#honesteyes
I want to have courage and confidence in our marriage,
That no matter what happens, you will be there,
Beside me.
You are not the one that has made me doubt.
I've gathered the doubt from
Countless places
And years of experience.
Like mineral deposits, it will take time purge,
To chip away at the worries and anxieties.
I'm glad we've started that clean up.
I want to feel Freedom
Of always knowing you have my heart,
That your hands treasure that gift and
Keep it close.
That you will not push me away.
I want to able to take you for granted,
But to never choose to do so.
I want you to know how closely I hold you in my heart,
That I will never let you go.
I love you.
I love being your snuggle bug,
Your lover,
Your wife.
It still feels like a dream, being in my shoes,
The greatest dream I have ever dreamt.
Thank you for not fading,
For not drifting away when I wake.
I want that continued courage and confidence
That you will always be there
As you promised you would.
Forever.
Jun 14, 2019
Jun 14, 2019 at 8:43 PM UTC
Things are better now.
My other half, my dear,
When you stay, when you hear,
I know you are with me.
I'm scared.
I don't want either of us to leave,
I would fall apart
Because I am in love with you. Forever.
I will stay here with you
As long as I am allowed to linger.
Hold me closer,
Hold me tighter,
The way that you cherish me.
May 24, 2019
May 24, 2019 at 9:08 PM UTC
Smiling has never been easier because I can remember how it feels to be in your arms.
And I know you are like me:
You want to have this love forever.
I am found. :)
May 16, 2019
May 16, 2019 at 7:00 PM UTC
My dear Faithful Husband
I hope you know
My goal is to never take you for granted
I cherish you always
I love your scent and your smile
You make me happy
Your arms keep me warm and safe
Protected when you are near
I love you my darling dearest
With every breath I take and beyond
Jan 5, 2019
Jan 5, 2019 at 2:31 AM UTC
Just another day.
Weeks have gone by with me in this funk.
Don't know what I'm doing.
Don't know where I'm going wrong.
Waking up is worse than falling asleep.
Nightmares next to my patient husband.
Drained more than I started with.
Cannot remember what went on.
Days and days, just another day.
Just another.
Just...
Jan 5, 2019
Jan 5, 2019 at 2:21 AM UTC
More than I could have asked for, more than I could ever dream...
Kisses with you,
Your hand in mine,
Kneeing with you,
Exchanging rings.
I will never give this up for anything.
Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 7:24 PM UTC
I can feel your love for me, and
Wish you weren’t so far.
You, me?
I’m excited to have this forever view.
You help me bloom,
Watching movies, eating pizza,
I never want this to end.
You on one knee, and I
Happy, ecstatic, YES!!!
The pitch of a piccolo.
Forever in Sixteen.
Aug 15, 2018
Aug 15, 2018 at 11:06 AM UTC
My dreams have almost become reality,
Blurring lines between what is now
And what I always wanted.
Falling asleep listening to your
Melodic voice on the phone
While you’re hundreds of miles away.
I love your rhythm, your music,
The tones, and the love I hear.
Sleeping, dreaming that your strong arms
Are around me.
Your heart beat and warm kisses
Are beyond description.
I feel if any human could love me forever,
It would be you.
Last step until living in a dream:
Marrying you.
Aug 15, 2018
Aug 15, 2018 at 10:40 AM UTC
Concentration on the cake I was mixing
Annoyance that the doorbell rang
Frustration that security camera wasn’t working
Exasperation at who I thought was a salesman
Suprised as I pulled the door open
Confused as I stood there gazing at you
Loved as I lept into your arms
Peace.
Jul 24, 2018
Jul 24, 2018 at 10:56 AM UTC
Hold me tight,
My guardian,
The Angel that God sent to meet me.
Honest, gentle one,
With your warm smiles and
Caressing lips.
Will you let me have your heart forever?
Handsome Prince
The man I trust,
How can you convince me that
This isn’t a dream?
I love you.
Jul 12, 2018
Jul 12, 2018 at 1:57 AM UTC
Right beside me,
A support,
My other half,
My crying shoulder.
You’ve been here next to me
More willingly than any human
Has before.
I trust you,
Happier in your arms than
Any other place I’ve been.
Even when the tears overtake me
Or the numbness starts to seep in.
You've been there for me and
With me
Through the pain.
You are genuinely interested,
Loving me though you know my
Deepest sadness,
Broken trust,
Worst mistakes.
I don’t know why you do,
But I am incredibly grateful
You Love me
Despite myself.
Eternity
With you
Cannot be put into
A simple wonderful.
It is more grand than
Any word ever known by mankind.
Jun 26, 2018
Jun 26, 2018 at 4:13 PM UTC
Sweet,
Sincere,
You.
but at this point all I feel are tears.
Feeling in a dark brown mood today,
Alone,
In dim shadows.
I appreciate you being here,
Standing by me. Even though
I feel as though I’ve betrayed you
By trusting you with my past.
Kind,
Gentle,
You treat me with respect.
Even now, when I feel
I should be shunned and scolded.
It would make more sense if you did,
For I already feel worthless, helpless, lost
Again. Sunk in the memories...
The memories I regret every second of.
I’m sorry I was so reckless before.
I really wish I was the angel you thought I was...
Instead of ***** shattered pieces of glass littering the street.
Jun 18, 2018
Jun 18, 2018 at 8:25 PM UTC
Tender feelings
For the one I love most.
Waiting here,
Wondering when you will take the journey back,
Smiling because soon you will be in my arms.
Our future together.
This still is a dream,
That someone can love and care
About Me
Feels unreal.
I can feel it in the way you look at me,
The way you talk to me.
Respectful. Genuine. Honesty.
I love the way you snuggle me.
Can you hold me now?
Jun 17, 2018
Jun 17, 2018 at 2:00 AM UTC
Northeast tower,
West side,
Top window,
Back room,
Left corner,
Under the bed,
Trapped in my own mind.
Come rescue me.
Mar 30, 2018
Mar 30, 2018 at 2:59 PM UTC
I'm looking for a
Guardian angel,
Someone who could be my
Crying shoulder,
Who would never try and change me
Or think of abusing me.
He would have me forget the person
I once was--the one I hate.
I'm still waiting for him,
Someone that loves me,
Not only that but would miss me,
Deeply so.
Like how I would miss him,
Like a flower in the snow--
Missing the sun.
I don't know if he will understand
How I internalize everything,
Or how I don't let my secrets go
Without a fight, a struggle in my mind.
But he would understand that he loves me
With a love that will never go away.
Oct 15, 2015
Oct 15, 2015 at 9:01 AM UTC
I want to fall in love with a boy who...
Unravels my secrets one by one,
Knocking down my walls,
But doesn't push too hard.
Sees the pain in my eyes
He would hold me close without a sound.
Just holds me.
Would see all the tears I have cried,
The ones I couldn't bear to shed,
Wishing to find the missing pieces of me
And to fix my brokenness.
Writes down my half finished poems,
Memorizing my fickle words.
Confides in me his weakness and worries
Listening to mine with an open heart.
Above all he would never make me feel
Useless,
Insignificant,
Inferior.
Figures out what frustrates me and
Figure out my symptoms showing I'm stressed,
Depressed,
Anxiety,
Crying.
Cares.
Cares more than anyone else could, more than anyone else has ever cared.
Would not be afraid to tease me,
Even when I tell him not to but he would still know his limits.
He would respect my wishes and requests.
Would be the one that makes me happy,
Secure, and
Want to be a better person for me,
Him,
And everyone else.
Loves music and
Loves singing, especially with me.
Chases rainbows with me and
Takes crazy weekend trips at the last minute.
Would love to create-- art, gardening, music, carpentry, cooking,
Or a variety of these things and more.
Debates with me--
Not argue mind you--
And have his own will,
So we could make decisions together.
Agrees with me on most things.
Is intelligent and wise,
So we could talk about
Philosophy,
Science,
Calculus,
Psychology,
Religion,
Law,
Etc.
Is frugal,
But would never count the cost when it comes to me.
Would never withhold his forgiveness
And help, always trying to make me smile,
Even though he would always make me happy.
He would change his ways to be better,
No matter how good he already is.
Would marry me in the temple
But be nervous before the wedding,
Worried that this might not work in the end and he
Doesn't want to break me like other boys did.
But he knows that he would always love me
And this will work if we work together.
When he smiled, it would light up the world.
I want to fall in love with a boy that could love me with all his heart.
Sep 25, 2015
Sep 25, 2015 at 6:10 PM UTC
I miss you.
I await the time that you will pick me up,
Spin me around,
Kiss my lips and make everything better.
Because you can, my Dear.
At least for a moment.
The feeling of freedom and fulfillment you give me
Is beyond,
Far greater than my
Weak words could describe.
I desire the place right next to you,
In your arms,
Where I find
Home.
Jun 12, 2018
Jun 12, 2018 at 12:02 AM UTC
I showed you who I am.
You love me more for it.
I still don't understand how...
My world was dull, for it is hard to see color
When the light goes out.
Why is this amazing dream so hard to believe?
That someone would love me for
Who I am,
Not
Who they think I am,
Or expect me to be.
Your kind smiles buoy me up,
I thrive on the kind words you speak
To me,
And long to be in your arms again,
My knight.
but now my world feels empty again, for now.
I miss you, my love.
Jun 9, 2018
Jun 9, 2018 at 2:10 AM UTC
Don't give me the knight in shining armor.
He hasn't fought his fight.
He may be too frail to pick me up,
Too weak to slay my dragon.
Don't give me the boy with a flawless life,
A pretty smile and feminine hands
Show how hard he has never worked,
How many demons he has never strangled.
Give me the knight with beaten armor,
Knocked off his high horse,
But still standing.
Give me the boy with calloused hands,
Hands that show how many times he tried.
Give me the boy with a perfect smile,
Knowledge in his eyes,
Knowing how to **** the dragon,
Knowing how to outwit the demons.
Give me the knight who slayed the dragon.
Jul 23, 2014
Jul 23, 2014 at 10:39 PM UTC
Holding my hand with all the tenderness in the world,
Knowing that you love God more than anything,
Treating everyone with a greater measure of
Love and kindness than they have earned.
You put a smile on my face every time I hear your voice,
And make my heart flutter when you hold my hand.
I can feel your love for me, your desires, your heart,
I know you will treat me like a queen.
I'm glad you smiled when I screamed and said "Yes!
I want to be yours forever."
The future is bright and I find peace when I am in your arms.
Jun 2, 2018
Jun 2, 2018 at 3:25 PM UTC
Sometimes I wonder...
Could anybody love me?
Would someone care to
Take the time
To discover my longings,
Wishes,
And the secrets that I cover?
Would there be one that
Wished I would be the one?
One he could watch shooting stars with,
Not to wish his girl was one of those
Falling rocks:
A Bolide,
Gone in an instant.
I am a shooting star.
I shine bright enough
For others to take notice.
They always
Wish I was theirs to own,
Wish to kiss my sweet lips,
And wish I didn't leave so quickly.
But they don't have the resolve to
Stop me.
They lust.
They don't love.
If they loved, they would stop me.
Love is eating ice cream at a park,
Dancing slowly at a party,
Doing homework together while talking about
Cheese,
Interests,
Each other.
Love defines a personality.
Suddenly, your world isn't about
You
Anymore. It is about
Another.
You think about
Your other half,
Not yourself.
Love is watching the shooting stars
Together
With two mugs of hot cocoa.
For me, love is a dream away.
Sometimes I wonder...
Who can love a shooting star?
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 9:04 PM UTC
I smile.
I know I've seen you before.
Before this trouble started.
Before I wept in pain.
Before I saw you day-dreaming.
Long before we met.
I saw you,
I know you!
I remember it like
Clouded crystal,
Clearer in the remembering,
Than in the veiled details hidden anew.
You were there--
So was my prince.
The darker was upset,
Grieved because soon, too soon,
I would be away.
The lighter made a promise--
A promise he could keep.
I know you wouldn't remember,
I know you might forget now,
But you made a promise,
A promise to me,
A promise to him.
You will protect,
Treasure,
Honor.
You will be a light.
You will be my knight.
You will be my friend eternal.
Apr 29, 2014
Apr 29, 2014 at 7:35 PM UTC
Remember that elementary game?
The one that you say you love someone,
Then avoid each other constantly?
Like how the sun and moon
Chase each other,
Yet never meet?
Let's play that game.
You can be the Sun;
I'll be the Moon.
The Moon envies the Sun:
He shines bright, giving life to all.
The Moon's beauty is dull,
Reflecting only what she captures
From the glory of the Sun.
On the night where he runs faster
Than she can chase him,
The Moon cries,
Lost in the darkness,
Haunted by the emptiness.
Does the Sun miss the moon
When she falls behind?
It's not noticed if he does:
He shines bright either way.
Sometimes
The Moon wonders,
"What would it be like
To be the Sun?"
All bright and glorious,
With many envying him.
Remember one time that
She stood out,
That she proved herself.
That never happened:
She was only ever the Moon.
She shines,
But in no way is that
Good enough.
She wants to be with the Sun,
To learn,
To grow,
Just like everyone else.
But when the Sun
And the Moon
Meet,
Everyone is silenced into
Terrible and terrific wonder.
Is it right to be together?
Is it good?
Is it safe?
Panic sets in the Moon,
And they part as soon as the
Moment came.
Does the Sun love the Moon as
The Moon adores the Sun?
Does the Sun
Ever Miss the moon?
The Moon will never know.
Apr 16, 2014
Apr 16, 2014 at 2:19 AM UTC
My favorite dreams are those that are
Possible,
Yet so unlikely to ever happen.
Dreams can be a random mix of brain
Processing,
But sometimes truth is evident in dreams,
Only detected by God and the dreamer.
Holding hands for comfort,
Even in dreams,
Hands give strength and support,
As well as conformation of love.
I hope my "happily ever after"
Involves me holding hands for ever and ever,
With prince charming,
The man of my dreams.
I know he is out there:
I dreamt of him.
Apr 19, 2014
Apr 19, 2014 at 6:42 PM UTC
Magnificent
Is the feeling you give me.
I watch your eyes,
Your caring careful honest eyes,
Watch in fascination the awe, respect, and love evident in a single glance.
I’m as fragile as a bird in your hands,
Holding me close but not carelessly.
Tenderly.
Patiently, seeing me cry and
Being there to lift me up.
You are a refuge to me,
Home.
Smiling softly as I fall further in love with you.
Losing my breath every time I glance at you.
You are so beautiful,
Is this a dream?
I dance,
With you in my arms,
Without any music, because today and forever
I need only your song.
May 25, 2018
May 25, 2018 at 8:24 AM UTC