#improving
I want too mean it when I say I'm working to improve
But I know I'm on borrowed time due too a marriot of conflicting issues
Turning greener pastures different shades of blues
Most of the root doesn't even originate from my property,
Still the hardest to remove
Doesn't help I'm held accountable for the damage my damage,
Caused by others mind you,
Always accrues
I think I've overpaid my dues
©2024
Mar 17, 2024
Mar 17, 2024 at 10:19 PM UTC
solicit the galling thoughts
those obscenities rigged gorily within
victim concepts taught distortion forbidden carcass
in the persisting sully of night
padded dreams pace ******* at a fed distance
it's all in sight and held racing back and forth out of reach
some sloven mystery
under a cower of skin
one day free of your agent cover
and you'll stand vacantly able under eye of the morgue creator
mating together life habits gracious goodness gratefully seeded
you could maintain a patient pattern
with practice you could go mainstream
-with practice
Nov 20, 2022
Nov 20, 2022 at 1:50 PM UTC
Powerless
I finally get up, i leave you behind
Now i'm free
Senseless
I cry of joy as mom holds me in her arms
Now i feel
Empty
I paint 'til i can't feel my hands anymore and my cheeks hurt
a sweet ache caused by my smile
Now i create
Ugly
I look in the mirror
I don't see a stranger
Now i am
But not really
I'm not
Not now
Apr 14, 2021
Apr 14, 2021 at 2:44 PM UTC
Greatness isn't for those,
Who gets satisfied merely by seeing their old work
And think 'This is it!'
But instead for those who observe their own work,
And think 'I wonder how I can top this'.
Oct 18, 2020
Oct 18, 2020 at 4:37 AM UTC
If no one comes from the future
To stop you from doing it
Then how bad of a decision
Can it really be
Nov 29, 2019
Nov 29, 2019 at 8:16 AM UTC
While standing I'm up so high
After so long it feels right
You don't even have to try
You'll be soaring, like a kite.
Standing beats laying down
Would you rather
Stand and walk around town
Or laze around.
But don't stand too long
Or else you might fall
So try to stay strong
Move past this life's wall.
Feb 6, 2019
Feb 6, 2019 at 6:01 PM UTC
I've fallen in love with Self-Deprecation.
I found her teetering the edge
of Self-Destruction
Testing Her limits with every acquaintance.
She lets Her life hang in the doorframe
either land on her feet
or the knot takes Her name
Teasing bad decisions with Svedka soaked sexts.
I've fallen in love with inception.
I left Self in an echo of a room
against cement bricks of incarceration.
Oct 7, 2018
Oct 7, 2018 at 9:19 PM UTC
As I stand and look at the mirror, I wonder, what challenges life will throw at me. I think on what danger could happen . With my mind at peace and my heart at rest, I take each day step by step. I know that one day I will be rid of my nightmares and know that it can be possible for me to change something fantastic in life. but for now, I just keep looking in the mirror and wondering.
Jan 27, 2018
Jan 27, 2018 at 5:39 PM UTC
When I'm home,
I have an apple every night,
It makes me feel good.
When I'm in school,
I don't even have an apple everyday.
I spend more time in school,
Than I do at home,
It's torture,
And home;
Home doesn't leave me feeling so dandy either,
The apples help me.
I guess that partially explains,
Why this sea of depression,
Is only getting deeper,
And I still don't know how to swim,
In a pool.
Oct 19, 2015
Oct 19, 2015 at 2:16 PM UTC
I heard in a song
that you’re only
as good as your
last mistake.
And I’ve never been
more thankful for
humans ability
to make millions.
So you’ll never
be my last,
because I’m better
than that.
Burning toast
and eating it anyway.
Buying shampoo
when I actually
needed conditioner.
Showing up late
to a meeting.
Missing the first
day of class.
Studying for an exam
two hours before it starts.
Not turning in an
assignment because
I just simply didn’t
want to do it.
Not leaving my pajamas or
bed when there’s
so much to do.
Apologizing when they
bumped into me.
Lying to people
who care, I’m okay.
Not locking my door.
Walking alone at night.
I’d rather be
defined by all
of these things
than you.
Dec 26, 2014
Dec 26, 2014 at 9:46 PM UTC