#jayenigmapoetry - Hello Poetry

Harbored so much pain and hate Felt forgotten and alone Even in a crowded room Ready to fall at the hands of fate Knelt at the despair throne Trying to be strong in a world of gloom Life is darkening like an unfathomable sonic boom Healing me on my own But my soul is already in a tomb Silence beyond deafening Prepared my bones for the reckoning Flesh has turned cold, but blood is blazing Each deep breath is like shards of glass shredding my lungs Demons with every remark, scathing Taking in every word as I succumb Living in the Earth's core Liquified metal, my new water source A sudden gravitational force Before I knew it, a voice from above A childlike silhouette The light beaming from their eyes It's time to forgive Hands clasped together, head to the skies You are forgiven The challenge of life hasn't won yet My road for you was strong so early But my child, I had to build you I saw your struggle to keep your spark from fading But you fought to keep your smile through it all Even in solitude, you pushed through You lost faith in me at age 7 Even if you didn't understand why At your lowest, I knew your heart Deep down, it never lost me It just locked me away, until you forgave yourself A heartbreak was your reset button I found you again in the depths of me

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Sep 7, 2025

Sep 7, 2025 at 2:26 PM UTC

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The Depths Of Me

Harbored so much pain and hate Felt forgotten and alone Even in a crowded room Ready to fall at the hands of fate Knelt at the despair throne Trying to be strong in a world of gloom Life is darkening like an unfathomable sonic boom Healing me on my own But my soul is already in a tomb Silence beyond deafening Prepared my bones for the reckoning Flesh has turned cold, but blood is blazing Each deep breath is like shards of glass shredding my lungs Demons with every remark, scathing Taking in every word as I succumb Living in the Earth's core Liquified metal, my new water source A sudden gravitational force Before I knew it, a voice from above A childlike silhouette The light beaming from their eyes It's time to forgive Hands clasped together, head to the skies You are forgiven The challenge of life hasn't won yet My road for you was strong so early But my child, I had to build you I saw your struggle to keep your spark from fading But you fought to keep your smile through it all Even in solitude, you pushed through You lost faith in me at age 7 Even if you didn't understand why At your lowest, I knew your heart Deep down, it never lost me It just locked me away, until you forgave yourself A heartbreak was your reset button I found you again in the depths of me

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Where have you wandered off to It's been a long storm But now we can reunite Here's your cue to get warm I'm booking that flight I smell the sweet desserts The golden air of your history First step on your ground, healed my soul With my skin, your waters flirt My heart is not dwelling on misery The sun beamed so gently, the goal Culture rooted in love Hospitality far above Atmospherically home

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Aug 17, 2025

Aug 17, 2025 at 12:05 PM UTC

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My Place

Where have you wandered off to It's been a long storm But now we can reunite Here's your cue to get warm I'm booking that flight I smell the sweet desserts The golden air of your history First step on your ground, healed my soul With my skin, your waters flirt My heart is not dwelling on misery The sun beamed so gently, the goal Culture rooted in love Hospitality far above Atmospherically home

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Brown eyes, tinted by the sun Tossing until the tangling is undone Time to rise and be gracious With faith, no entity can break us We rise, live in our purpose Only a few see beneath the surface Trust and be true to yourself Dawn begins to break I stand at the window, awake Tasks of the day floating in my mind Then I feel you from behind Holding tight, your head on my shoulder Squeezing me like I showed her You place your hand on my heart The ruckus from out couldn't make us part Smooth reversal without breaking the embrace Holding you this way is my favorite place From behind, in the perfect place to whisper in your ear Inhaling your essence, sweeter than honey How did I get so lucky

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 2:26 PM UTC

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From Behind

Brown eyes, tinted by the sun Tossing until the tangling is undone Time to rise and be gracious With faith, no entity can break us We rise, live in our purpose Only a few see beneath the surface Trust and be true to yourself Dawn begins to break I stand at the window, awake Tasks of the day floating in my mind Then I feel you from behind Holding tight, your head on my shoulder Squeezing me like I showed her You place your hand on my heart The ruckus from out couldn't make us part Smooth reversal without breaking the embrace Holding you this way is my favorite place From behind, in the perfect place to whisper in your ear Inhaling your essence, sweeter than honey How did I get so lucky

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Wherever in the world you are I truly hope you aren't far Your safe space is warm A place to transform Turn off the tough exterior The outside world is inferior Creating a world of our own You are no longer alone Your throne awaits

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 2:24 PM UTC

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To HER (Mi Reina)

Wherever in the world you are I truly hope you aren't far Your safe space is warm A place to transform Turn off the tough exterior The outside world is inferior Creating a world of our own You are no longer alone Your throne awaits

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In a world where the minds split Falling into a fiery pit Balancing reality and imagination Mounting up into mounds of frustration The world feels so heavy right now Unsure of which way to move or how Taking facts and drawing them out The various changes leave in doubt Imagination wants to play Control feels so serious right now Torn between what's within reach and beyond Time to sever the bond A battle between sadness and happiness Most days are either-or, and some are both The one constant is that those are the choices There's no in-between without the voices

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 12:26 PM UTC

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Heavy

In a world where the minds split Falling into a fiery pit Balancing reality and imagination Mounting up into mounds of frustration The world feels so heavy right now Unsure of which way to move or how Taking facts and drawing them out The various changes leave in doubt Imagination wants to play Control feels so serious right now Torn between what's within reach and beyond Time to sever the bond A battle between sadness and happiness Most days are either-or, and some are both The one constant is that those are the choices There's no in-between without the voices

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As the sunset drew closer, we decided to meet and give this a go She wore the simplest dress, but it fit her so well Her hair was to the side in a ponytail, with wavy curls to the end The perfect shade of pink on her lips Her eyes were brighter than the candle Her nose had the cutest little wrinkle when she laughed After dessert, we took a walk by the water I held her shoes so she could dip her feet Halfway down the path, she grabbed my hand We stood still just for a moment Locked eyes and kissed I felt like I was floating I couldn't handle the sand beneath my feet She slowly ran her hands across my neck Still locked in a kiss, we both opened our eyes and chuckled We finished the night with a kiss at the door That perfect night, I often reminisce A year flew by We were still riding the honeymoon phase high We spent every day together We make it through any kind of weather One day, if all turned to the worst We exchanged words and actions, reversed them Our first fight changed everything That was the first devastating sting Screaming over one another Not listening to each other When tempers finally cool down We realized it was over, nothing to frown Our last fight destroyed everything Petty jabs on both ends We were supposed to remain friends, Instead, we struck the devil in each of us Throwing unnecessary blame Igniting the treacherous flame Crushed under the circumstances No room for advances A long love has gone in one conversation The one that got away The one I wish I had gotten to stay She was the love of my life The one I was going to make for my wife I never got the chance to ask We destroyed our love before it got a chance to flourish

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 12:24 PM UTC

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The One Who Got Away

As the sunset drew closer, we decided to meet and give this a go She wore the simplest dress, but it fit her so well Her hair was to the side in a ponytail, with wavy curls to the end The perfect shade of pink on her lips Her eyes were brighter than the candle Her nose had the cutest little wrinkle when she laughed After dessert, we took a walk by the water I held her shoes so she could dip her feet Halfway down the path, she grabbed my hand We stood still just for a moment Locked eyes and kissed I felt like I was floating I couldn't handle the sand beneath my feet She slowly ran her hands across my neck Still locked in a kiss, we both opened our eyes and chuckled We finished the night with a kiss at the door That perfect night, I often reminisce A year flew by We were still riding the honeymoon phase high We spent every day together We make it through any kind of weather One day, if all turned to the worst We exchanged words and actions, reversed them Our first fight changed everything That was the first devastating sting Screaming over one another Not listening to each other When tempers finally cool down We realized it was over, nothing to frown Our last fight destroyed everything Petty jabs on both ends We were supposed to remain friends, Instead, we struck the devil in each of us Throwing unnecessary blame Igniting the treacherous flame Crushed under the circumstances No room for advances A long love has gone in one conversation The one that got away The one I wish I had gotten to stay She was the love of my life The one I was going to make for my wife I never got the chance to ask We destroyed our love before it got a chance to flourish

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There is a thunderstorm in my head Flashes of lightning behind my eyes Rumbling in my ears Rain pouring from my nose There is a thunderstorm in my head Grey clouds surrounding my brain Blood pooling in my mouth Teeth chattering with every rumble Tongue swimming in blood Darkness brewing in my eyebags Lashes falling like ****** hail Eyelids are heavier than an overcoat Pupils so blown Whirling clouds have my brain in a vice A flare of sunlight would be nice Blood-stamped conversation No one sees The voices are screaming No one hears Cryptic sounds near and far No one speaks There is a thunderstorm in my head

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 12:22 PM UTC

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Thunderstorm In My Head

There is a thunderstorm in my head Flashes of lightning behind my eyes Rumbling in my ears Rain pouring from my nose There is a thunderstorm in my head Grey clouds surrounding my brain Blood pooling in my mouth Teeth chattering with every rumble Tongue swimming in blood Darkness brewing in my eyebags Lashes falling like ****** hail Eyelids are heavier than an overcoat Pupils so blown Whirling clouds have my brain in a vice A flare of sunlight would be nice Blood-stamped conversation No one sees The voices are screaming No one hears Cryptic sounds near and far No one speaks There is a thunderstorm in my head

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A sudden change in the atmosphere Goosebumps on goosebumps Sudden rambling and flashes Uncontrollably trembling The sky screeching Shades of grey That frightening night, I remember You must find the nearest corner No windows insight My eyes feel glued shut Hums drowned out the thunder Rocking like a rocking chair Strike from above Imprints the ground No, not again, please not again Deep breath, exhale slowly The storm will pass

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 12:20 PM UTC

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Astraphobia

A sudden change in the atmosphere Goosebumps on goosebumps Sudden rambling and flashes Uncontrollably trembling The sky screeching Shades of grey That frightening night, I remember You must find the nearest corner No windows insight My eyes feel glued shut Hums drowned out the thunder Rocking like a rocking chair Strike from above Imprints the ground No, not again, please not again Deep breath, exhale slowly The storm will pass

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Chicken Rice Soup 2 Chicken ******* 2 Cups of Rice A stick of butter Eight helping hands An empty belly Directions: 1.)In fall weather, the calming scent could only be Grandma’s kitchen. Saturday morning, raging bellies, smooth plea, acknowledged. There's a crowded table, a full house of grandkids, and hilarious workarounds. The magic assembly starts eagerly with helping hands. 2.)Sauteed chicken is diced in the pan. Bring it to a boil, and don’t let the plan spoil. Time lapsed into a bowl, spoons all gone, no spoon, no food. Fresh bread from the oven. Everyone wants a taste; don't spoil your appetite. Calm over the room, everyone enjoyed a hot serving of Grandma’s Chicken Rice Soup.

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 12:20 PM UTC

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Grandma's Kitchen

Chicken Rice Soup 2 Chicken ******* 2 Cups of Rice A stick of butter Eight helping hands An empty belly Directions: 1.)In fall weather, the calming scent could only be Grandma’s kitchen. Saturday morning, raging bellies, smooth plea, acknowledged. There's a crowded table, a full house of grandkids, and hilarious workarounds. The magic assembly starts eagerly with helping hands. 2.)Sauteed chicken is diced in the pan. Bring it to a boil, and don’t let the plan spoil. Time lapsed into a bowl, spoons all gone, no spoon, no food. Fresh bread from the oven. Everyone wants a taste; don't spoil your appetite. Calm over the room, everyone enjoyed a hot serving of Grandma’s Chicken Rice Soup.

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Sunday- Eerie calm, conflicted resolve, evolution set forth, accomplishment succeeded Monday- Empty spaces, glances missed, healing slowly Tuesday- Numb and hollow, discouraged and drenched in disbelief Wednesday- Stormy weather, tsunami rises, unsettling calm at heart Thursday- Nostalgia brewing, focus on 1000, mind settled Friday-General calm, tickle me, intrigued Saturday- Empty spaces stand, swallowed by sadness, but thrive in this world

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 12:16 PM UTC

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7 Days, 7 Lines

Sunday- Eerie calm, conflicted resolve, evolution set forth, accomplishment succeeded Monday- Empty spaces, glances missed, healing slowly Tuesday- Numb and hollow, discouraged and drenched in disbelief Wednesday- Stormy weather, tsunami rises, unsettling calm at heart Thursday- Nostalgia brewing, focus on 1000, mind settled Friday-General calm, tickle me, intrigued Saturday- Empty spaces stand, swallowed by sadness, but thrive in this world

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A master plan has been laid out for the future And you’re still at the bottom of the totem Reaching three decades on this earth Wondering what it's morphed into Going for the *** of gold at the end of the rainbow Letting positivity bleed through me into this pen until it runs on empty Striving to succeed over greed I am triumphant Take a breath so my lungs can breathe Taking in the fresh summer breeze Running out of time Mind racing, the soul is fading into the dark Heart beating in a rhythm so relentless Hoping my mind stops before I indirectly spill your ***** deeds Buried deep in my mind, circling the drain Cutting you like a switchblade, memories of you fade I am triumphant I have been stepped on and hated on, but I still kept my dreams alive To me, it’s not about the money and the fame It’s about self-expression, knowing how to speak your mind Our lives are intertwined by design Do you think it’s time to be a better version of yourself Trends and fads come and go, but you remain an empty canvas Create your path and be a trendsetter Shocked by love, scorned by terror She has risen above and let a love so true heal her wounds Now she sits back, more in love than ever before She is no longer forsaken, for she is now a wise woman in love and has turned sorrow into strength Cherishing the love she has found in her

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 12:15 PM UTC

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Triumphant

A master plan has been laid out for the future And you’re still at the bottom of the totem Reaching three decades on this earth Wondering what it's morphed into Going for the *** of gold at the end of the rainbow Letting positivity bleed through me into this pen until it runs on empty Striving to succeed over greed I am triumphant Take a breath so my lungs can breathe Taking in the fresh summer breeze Running out of time Mind racing, the soul is fading into the dark Heart beating in a rhythm so relentless Hoping my mind stops before I indirectly spill your ***** deeds Buried deep in my mind, circling the drain Cutting you like a switchblade, memories of you fade I am triumphant I have been stepped on and hated on, but I still kept my dreams alive To me, it’s not about the money and the fame It’s about self-expression, knowing how to speak your mind Our lives are intertwined by design Do you think it’s time to be a better version of yourself Trends and fads come and go, but you remain an empty canvas Create your path and be a trendsetter Shocked by love, scorned by terror She has risen above and let a love so true heal her wounds Now she sits back, more in love than ever before She is no longer forsaken, for she is now a wise woman in love and has turned sorrow into strength Cherishing the love she has found in her

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Fighting through life to change my view of the world That has become cold and blind to me I'm stronger than I was Shaming me for the lifestyle that I chose Almost 30 years fighting the same fight for my right to be who I am Taking on the depression demons below the surface Feel left out in this cold world of black sheep This is a tale of a soul so far gone into depression and anger All these pills just make me numb, millions of doctor visits It all started in late 1994 and has progressed virtually every year After I felt so cold, I couldn't even cry anymore Tear ducts are drier than the Sahara I close my eyes, and all I see is pain and horror All I'm asking is for some light to show me the way Stronger than I was The game got hold of me I can't let my mind be free Never know the mayhem it might unleash The anticipation of the way it'll all turn out Most years went by all the same No change in my convictions Home life was a drag, and school was an escape I spent many years numb; putting on fake smiles kept it all inside No longer looking for validation I raise my voice to the north, rosary in hand Speaking to the one who's cared for me all along Restoring my faith is my only way out Stronger than I was My only way out Stronger than I was

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 12:14 PM UTC

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Stronger Than I Was

Fighting through life to change my view of the world That has become cold and blind to me I'm stronger than I was Shaming me for the lifestyle that I chose Almost 30 years fighting the same fight for my right to be who I am Taking on the depression demons below the surface Feel left out in this cold world of black sheep This is a tale of a soul so far gone into depression and anger All these pills just make me numb, millions of doctor visits It all started in late 1994 and has progressed virtually every year After I felt so cold, I couldn't even cry anymore Tear ducts are drier than the Sahara I close my eyes, and all I see is pain and horror All I'm asking is for some light to show me the way Stronger than I was The game got hold of me I can't let my mind be free Never know the mayhem it might unleash The anticipation of the way it'll all turn out Most years went by all the same No change in my convictions Home life was a drag, and school was an escape I spent many years numb; putting on fake smiles kept it all inside No longer looking for validation I raise my voice to the north, rosary in hand Speaking to the one who's cared for me all along Restoring my faith is my only way out Stronger than I was My only way out Stronger than I was

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You never know when the clock expires Live far beyond the wealth and desires My soul bleeds fire Drama raises the pressure higher Looking at this world blind Loyalty is hard to find Pain drips from a double-edged sword Praying and falling short with the lord Playing the same sick scenario Wondering if the clocks are ready to expire You never know You may never know But the Lord knows Because he did sow And made sure those seeds didn't blow Away with the wind Yet you feel so undisciplined Like all you'll ever do is sin Like, maybe you just can't win But that's not true Your world isn't so blue You can live your life brand new You'll never know Missing that gentle voice of comfort Thinking, really, what's my life worth The glorified crusade has gone wild Bleeding through the seams Life is flashing by too fast Fight with my heart and soul to last Lights piercing through me like high beams You never know Why do things fall the way they do The one true life independence is through total transcendence

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Jul 24, 2025

Jul 24, 2025 at 12:13 PM UTC

jayenigmapoetry

Stormy Road

You never know when the clock expires Live far beyond the wealth and desires My soul bleeds fire Drama raises the pressure higher Looking at this world blind Loyalty is hard to find Pain drips from a double-edged sword Praying and falling short with the lord Playing the same sick scenario Wondering if the clocks are ready to expire You never know You may never know But the Lord knows Because he did sow And made sure those seeds didn't blow Away with the wind Yet you feel so undisciplined Like all you'll ever do is sin Like, maybe you just can't win But that's not true Your world isn't so blue You can live your life brand new You'll never know Missing that gentle voice of comfort Thinking, really, what's my life worth The glorified crusade has gone wild Bleeding through the seams Life is flashing by too fast Fight with my heart and soul to last Lights piercing through me like high beams You never know Why do things fall the way they do The one true life independence is through total transcendence

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