#jhope
This garden is filled
With blossoming loneliness
I tied myself
To this sandcastle filled with thorns
What is your name?
Do you even have a place to go?
Oh, could you tell me?
I saw you hiding in this garden
And I know
Your heat is real
Your hand picks the blue flowers
I want to hold it but
This is my destiny
Don’t smile on me
Light on me
Because I can’t go to you
There’s no name to call
You know that I can’t
Show you me
Give you me
I can’t show you my weakness
So I’m putting on a mask to go see you
But I still want you
A flower that resembles you
Blossomed in this garden of loneliness
I wanted to give it to you
As I take off this stupid mask
But I know
This can’t go on forever
I must hide
Because I’m ugly
I’m afraid
So pathetic
I’m so afraid
In the end, will you leave me too?
So I’m putting on a mask to go see you
What I can do is
To make a pretty flower
That resembles you
Blossom in this garden, in this world
Then breathe as the person you know
But I still want you
I still want you
Maybe back then
If I had just a little more
Courage
And stood before you
Would everything be different now?
I’m crying
At this sandcastle
That’s disappearing
And breaking down
As I look at this broken mask
And I still want you
But I still want you
But I still want you
And I still want you
Jul 17, 2019
Jul 17, 2019 at 2:02 AM UTC