#impenetrable
Dangerous fleeting thoughts
That return far too regularly
Create the impenetrable bars
That keep my mind in captivity
That keep me afraid of me
That make me my own worst enemy
If I had a penny
For every
Scary thought
They'd be what buries me
©2024
Oct 12, 2024
Oct 12, 2024 at 5:14 PM UTC
I took a quarter of a lifetime to create
Boundaries with an impenetrable gate
That I could fall back to at a later date
Who knew I wouldn't have to wait
Because as soon as I challenged fate
And tried to break this family trait
And shift from the pattern of self hate
To a more beneficial internal way to associate
I was lead to and left in this mental state
No trial, no debate
Forced with the threat of death to participate
And that safe place, it began to deteriorate
As the darkness started to manipulate
Causing my stronghold to mutate
At an astonishing rate
'Till now I just feel like an inmate
©2024
Jun 19, 2024
Jun 19, 2024 at 1:23 PM UTC
And in the midst of my impenetrable winter,
I found within you my eternal spring.
Dec 8, 2014
Dec 8, 2014 at 1:03 PM UTC
And sometimes, sometimes the lack of tears is what's most frightening.
An impenetrable numbness that surrounds me.
Has molded around my being.
A hard shell that even a chisel cannot chip.
I am a stone. Cold, so cold.
When did I lose my heart?
When did I lose the ability to care and trust and feel?
Oh, to feel again.
The salty wet tears on hot rosy cheeks.
The rush of crisp fresh air filling my lungs, lifting me, enticing my smooth bare feet to take courageous steps on soft beds of grassy fields.
Where did that girl go? Carefree and whimsical. The girl who welcomed emotional instability. The ups and downs and all arounds are gone.
She has gone and I am here.
I am what's left.
I am the surviving soul.
My black, wretched soul.
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 2:44 PM UTC