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None but he who calls me, me,
thinks of me
as doer of
the deeds we see were done, or
must have been done,
ere I was error there of, as
beauties, if such do yet make
plans for chances I can take
as hope, sent deep to meet me,
as has been done, hoped over
plans, in me, object I point
at you. See, we are they who do
say you see the banner wave,
o'er the legendary home, aye,
of free and brave, learn-
ed and led by the learned away,
to find the me who started
thinking things we say are prayer,
this, nada mas, this we have
as we think, we have, this we,
I, me and you. Please be real. Amen.
The out of body designation,
after life, after ever once begun,
rounds the bend in time to find you.
That is mine, you said to he-
he who calls me, me, he may be
too dense to pass through, solid state.
Activated Intelligence,
see the odds, gads, scads of
notta chances remain to test,
may good enough to try, get by,
as among the best, for umph,
at the last wish in any set of three
kinds of minds full of found
ways this could occur or happen
to seem felt right, enough for now.
- the binge, a novel passtime,
- focus, intent, on hero stories fit
- slicker than snot to viral ideas…
We sneeze, sometimes in threes,
all the breathers who think in me terms,
studies show we mostly sneeze in threes;
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we get vaccines in threes, and we live on
Between April 26 and July 10, 1954,
volunteers distributed Salk's series of three polio shots….
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Dec 20, 2021
Dec 20, 2021 at 1:35 PM UTC
So what if I love you?
Do you care?
I don’t.
If you don’t try, I won’t.
I’ve tried to the best of my abilities.
To me this is a mystery.
Why do you hurt so much?
I’m in constant misery.
It’s not your fault.
Please just tell me why.
Poking and prodding,
Until they die.
Mar 2, 2018
Mar 2, 2018 at 9:30 PM UTC
And now that you're dating someone else
I suddenly understand you:
Things that you did, words that you said,
Even when I withstand you,
I took you for granted, but from the first,
You always respected me.
You bothered almost everyone else,
But you knew when to stop with me.
You've always believed in me
I'm not sure how I deserve it;
Between us, I think now we're closer,
And I will strive to preserve it.
And as for wishing that you were with me,
I think I can leave that behind;
Probably friends is all we will ever be,
And right now, I don't really mind.
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016 at 3:00 PM UTC
I'll be strong for you.
Usually I'm the anxious one,
Scared in crowds and streets.
But your pain is crippling you;
And I know I can be strong.
Feb 17, 2016
Feb 17, 2016 at 4:30 PM UTC
There's always a ploy,
Complicated stratagems,
And a backup plan.
When I meet potential flirts,
I throw up my guard.
I save aloofness and pride
For the clingy one.
For the one given to thought,
I display impulse,
Expose spontaneity,
And show thoughtlessness.
For those expecting much praise,
I laugh at their face,
Disregarding some kindness,
And I spurn their wants.
But for the analyzer,
Who looks inside me--
I open up the floodgates,
I lay bare my faults,
And try to convince the man
Of every vileness
And of every cruelty
That I can muster.
For if he believes I sin,
And do so often,
Perhaps it will save him then
From the traps I'd lay
If I let myself like him,
Try to entrance him,
And lie about my dark soul.
This way, no man knows:
No man sees my tender heart,
No man knows my fears,
No man feels my true sorrow--
And my heart is saved.
But I wonder deep at night:
Am I lonely? No...
But I've run so far from love
That I'll never try again.
Feb 16, 2016
Feb 16, 2016 at 12:43 PM UTC
I know things happen,
And bad things to good people;
I wonder sometimes,
Why to him? Why in this way?
And why now? Tell me.
Feb 17, 2016
Feb 17, 2016 at 4:18 PM UTC
I take it back.
I said I wanted something to happen,
Something that would ****** him out of his comfort zone,
Something that would shatter his world and bring him closer to You.
But not like this, not so viciously that he can't eat or sleep.
Remove his pain, I didn't want this.
Take it back.
Feb 17, 2016
Feb 17, 2016 at 4:25 PM UTC
Give him wisdom and peace he's never known.
Give her humility she's never had.
Give me the listening ear I've yearned to show.
Give us grace through this before it gets bad.
'Cause he needs wisdom to deal with her words:
She might accuse him and confess little.
I don't think he's ready to be this hurt,
And I know his pride is hard and brittle.
Humility will save her from sadness
For if she admits her wrong, she'll be fine
And I will sit here amid the madness
Treading on mutual friendship's thin line.
Even though I wish this was just a phase,
To bring us through, I will bear any weight.
Feb 11, 2016
Feb 11, 2016 at 5:39 PM UTC
Maybe
He will change his mind
Or grow a new opinion
As doors close for him.
Maybe
Thoughts will turn from her
And he'll see me waiting here
And he'll notice me.
Maybe
He will take a chance
Hoping that I will say yes
And I'll be surprised.
But maybe
He knows already
Because I've not been tactful:
He's seen my red face.
And maybe
He avoids me too
And rolls his eyes at my jokes
Because I'm stupid.
Maybe
He's flattered by me
By my attentions and smiles
And he lets me laugh.
Maybe
He doesn't notice
And I'm just another girl
Here on the sidelines.
maybe
he knows and hates me
and he talks behind my back.
i should give it up.
maybe
it'll go up in flames
and he will embarrass me
and they will all see.
Feb 6, 2016
Feb 6, 2016 at 1:00 PM UTC
.Honestly,
She deserves better.
She would be so good for you,
But you would hurt her,
As you already have here
By forcing her to say no.
Honestly,
You need someone strong,
Someone to put up with you
And keep you in line,
Because you'll respond in turn
And influence will change you.
Honestly,
You have been the first.
I idolized the others.
But I see your flaws
As I ought to; I could say
All the things you need to hear.
But honestly,
You need more than me:
I would hurt you, I know it.
Though unintended,
I would run with my feelings
And push you away instead.
So honestly,
Think hard beforehand
Don't ask for what you don't want
You're resilient
But I'm a pain in the neck
And I don't want to break you.
Honestly
I won't make a move.
For both fear and for the hope
That we'll just be friends
If not best ones, then good ones:
Just as we are already.
So honestly
I might want to lie
But honest I will remain
As I tell you this:
That I would only choose you
If you fully knew the price.
Feb 3, 2016
Feb 3, 2016 at 1:41 PM UTC
He's always with my friends,
And I'm always with them,
And I kind of see him every single day.
The funny thing is this,
That I have a secret wish
To see how long—if—he can stay away.
One Sunday he slept late
And boy, I felt great
Knowing he'd miss church with us together
But smiling with chagrin
I saw him back again
When everyone meet up to eat our dinner.
I mentioned it that night
Before he I left his sight,
And he suggested—with us laughing together—
That someday, both of us
Should, without a fuss,
For fun, passively avoid each other.
Today has not been long
But so far I've been strong
And haven't sought him out, or told him so
But I know that tonight
We'll meet again, alright
And once again the count shall be zero.
Dec 8, 2015
Dec 8, 2015 at 3:54 PM UTC
I've decided my sadness
Is not about you
And all of my worries
Are only mine, too
That I don't wished you liked me
I'm just overall lonely
I don't think you ignore me
I'm just not your somebody
I have my own life
I shouldn't make it about you
When you're yourself
I should be myself, too.
Dec 7, 2015
Dec 7, 2015 at 7:07 PM UTC
There is no romance
But I'm pretty sure you care...
You say "I love you"
But you say that all the time
To everybody. And me.
Dec 5, 2015
Dec 5, 2015 at 7:32 PM UTC
I chose to forgive
And my hatred and anger
Dissipated, slow,
And mellowed out into this:
Apathy and honest care.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 11:44 PM UTC
I try to be kind
But sometimes it's difficult;
You wouldn't believe,
But I can hold a mean grudge
Over something pathetic.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 11:34 PM UTC
It distresses me:
I just can't think straight these days.
But one thing I know—
I am alright without you,
And that comforts me.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 11:32 PM UTC
I thought I could hide:
You seemed unassuming then;
But now, you see me,
And I know you look through me—
That you know, reassures me.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 12:58 PM UTC
I am no longer
This version of me has changed
Who I was has gone;
I didn't like who I was,
But it frightens me, changing.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 12:55 PM UTC
Too often I lie
When I smile at you and laugh
Because deep inside,
Knowing you has made me drown
In this, my pit of self-doubt.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 12:47 PM UTC
Again, I am found
In that familiar place
Where I hope for much
Expect little, and am shocked
When I am neither to you.
Dec 3, 2015
Dec 3, 2015 at 12:51 PM UTC