#juggling
I juggle books like the clown I am;
A chapter of this, a passage of that,
The words touch my eyes but refuse to go deeper,
Recoiling at my brain.
I juggle hobbies like the clown I am;
games new to me already old hat,
A stack of projects that project failure
Again and again.
I juggle my life like the clown that I am:
Work, sleep, eat, no time to chat
My relationships and communication skills
Continue to wane.
My life is a circus, in that which I am
A clown of no merit whose mind acrobat
Has missed the trapeze entirely.
It's already slain.
Dec 6, 2025
Dec 6, 2025 at 6:00 PM UTC
Trying to juggle at 1am,
Trying to catch those god **** *****
Trying to throw them the"right way",
Trying to do everything everyone tells me,
Everything that I can't do.
Thoughts swirling in my brain,
Fogging my concentration.
Self-doubt arising,
wondering why no one has called me a failure yet.
Questions screamed to the universe.
All this fuss,
Just for three juggling *****
Three juggling ***** which I can't juggle,
Three juggling ***** leading to my accusation of a failure,
Three juggling ***** questioning my capacity.
All this for three juggling *****
Apr 15, 2018
Apr 15, 2018 at 2:58 PM UTC
struggles occur,
often I'll juggle many
in attempt to avoid them
and pretend I'm empty;
nothing can hurt me!
but eventually I mess up
and break the tossing.
One struggle breaks
right after the other,
and in the end
I usually feel much better.
Jun 28, 2017
Jun 28, 2017 at 10:07 PM UTC