#highexpectations
I'm a knight, fighting for my king.
I'm a king, fighting for my land.
I'm a slave, fighting for my rights.
I'm a lover, fighting for my love.
I'm a fighter, fighting for pride.
I'm a goner, fighting for my time.
I'm a prisoner, fighting for my release.
I'm a freedom fighter, fighting for independence.
I'm here, I'm there doing all kinds of crazy things.
Living my life merrily, with a beautiful family I built.
I'm Richer than the existing numbers.
Taller than Mount Everest.
Stronger than the mighty elephant.
Built like a Greek god.
But then, suddenly, I wake up.
I'm no one.
I'm a nobody.
No one notices me.
A stranger in a vast, indifferent world.
Not special, not like in my dreams.
Just a normal human living a normal life,
With high expectations,
Dreams I can’t stop watching,
And too lazy to make them real.
Yet here I am,
Still breathing, still dreaming,
And that is all the fight I have left.
Feb 22
Feb 22, 2026 at 7:20 AM UTC
I want to be a candle
I want to cover myself in wax
Feel it broil my skin
To see my waxy peel crack and break at the pressure
Watch me fall as warmth is radiated on me
And let the scorching heat take me over
I want to be a candle
So they can finally see that I can only last so long
From the tall shining figure
To a Bath and Body Works cavity
So they can watch the girl on fire turn to ashes
I’m not flame-retardant
I am a candle
And my wick has burned out
Let me be a candle
So that I, myself, can put out the lights
And finally, be at peace
Oct 30, 2024
Oct 30, 2024 at 10:40 PM UTC
All you care about is my school,
once again I feel like a fool.
I thought you cared about me,
however, the only thing you care about is who I´m gonna be.
I wonder where did I go wrong,
hell is definitely where I belong.
I never felt so alone in my life,
my only friend is this knife.
You see it but you don´t care,
crying when I´m dead, don´t you dare.
Left when I needed you the most,
be ready to see my ghost.
May 31, 2023
May 31, 2023 at 10:05 AM UTC
You were three blocks away
Going to the same destination
But you wouldn't stop
In the cold and rain
Never asked if I needed help
Didn't offer a ride which would've
Saved me 40 minutes of time
And an awkward conversation
With a man who invited me back to his
I considered his offer
Partly out of spite
Partly out of hope
That he would slash my throat
And I wouldn't have to return home
I rubbed my cheeks, suddenly grateful
No one can tell when you've cried in the rain
I guess we've always been three blocks
Apart from one another, you and I
Aug 20, 2019
Aug 20, 2019 at 12:38 PM UTC
I've always held myself to super high standards
And when I say high, I mean high
Higher than the skyline
Higher than the birds
Higher than the clouds
Where has that gotten me?
Well look at me now
I'm an athlete
I'm a singer
I'm a dancer
I'm a student
I'm a fighter
.............
But really I'm just a guy
A guy who does what he's supposed to do
A guy who lifts other people's spirits
A guy who strives for what he desires
A guy who gets what he wants no matter the cost
But is this really a good thing?
Every day I'm stressed
I'm tired
I'm pushed to the limit
I'm dying on the inside
And it's all to make myself look good and others proud
What's happening to me?
I hear that when you don't get enough sleep each night your life expectancy drops significantly
...so am I going to die soon?
50 years?
30 years?
10 years?
What if I die in my sleep tonight?
Will I be happy with all that I've done?
Will I be satisfied with how I've lived my life?
Why yes I will be!
I've taken every opportunity that has come my way and excelled.
I've met hundreds and hundreds of people and made a positive impact on their lives.
I've been handed so many obstacles and barriers and overcome each and every one of them.
Why do I live my life like this?
Because I hold myself to high expectations.
Dec 29, 2015
Dec 29, 2015 at 11:40 AM UTC