#heartless
Call me heartless,
you’re right.
I placed it into careless hands
that never knew what they held
and let it fall into the abyss.
Forever out of reach
ever since.
May 18
May 18, 2026 at 12:13 PM UTC
Tonight, Death found me quietly–
Not with scythes or cruel intent,
But like a shadow draped in silk,
Soft-spoken, almost heaven-sent.
He sat beside my weary bones,
As if he’d known me all my life,
Tracing silence through the air,
Reading every hidden strife.
“You called for me,” he whispered low,
His voice a hush, a fragile thread,
“I felt your sorrow bloom so loud,
It echoed through the realm of dead.”
I didn’t turn to face his gaze,
Too tired to pretend I’m strong,
“Then take me,” slipped from trembling lips,
“I’ve carried this pain far too long.”
He didn’t move. He didn’t reach.
No cold embrace, no final breath,
Just fingertips upon my grief–
A gentler kind of death.
“You are not mine,” he said at last,
“Not yet, not while your heart still bleeds,
For pain is proof you’re still alive,
And life still clings to fragile needs.”
“But I am tired,” I begged the dark,
“My soul is frayed, my hope is thin–”
“And still you ache,” he answered me,
“That means there’s something left within.”
He rose like dusk slipping from dawn,
A quiet ache where he once stayed,
“And when your time is truly yours,
I’ll come– but not because you prayed.”
He brushed my tears like fleeting mist,
Then left me with the night to keep,
Not as a curse.... but as a gift–
The stubborn right to wake from sleep.
♡ lil-usagi
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 11:09 AM UTC
They call me heartless.
At first,
I accepted it
as a compliment.
Then,
as a talent.
Then,
as a truth.
Then,
as a wish.
I believed I was heartless.
Now I feel the pain
and I wish I was heartless.
Oh, how wonderful it would be to be free.
To not feel the pain.
To not suffer.
To not wish that all the hurt and heartache would vanish in the blink of an eye and everything would be right with the world again because I couldn't feel
a single thing.
How I wish to be heartless.
Mar 27
Mar 27, 2026 at 7:42 PM UTC
Heart of Ice,
tears of snow,
every word you speak
feels hollow.
Your vision in the mirror seems
ever so blurry,
Heart of Ice,
biting air,
I can see the despair
you wear.
Your manipulation
ripples off me.
You bring frost,
I am too deep to freeze.
You dissolve before me —
I was never meant to suffer from thee
Mar 18
Mar 18, 2026 at 10:31 AM UTC
i clock walk around our toy
it's all uniform and parented
partnership demented
in a ‘legal’ mindfield
a study in regiment and damage
to achieve ‘correction’
no wound mealy
and vulnerable enough for caring relations
to bacterially sully and infect
Dec 8, 2025
Dec 8, 2025 at 1:07 PM UTC
Decided to become that version—
Heartless. Ruthless.
No place for love.
No emotions dictating,
Only silence, always calculating.
No chances taken,
Nothing to hurt, no pain to endure.
But then it dawned—
Even this was emotion dictating.
Just a bargain with time,
To postpone the pain.
No one is invulnerable.
No one is unstoppable.
No one can escape,
When love decides to pay a visit.
No one can escape
The joy that it brings,
And the dreaded pain that follows
Mar 13, 2025
Mar 13, 2025 at 5:07 PM UTC
I want to barbarically remove my heart
And lay it like a horse head on the pillow next to you
Then challenge myself to get far away from you
Before the inevitable collapse from the lack of a heart
©2024
Oct 31, 2024
Oct 31, 2024 at 3:33 AM UTC
You're heartless and cold
Leaving my heart a mess
You pieced out your soul
Mine fell prey to your emptiness
Was it your plan to let go?
I wonder as I struggle with the process
I believed in what I was sold
You bragged like this was a side quest
I didn't notice I was enrolled
In your narcissistic contest
You were waiting for me to fold
Ready for another conquest
You reveled in my fall
You mocked my best
I gave you my all
You left me the rest
©2024
Aug 14, 2024
Aug 14, 2024 at 8:45 PM UTC
You'd think I requested these
Soul crushing insecurities
That break me down with ease
Like I selected to have bad news to come in threes
In a world that doesn't care about the word please
Closed a blind eye to the forest and the trees
Can't smell my own $hit on my knees
With an A to B through none traversable seas
The promised paradise is vacant properties
What I have are useless keys
And facts with discrepancies
That leaves a heart at absolute zero,
A deep freeze
©2024
Aug 4, 2024
Aug 4, 2024 at 8:43 PM UTC
I removed my heart to keep it safe from those who label me heartless
I'm no good at noticing the double edged, backstabbing nonsense
I shattered my own heart, tore it apart, and put each piece in their separate compartments
An interesting story plot borrowed from Tom Riddles Lord Voldemort, I have my own horcruxes
Oh but I don't want to live forever
Just need a little relief lever
And make it harder to get at my more fragile components
©2024
May 30, 2024
May 30, 2024 at 3:57 AM UTC
Whether or not they take their life,
I’m half heartless to all despise.
Martyrdom mine two times of strife,
All souls have a rising demise.
I dare not seek to have revenge,
Knowing my eyes do not lie, see?
What words I say could make you cringe,
Why I stigmatized upon thee?
Chance after chance, year after year,
Always open to soon forgive.
What more to say no longer tear,
Turn to apologize, outlive…
What left half heartless to amend,
When no longer heart to pretend…
Mar 28, 2024
Mar 28, 2024 at 7:10 PM UTC
nearly five years old
my nephew plays
with a stethoscope
a fully functioning
auscultatory device
not just some toy
of unavailing plastic
and purposeless rubber
lost to his imagination
he holds the chest piece
against my sternum
the diaphragm cold
even through my shirt
making me pull away
momentarily
out of instinct or habit
even though
it is not needed
he sits listening
concentration tight
across his brow
with very real concern
as he informs me
that he can't hear anything
that i must just have
no heart at all
Mar 27, 2024
Mar 27, 2024 at 9:39 AM UTC
Painfully vain for such an insecure person
Dualities confliction keeps me on the bottom rung
A innocent convict, guilty victim type wrong
An unrecognizable cosmic size con
A blasphemous conviction
Obviously not the one to bet on
A hit and run rerun just begun
But what's done is done
Wake up with the next sun
But never ask to witness another one
©2023
Nov 17, 2023
Nov 17, 2023 at 2:56 PM UTC
it seems
the blue lights
drift ghostly
past the windows
more often
these days
each occasion
bringing with it
a momentary
fleeting interest
in where
the drama is
currently residing
at who's pillow
might be
tear-stained
through the night
at who's door
fear and anxiety
are being permitted
to step inside
at who's house
has become
a closed film set
waiting to be
stripped of content
until only
walls doors windows
and memories
remain
but
as commercials end
attention returns
once more
to a stronger
more constant
source of
blue light
and all present
are thankful that
at least
the banshees
that wailing of sirens
has been silenced
in time
Oct 27, 2022
Oct 27, 2022 at 10:24 AM UTC
Parts of his existence:
_A vessel_; is a magic that flows through its veins— the color of my cheeks and the color of his madness
_A certainty_; all flesh and bone, sutured and bruised; we can be made of cracks, somehow.
and my heart, he had it all as black holes grew in my chest (_as if the vacancies could be filled by his existence_)
_for me, he is insatiable
as I was always heartless_.
May 29, 2022
May 29, 2022 at 5:16 AM UTC
I see you don't like me
My cordial mild mannered disposition failed
I didn't mean to stand out
It's not that I'm different
Honest
Just highly antisocial....
Yet your giving me a hard time anyway
How it must feel to have me in a bind
Well it's nothing new
Another Cross to bear
Anyway soon we might part ways
No it's not you ,
it's me I guess...
Jan 25, 2022
Jan 25, 2022 at 1:07 PM UTC
It been awhile
I took some hits
Had some falls
A blunder really
I come to Terms I might be a failure
Or it might be a rut
No I'm not sad can't say I'm happy either
For now I will take this first step
For I know myself
And with all the money you have you can't save you from yourself
That to me is my Wake up call
That I live with myself
As long as I
Try....
Jan 24, 2022
Jan 24, 2022 at 1:48 AM UTC
nothing is colder than
a broken heart
on winter's heels
Jan 22, 2022
Jan 22, 2022 at 2:35 AM UTC
"She's the perfect girl" he screamed,
Describing her as the funniest to be seen,
But does he know what the heart hides?
Does he know the art of disguise?
Each day the sun sets,
she's the same broken girl
Who goes home to rest,
"The day surely has been a tough test" she moans imprisoned in painful thoughts,
She has the loudest voice in school,
Alas, at nights she screams and cries without a single sound,
Hugging her tear- Stained teddy bear,
She picks her best friends call without a care,
Voice as happy as ever,
she makes a joke,
Behold, she's alone again, imprisoned in her own hell again,
She remembers each night how the world ripped her soul,
Now her heart isn't a whole, even after several years
She's the same broken girl who cries silent tears
Apr 12, 2021
Apr 12, 2021 at 10:54 PM UTC
Unread. I am a poem,
Read me. I deserve your time,
Heartless. Drop-in your heart for me.
Thirsty. Rain your love,
Feed me. I love your reviews,
Artless. All my words are so truthful.
Story. I am an unforgettable saga,
Narrate me. Retell me to your family,
Fearless. I become proud forevermore.
Mar 27, 2021
Mar 27, 2021 at 5:14 AM UTC
How time is merciless !
How minutes are matchless!
How distance is terrible !
How You is horrible !
How time is merciless !
How You is heartless !
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 8:20 PM UTC
You put your trust in the one you think you can trust,
Then it turns out you can't trust em,
That trust is more lethal than them bullets in a gun,
You can run from them bullets,
You feel them bullets harder than a heart attack,
They both can **** you,
The question is which is more fatal.
If that bullet hits you inside your heart,
You're pretty much dead,
You're heart is the most fatal,
Without your heart you can't live,
Nothing compares to a broken heart,
The ones you love the most hurt you the most,
It's less painful not to care.
All that pain made me cold,
The only thing I care about is family,
My mama more than anyone,
Heartless what I've become,
I can't feel nothing,
My EMOTIONS have been faded.
Dec 20, 2020
Dec 20, 2020 at 1:27 PM UTC
At least if you are heartless
You can never be heart broken
Dec 8, 2020
Dec 8, 2020 at 1:32 AM UTC