#hindering
Head was in the clouds then I thought of you, thinking back to a time where I could call you mine. I thought of the day it all burnt down.
Hindering rain, as I walk away from you I turn, looking back I can’t see your tears.
Laughing, I see the flash of lighting and hear the crack of thunder. I begin to think of you, wondering if you are in the clouds again and I remember.
Hindering rain, as I stand still soaked from my tears you walk away and disappear.
Jan 30, 2019
Jan 30, 2019 at 5:46 PM UTC
I am false
I hide behind my smile
My eyes
My skin
I hide my scars with
Clothes
Bandages
Makeup
I am false
I hide my true self
A ******
A ******
A nerd
someone broken
Someone scared
Someone lovesick
ready to ****
But I hide all that
Or I will never be cared for
And loved
Thats why I hide
And act falsely
I am false
A lie
A illusion
Aug 4, 2018
Aug 4, 2018 at 12:40 AM UTC
mmm... let me think
take a breath , and give my brain a tink
hold on ... let me speak
so ... I'm weak
everything I see , is a slap to the cheek
**
the days are fine , but your always on my mind
bringing me down , and I feel less then Devine
I know indue time, and all the signs
will bring me back up to the light
and bring me back to feeling Brite
they tell me it'll be alright
**
I'm tired of this mask , I can't breath
and I'm asked " how are you?" ...I'm good
but I'm doing worse then I preceive.
these feelings and emotions bleed out of me
every second feels like a eternity .
**
my days have stopped
and everything is unfamiliar
since my heart dropped
I wish I understood her
my field is cropped
with no minerals in my dirt
no matter how many seeds on top,
they all just get hurt
never will I gain that crop
it has all stopped
**
let me reminisce
on the past , that got me all ******
you got me wanting to not exist
and you welcome me not with a hug
but flying fists
luckly you missed
and we fell into each other for our last kiss .
and every bit of the respect , love , trust
was set aflame , ashed up , and dissed
we had a kid " yea we can do this "
then your gone and took everything
even my mattress .
no home , no car , no wife , no kid
still racking my brain for everything that I did
**
but it's alright , it'll be another quiet night
I'll drink my self to sleep like I do every night
and forget about all of our fights .
some day I'll be alright
even if its somewhere not there holding you tight
I may show wrath apon my self tonight
but my love is yours , unlike any other guy .
**
And I still hold tight to the blade that thickens it's might
Apr 11, 2019
Apr 11, 2019 at 9:15 PM UTC