#inferioritycomplex
There is a subtle emptiness
Placing a shutter, blankest white
Before the dripping ink of night
Cupped in the brown they call my eyes.
The pounding of a silent voice
Upon the bottom of my mind.
A wordless tremble in my hands,
Some concrete in my smile.
Oh well, I murmured to the voice,
What matter if I don’t rejoice?
A passing whim, a selfish choice,
Then I’ll be fine tomorrow.
The giants, oh! They raise their arms,
Pulling the membrane off the moon,
Unveiling core of blinding light,
A blossom of sundews.
My giant! Love! A chandelier,
Glaring upon my feverish skull,
Your smile of stone and eyes of ink,
Thee is a subtle emptiness,
My dear, you truly make me sick,
Both arrogance and self-hatred,
An inner eye that never blinks,
That never looks outside yourself.
Sep 12, 2025
Sep 12, 2025 at 5:48 AM UTC
**** you!
How dare you spurn my words.
With you it's never what I said,
but what you think you heard.
How dare you doubt the nature
of my truth; would I say
that you are beautiful
and mean anything less?
How dare you call me a liar,
and hold under my feet such a fire,
and beg me "Confess! You think I'm ugly,
it's true! How could I be perfect as you?"
I don't point out my own flaws; in your eyes they're not there.
I don't hold up a mirror to my face for you to see my sunken eyes,
I don't list you every lie, or tell you of all my crimes,
I don't quibble and deface what you hold beyond any compare.
I just grin, and say "Thanks," and let it rest there.
And I try to make you understand, but you turn me away,
and now I'm done wasting air.
There's nothing left to explain.
You were beautiful when I said it, now you're ugly in vain.
And could you see that for truth, you'd be beautiful once again.
But it doesn't matter;
You're too busy raging with spittle,
to listen to the truth that I've painstakingly shown.
And I'm too busy loving you
to allow your beauty to not shine through,
So, I take my leave of you,
tears marring that face you claimed to love so,
heading into the unknown,
Oh, **** you, again!
My words; my feelings
are not yours
but my own.
If my feelings mean so little,
Then be ugly alone.
Jan 26, 2015
Jan 26, 2015 at 12:03 AM UTC