#helpmeplease - Hello Poetry

A bend between space and time To search, to seek, to finally find the way, the path, an answer to the end Something to believe faith in a friend Standing tall when there's no answer at all Running to save the day when you can barely crawl feeling your heart crush under the weight Pushing and Pushing until it's too late NEVER giving up Following your heart remembering from the start racing to the finish Learning to diminish the past Hoping the love just might last through time and space and the bend between holding strong to your place Knowing what cannot be foreseen but believing anyway Awaiting a new day A reuniting with that which you've lost willing to pay Even the ultimate cost Praying it won't come to that trying to look forward No longer Looking Back

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Apr 28, 2015

Apr 28, 2015 at 6:59 PM UTC

the-girl-who-loved-you

Looking Back

A bend between space and time To search, to seek, to finally find the way, the path, an answer to the end Something to believe faith in a friend Standing tall when there's no answer at all Running to save the day when you can barely crawl feeling your heart crush under the weight Pushing and Pushing until it's too late NEVER giving up Following your heart remembering from the start racing to the finish Learning to diminish the past Hoping the love just might last through time and space and the bend between holding strong to your place Knowing what cannot be foreseen but believing anyway Awaiting a new day A reuniting with that which you've lost willing to pay Even the ultimate cost Praying it won't come to that trying to look forward No longer Looking Back

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They all think I'm getting better they are proud of the steps I'm taking, but they can't see that I'm taking them backwards My thoughts are killing me. I take my meds and save them up as well. Just to be sure I tell myself But I know I will attempt It hurts so bad that even my body can't handle it anymore I'm shutting down like a concerthall, the lights going off one by one I tried to sedate myself with smoke and blood, but nothing seems to help It's been three years since I've seen the light and although I'm still fighting for it to come back, I know in the back of my head that it's almost an impossible task to fulfill I'm terrified I don't know what to do anymore and I'm alone I'm still too scared to love, I won't let people near me This isn't the way I planned on living my life The play is taking all of my energy and I don't know how to get it back

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Jun 12, 2019

Jun 12, 2019 at 5:05 PM UTC

Floor

the play

They all think I'm getting better they are proud of the steps I'm taking, but they can't see that I'm taking them backwards My thoughts are killing me. I take my meds and save them up as well. Just to be sure I tell myself But I know I will attempt It hurts so bad that even my body can't handle it anymore I'm shutting down like a concerthall, the lights going off one by one I tried to sedate myself with smoke and blood, but nothing seems to help It's been three years since I've seen the light and although I'm still fighting for it to come back, I know in the back of my head that it's almost an impossible task to fulfill I'm terrified I don't know what to do anymore and I'm alone I'm still too scared to love, I won't let people near me This isn't the way I planned on living my life The play is taking all of my energy and I don't know how to get it back

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What if it’s all lies? How am I supposed to know that you’re not lying to me? I don’t! If you’re waiting for something, waiting to cause harm, manipulate, abuse, Do it already… If you ever cared about me at all in any way, Please just do whatever you might be planning. Please stop leading me on with everything, The hugs, kisses, smiles, words, your love I can’t take it. Be mean to me Hurt me Manipulate me Abuse me Stop being so nice.. So kind I don’t know what to do with it- Stop loving me Please do something I know how to deal with, Be mean, hurt me, manipulate me, abuse me, Please, anything. I don’t know what to do with your kindness and love I don’t know how to accept it. It’s so foreign and… wrong. My heart sobs because this is what it longs for, Yet I can’t trust it? Can’t keep it? I don’t deserve this, I’ve never had it before. Please, I’m begging you, If you’re going to be mean, hurt, manipulate, abuse me, Please do it. Do it already, I can’t stand this! Do wrong by me, At least then I’ll know what to do with it. That’d make living without you much easier… I’d know for sure if you’re good or bad. But right now? This hurts. Because I know, I love you, And I have no way to know if the love you’re showing me, Is actually real.

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Oct 27, 2025

Oct 27, 2025 at 12:32 AM UTC

MilaMann

M. H. M. A.

What if it’s all lies? How am I supposed to know that you’re not lying to me? I don’t! If you’re waiting for something, waiting to cause harm, manipulate, abuse, Do it already… If you ever cared about me at all in any way, Please just do whatever you might be planning. Please stop leading me on with everything, The hugs, kisses, smiles, words, your love I can’t take it. Be mean to me Hurt me Manipulate me Abuse me Stop being so nice.. So kind I don’t know what to do with it- Stop loving me Please do something I know how to deal with, Be mean, hurt me, manipulate me, abuse me, Please, anything. I don’t know what to do with your kindness and love I don’t know how to accept it. It’s so foreign and… wrong. My heart sobs because this is what it longs for, Yet I can’t trust it? Can’t keep it? I don’t deserve this, I’ve never had it before. Please, I’m begging you, If you’re going to be mean, hurt, manipulate, abuse me, Please do it. Do it already, I can’t stand this! Do wrong by me, At least then I’ll know what to do with it. That’d make living without you much easier… I’d know for sure if you’re good or bad. But right now? This hurts. Because I know, I love you, And I have no way to know if the love you’re showing me, Is actually real.

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