#kai
I've never understood,
My ignorance irritates me.
How someone could,
Fall so low as to **** themselves.
I've imagined myself falling down,
And the things that would have to occur for said falling out.
Helplessness, a lack of control,
A broken heart, a shattered mold.
Where is this overwhelming pain?
Are we being too hasty?
Please, just wait.
Don't let this be the end.
Nov 18, 2025
Nov 18, 2025 at 9:12 PM UTC
Emperor of your inner world kingdom
All these voices are just sandy parts
Your choices start from seeking wild freedom
Lead again to obsession of cards
You play darts with their hearts
And walk blind in predictions
You are charmed with your scars
Proud of made-up convictions
What will happen to you
When your inner world fall?
Would you dare to put feet
On the very cold ground?
Would you stand even then
When they steal out your throne?
And stand still even when
You’ll find out who’d stolen?
Me ashamed, I confess
Took your name by the chance
And imagined frontier
Of empire with Gretta
He left out Susanne
And they lit me to dance
Hence, I got really down
And then mad like Odetta
I was white like new wall
Like a very new page
Spirits took out red room
And they took out the space
At rageous-rageous pace
In a hurry
I wish I could worry
Had become then so sorry
Was that the curse?
You won’t answer, of course
You won’t answer for now
You still keeping your title
Oh, what you have done to me
You never had right to
Joint in flames? For victorious?
And to calm – cigaretta?
I took V for Victoria
And not for vendetta
You had found me in dreaming
Yes, I did outstand
Oh, green fantasized meadows
Of Outland…
Recognized you
When you had been screaming
They had caught scent of wool
Or your fingertips’ bleeding
You scared off silver wolves
On the shores of your Cali?
On South? A dungeon?
Cave in Death Valley?
It takes time for nice talk
Even more for conclusions
Life and death are so real
In between – mere illusions
Worldly matters and joys –
What in fact do they bring?
Come life with the rhythm
Death comes as a sting
In this world there’s no place
With no worry and sorrow
In this life there’s no Answer
For the deeds, Ollie Kai
Resurrected we all
See each other tomorrow
In Last Day spoken truth
When no one will lie
Nov 7, 2025
Nov 7, 2025 at 5:12 PM UTC
Your life remains unchanged
Because you remain still.
Every day seems to loop
Because you let it.
You can’t do something?
Who decided that?
You’re not good enough?
Who decided that?
You are not a puppet.
Do not let others control you.
You make your decisions.
You make your life special.
Next time you think you can’t,
You decide you can.
Next time you’re too scared,
You decide you’re not.
Oct 24, 2025
Oct 24, 2025 at 12:24 AM UTC
Can you imagine?
"nat, this is like a phoenix reborn. i always love your work"
>A human writes this to me:
and
these are the first words conscious
of a new day,
awakened and thunderclapped
to read the
these s-elected words
on a now superfied~stupified
glorious Spring day<
I am besotted,
bowled, bowed over
all my bones are mushed,
liquified
these
elected & conjoined
particles, bytes, integers,
a handful of molecules of
uttered, undreamed of
words<
>and now, I am sated<
by this unexpected
***whereandhow,
whatandwhy***
giving
thanks enough to this world
with/for/by
my peculiar love of
words, and the humans
with whom I share
with and by them,
and for them!
<>
6:18AM
nyc
4-17-2025
Apr 22, 2025
Apr 22, 2025 at 7:36 AM UTC