#icantdothisanymore
for the longest part of my life
my mother said she would be "better off dead"
for the longest part of my life
i had to hear, "if you dont do what i say i might as well be dead"
for the longest part of my life
i heard "you will miss me when I'm dead"
for the longest part of my life
i was blackmailed, emotionally.
One cannot make a person want to live.
One cannot make a person except what they have done.
One cannot take the blame, if you are only a little child.
May 18, 2021
May 18, 2021 at 5:46 AM UTC
if i knew it would be the last time i could see you fall asleep,
i would've done more to keep you warm.
if i knew it would be the last time i get to see you walk out that door
i would've kissed you
and hugged you
and called you back for another kiss
if i knew it would be the last time i could hear your voice
i would've recorded you,
so i could listen to it over and over.
we live as if we still have loads of time to do what we want
but what if today was your last chance?
Dec 9, 2020
Dec 9, 2020 at 3:56 AM UTC
Sleep is so addictive
It numbs all pain and suffering
You can curl up with death
And feel its peaceful embrace
But when you again wake
Its hellish and unsafe
Your soul aches
You long for rest again
May 29, 2020
May 29, 2020 at 12:54 AM UTC