#itsgonnabeokaydarling
the pain.
she envied the movie star like glistening smile.
she wanted to be like the girls who were carefree.
she wanted to be beautiful.
but beautiful to her was thin.
it started when someone called her fat.
"am I?" she wondered.
so she starved herself, maybe eating a ******* or two after mama told her.
but she spit them back up because she couldn't help it.
she wanted to be like the pretty school cheerleaders.
and she hated herself.
each time she stepped on the scale she cried.
the numbers soon went from 88 to 89
"im doing it wrong" she thought.
and she continued on going day by day with water.
swallowing and spitting back up.
eating more and more.
and spitting it back up.
she was slowly going insane, day by day.
she started slicing her wrists like meat.
she started crying herself to sleep.
she became empty of adrenaline.
she didn't want to wake up anymore.
i guess you could say that
pain, is an understatement.
May 23, 2015
May 23, 2015 at 4:32 PM UTC