#ididthistomyself
You've been appearing in my dreams.
It's the only time I get to see you now.
I remember the last few times
We were together you were hesitant.
Hesitant and anxious
To hold my hand.
Thinking
I would pull away.
In my dreams, it's you
Who pulls away.
I manage to hold your hand
After a gentle effort
Such grace you carry yourself
I'm enthralled...
But I fall apart in your arms.
I can't keep myself together.
Last I remember
We were in each other's embrace.
You took your time calming me
While I was collapsing in your hands.
I wake up
To the heavy and pounding
Beat of my heart.
The silence in the room is too much.
I turn and reach for you.
Wanting to pull you closer
Keeping us together.
But you're no longer here.
It's just me now in this cold and silent room.
Oh, what I would give to wake up
In the middle of the night
With you sleeping soundly against my chest.
My alarm won't be going off
For a few more hours.
And I won't be getting anymore sleep Tonight.
Oct 31, 2024
Oct 31, 2024 at 10:37 PM UTC