#ilovedyou
I can't quite remember
the moment
everything
shifted
when I stopped waking up
feeling anything but tired
or when I stopped going to sleep
praying for anything but the end
maybe it was the day you left
physically, I mean
or perhaps the weeks leading up
the weeks that numbed me to my bones
perhaps it was the months that followed
and the way little parts of me
seemed to just
drift away
I stopped looking both ways
while crossing a busy road
stopped being careful
while walking alone in public
I didn't notice when I stopped running
to the safety of my bed once the lights went out
instead I slowly wandered through the house
no longer afraid of the dark or what it could hide
because what can a car
or a creep
or the dark, where my fears would once reap
do that will ever compare to the way
you broke me
Dec 9, 2024
Dec 9, 2024 at 9:45 PM UTC
What's it like to let me go?
I asked you twice and still don't know
I'd never thought you'd stoop so low
At least I've learned to manage though
All the pain
And all the shame
You put me through
For all my being was never enough
I can't believe I ever had loved you
Why on earth did I ever love you?
Why did I love you?
I loved you
Oct 20, 2019
Oct 20, 2019 at 8:41 PM UTC
An empty bottle is all I kiss
And if a genie came out
I think I'd wish
I'd never had met you
I'll always regret you
The night that I met you
The year that I gave
I said that I loved you
Oct 20, 2019
Oct 20, 2019 at 8:09 PM UTC
I have loved
For all the souls that I have loved,
I give up my heart as an offering.
For all the hearts that I have stolen,
I vow to thee you are everlasting.
To all the women who have affected my life,
I cherish your contact;
Please take this care that I bring.
To all those I have lost throughout my lifetime,
I loved you all…
I say these words just for you
And these words do not do me justice;
But these words I do mean,
For they are all true and you showed me such tenderness.
I loved you then and I love you now;
I shall continue to love you ‘til I am gone into the clouds.
I will love again and I shall feel love somehow
And I shall cherish it like I have before,
Because love is to be found underneath loves shroud.
For all the lovers throughout my lifetime, I pledge my allegiance.
What is your passion? It shall become mine
And what is mine I shall give to you,
Because I have loved and will forever love you.
(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.
Jun 4, 2018
Jun 4, 2018 at 9:47 AM UTC
I remember sometimes I'd try everything in my power to get you to laugh, and how sometimes it didn't work. Yet there were those special moments in between the lack of reciprocation and fights I'd get you to give me that look. I walk up to you
"Hey my friends are having a party tonight and I know we just met but it'd be cool if you came." We were dating well past a year at this point, flash forward three hours and we're drunk sitting on couches with strangers around us. "Hey, Paul right? I'm glad you decided to come" the people around us get excited over what they think is a budding relationship, you look over to them smile and say "This is my girlfriend..."
Jan 25, 2018
Jan 25, 2018 at 12:53 AM UTC
It was May of 2015, we decided to start a garden. The things we grew, carrots, cucumbers, tomatoes, green beans, green cabbage, the only two things we could not grow was that **** red cabbage and our love between us. Now its January of 2018 and our garden has withered away to sticks and dirt and our love isn't much better off either.
Jan 20, 2018
Jan 20, 2018 at 9:41 AM UTC
strong tidal waves
i plunged into an abyss beyond hope
a horizon out of reach
i looked for you even when my eyes were closed
lighthouse beyond the darkness
you were there even when i didn't want you to be
storm clouds fulfil the thirst
you taught me that tears could make a cup of tea
ice caps threatened the earth
my friends told me to look away even when they knew i can't
rocks beneath begin to move
my affections ought never to have won
water begins to consume all they could
we was never a word to be heard
everything is blue
our stories were meant to hurt
Dec 4, 2017
Dec 4, 2017 at 12:16 PM UTC
From the moment I saw you
I knew we'd be something real
I knew you'd be the one I'd want to grow old with
I love you
You treat me as if I'm the only girl in the world
You're my king and I'm your queen
I'm in love with you
When I'm with you I smile so much my face hurts
But I'm scared
Everyone is saying you'll just break my heart
I don't want to believe them
But I just wonder if they're right
And they were.
Sep 27, 2017
Sep 27, 2017 at 2:22 PM UTC
You talking **** like I’m the one, who broke the truth,
You say I cheated when I loved you most,
I’m not the one, who lied during the good times,
How can you be mad when you broke me?
Honestly girl I tried to save us,
You sat their hoping id just shut up,
You didn’t like me but you’re mad about a kiss,
Get over yourself it was but bliss,
How can you be mad when u lied all this time?
I played a game and ruined my own life,
Don’t you understand you were my world?
Now you’re nothing **** shouldn’t be my queen,
You made our problems public,
You hurt me even more,
I’d love to say I hate you,
But I guess I still hurt more.
Jul 25, 2016
Jul 25, 2016 at 10:03 PM UTC
Missed calls at 1 am
I wonder where you are.
Even then, especially now
you always were too far.
I'm done with broken promises,
I'm over empty feelings.
What happened?
Tell me, please.
My head's spinning in circles
and I'm down here on my knees.
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I'm writing this a year and a half later
to let you know I'm still here.
But as for you, well I'm quite sure
you've up and disappeared.
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It's been two years since I started
this ******** love letter
in your absence.
I wish I could say I still miss you,
that I'm still driven crazy by so much madness;
but I realized I'd been holding on
to the ghosts of
your words
your touch
and
You.
You were like
the ever-changing seasons,
and I soon realized:
You are no longer
the person
I once knew.
Dec 9, 2015
Dec 9, 2015 at 9:32 PM UTC
he loves me, he loves me not.
im not your ************* flower &
i have no more petals to be picked.
c.f.
Sep 5, 2015
Sep 5, 2015 at 9:29 PM UTC
It may have never been enough,
It may have been in pieces,
**** It may even have been the worst you've ever gotten..
But I gave you the best parts of me.
I gave you all of what's left of me.
Sep 2, 2015
Sep 2, 2015 at 4:24 AM UTC
Our souls were
Heavy with
Silence, on the night we parted.
At least, they were to our ringing ears.
Yet everyone could hear it but us, it seems.
That sad melody of our hopes and our fears,
Heard from miles and years
Away... of sad romances and softly whispered dreams
That our hearts told us could never be... They were right, it seems.
You won't remember my face.
Only echoes of my skin; like a portrait
Under a portrait, painted over in every empty space
...
Like so many failed paintings;
Like so many failed...
My hands won't even allow me to write.
Isn't that
Sick?So... Don't ask me to write any more. I won't ask you to
Sing
More. I'll write no further
Eulogies for our failed sonata. Here's the coda. There's the door.
???? Isn't it funny? That we couldn't hear that sound before?
We were singing such beautiful songs, but they were
Melodies that the singers couldn't hear. Isn't that the definition of ironic?
And... Though I couldn't hear our last symphony, I would
Dare say that could my ears have divined that melody...
Every note had to be perfect. As if the composer of that song had designed it
To be sung in a duet....
Apr 3, 2015
Apr 3, 2015 at 12:42 AM UTC
And I can't sleep at night anymore because I swear to god the sheets still smell like you even though I bought new ones last week.
My mind is burns with the memory of your eyes when you used to look at me, and say you loved me.
Your smile was so lovely, just like those lies you told me when we would lay in the darkness.
Jan 11, 2015
Jan 11, 2015 at 11:24 PM UTC
Do you remember the way you told me that you knew you were my weakness?
That was my black tar ******
And do you remember the way you smiled at me?
That was my MDMA.
I remember the way you made my nerve endings fire off all at once.
That was my marlboro light.
And I remember the way you left me.
That was my loaded gun.
But the one thing you and I will never forget is what you stole from me.
That was my soul.
Aug 2, 2014
Aug 2, 2014 at 1:45 AM UTC
oh if you knew or felt or saw the love i had for you..
you'd burst in tears for not holding me in your arms
you'd burst in tears for not kissing me
you'd burst in tears for not caring about me
and most of all you'd burst in tears for leaving me
May 22, 2014
May 22, 2014 at 6:58 PM UTC