Someone deeply in love with once said 
I quote 
"You like being sad"

Give that thought
Doesn't make sense
Oxymoron at best

Eventually he will realize sometimes sadness sits inside of you and it burns like a flame no amount of laughter or love can extinguish

Inextinguishable

Every time
I think that I’m really though with you

I laugh at the irony 
Exclaim, but not in exuberance 
My heart races, only to fade

And a headache follows 
With my realized mistake 

Every
Single 
Time

Why do I look?