#heartonpaper
Sorry
it wasn’t my intention
to sadden you with this letter,
even though sadness
is the only thing it seems able to give.
But I must do what I must,
so all of you can live
for the better.
So forgive me,
my loves,
my dear children.
For I am a mother by name,
but obviously nothing more,
and that saddens me
because it saddens you.
I’m suffocating,
but not because of you.
No.
It’s because of me.
I’ve been breathing in toxic air,
listening to the voices of the ton,
until I no longer have
a voice of my own.
So, my loves,
my hearts,
I’m leaving.
For I myself am going crazy.
My mood changes faster than my wardrobe,
and my tears flow faster
than a waterfall.
I’ve betrayed you.
I’ve wronged you.
You may not forgive me,
but I plead.
For I can’t be what you need,
nor what you expect.
My loves,
my diamonds,
my stars—
you are strong
and wise.
So please forgive
this selfish mother of yours
as she runs
instead of depending,
out of fear
and foolishness.
To: My dear sons
Mar 8
Mar 8, 2026 at 2:02 PM UTC
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I once sent a picture saying “I am scared of you”
Although I’ve never stated this but I’m scared of the power you wield over me
Living in this nice delusional world is beautiful and all
But
When reality sets in I’ll be the biggest loser
I am not afraid to lose, I am ready to risk it all
But
What I fear is the despondent state this will leave me
Untouched yet unfit for anyone else
I can bounce back from anything
But
I can’t bounce back from you
This is why I hide from you
Sep 20, 2024
Sep 20, 2024 at 6:34 PM UTC