#holdingback
My smiles and hugs
My fears and funs
My joys and jumps
I mix
Into my *** of caramel, the warm sugar fills the air
I'd serve it all to you, my friend
But then I remember: you're sick of jt
To sweet for you, you said
The *** of caramel sits
On the stove
Cooling
Tonight
I'll eat it all alone
Or maybe it'll go into the bin again
Feb 6, 2025
Feb 6, 2025 at 6:09 AM UTC
A bird cannot fly
If it carries too much weight on it’s wings-
Instead it will be left to silently cry
As it watches all it’s friends
A roadrunner cannot run
If it eats too many worms-
Not because of any extra weight
But because his conscience holds his feet
A human cannot thrive
As long as they’re alone-
But alone they will stay
If they carry hate in their soul
Jan 15, 2020
Jan 15, 2020 at 5:17 PM UTC
body shaking
lips trembling
slowly feeling numb
trying to hold it back
heart pounding
heavy breathing
fear creeping in
how long should i hold back
still hoping
but slowly wishing
i could let go
and not hold back
always wishing
i wasn't the one chasing
and now realizing
another tear fell from my eyes
Oct 30, 2019
Oct 30, 2019 at 6:42 AM UTC
My love is a flower,
So desperate
To cling to the dirt on her feet-
Breathing the sound of the wind,
Petals reaching
For the ghost of a sun
Long gone,
Sunken under the silhouette of
You-
Are an ocean
I ache to swallow
Afraid I’ll drown-
In your love
Is a drug
Of warmth and light,
It is all I need
In this dark-
Tonight.
Aug 22, 2019
Aug 22, 2019 at 3:16 AM UTC
it's the year of the horse...
more wealth, better health, less remorse.
i'm counting down the days til i die,
but leaving myself to wonder why.
is keeping you close what i need?
or are you hindering my paths to succeed?
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 11:00 AM UTC
Always feel free
to say what you feel.
Even in secret
it’ll help your heart heal.
Dec 19, 2017
Dec 19, 2017 at 12:07 PM UTC
I told them I needed time.
That time I'll take,
To hold face,
gain control.
Then I'll see what feels right,
Trying not to see how you react.
My actions shouldn't care,
Even if my heart does.
I'll try not to see how you react.
Aug 21, 2017
Aug 21, 2017 at 3:17 AM UTC
Jump
Dive
Swim as fast as you can
To get away
Before the explosion
Quick
Hurry
You can't look back
Otherwise you'll drown
And go down with it
Breathe
Release
The tension in your soul
He can't hurt you
Ever again
Sit
Cry
I know you loved him
But you will move on
Everything will be fine
Stand
Smile
A ghost of the past
Is not a light of the future
Abandon ship and fly
I promise
This one
Is for me and anyone who
Needs it
Don't
DO NOT
Let everything hold you back
Because pain is temporary
We will survive
May 5, 2016
May 5, 2016 at 4:48 PM UTC
I really don't understand
Why people think they
Have me figured out
Sure, I'm well mannered
Respectful and giving
My natural introversion
Proceeds me at times
But believe when I say
There's more to me
Then what you see
At face value
I'm layered
And I only open up
To a select few
The worst part is
I haven't opened up to you
I uphold my shy demeanor
But in due time
I won't hold back
And my actions
Will turn admirable
Nov 3, 2015
Nov 3, 2015 at 12:27 AM UTC
My Heart is parched and my Soul runs low of strength,
rumblings from within in hunger for Love.
I must ration myself as I journey alone,
keeping reserves of what I have to offer.
I carry seeds of love and devotion close to me,
so they are not grown in haste.
I store in carefulness of what is tucked away,
so not as to lose for what may be ahead.
Does that me beggarly? A poor soul to pity? Soured by bitter drink?
No, for I am wiser in knowing of my travels,
To wait for the feast, of The Harvest of Love, when it is time.
Copyright © Jose Gonzalez 2015
Aug 30, 2015
Aug 30, 2015 at 12:18 PM UTC
This sign on the road sets me still ‘fore I go
Tells me to glance at the map just once more
Tells me to look in the rearview mirror
Before I go
The glass wall before me refuses to break
Instead it reflects what I left and it shows
The path, when it cracks, I’ll be able to take
But it won’t
The landscape stretches as far as the eye
Can see the view of the future
But the cliff at my feet will just lead me
Nowhere
Dec 19, 2011
Dec 19, 2011 at 4:45 AM UTC