favourites she
lifted it and pointed it at the
wall and pulled the trigger
and the gun went BANG and
she dropped it and put her hands
over her mouth and said was
it loaded? she looked scared yes
it was loaded with a roll of caps
I said sorry I should have warned
you I picked up the gun and put
it back on the sideboard and handed
her my rifle which she held gingerly
is it loaded? she said no it's ok no
caps there I said she put it against
her shoulder and looked along the
barrel and aimed at the light bulb
and pulled the trigger and it went
click and she smiled and said I blew
out the light she gave me back the
rifle and my mother brought in
some items and put them on the
table and said what would you like
to drink Janice? may I have orange
juice please? my mother nodded and
said you Benny? Tizer please with
a shot of red-eye I said my mother
nodded bemused and went off to
the kitchen Janice looked at the items
nice cakes and sandwiches she said
and chocolate biscuits too yes I said
Mum knows you are special to me
so she pulled out all the stoppers
and here we are and we sat and ate
and Mum brought in the drinks
and left us alone to eat and drink
and talk and I told her about the
gunfight in Dodge City and how
I had shot the Billy the Kid Gang
and she sat impressed and told me
about the coming trip to the seaside
with the gospel church and that her
gran had bought tickets and was I
going? and I said yes I was pleased
she was going but tried not to show it.
Feb 6, 2016
Feb 6, 2016 at 3:08 AM UTC