#heartacheandhope
I smile at my reflection, and feel so lonely—
summer lingers in the shape of a kiss;
yet insecurities spring up in the raindrops
of my tears. They storm the fragile corners
of my heart, where she once found the cracks
and called them rooms.
Know what we are given can never be repaid,
still we chase the interests of love— a debt we
keep trying to make good. Sometimes we reach
for forbidden fruit, taking more than a bite,
and find the pruning knife was ours all along.
Not everything that’s fruitful is fated to ripen.
Perhaps that’s this smile—_a purpose fulfilled,_
in the feast that ended too soon.
I only hope she doesn’t bite more than she can
bear to swallow; or bites through her own jaw
just to chew; biting herself apart just to taste what’s
gone... as most will bite the mouth that once kissed
them full.
Oct 20, 2025
Oct 20, 2025 at 2:32 PM UTC
When you were my Yes;
In a world full of Nos
You were the only calm I knew
Before I knew how it felt to lose,
You were the open sunny skies
Before I knew the cold winter
The way we stitched stars to our dreams…
And the way you didn’t have to ask my heart
I just recognized it on my own!
Our love was so loud..
Wild and fierce and untamed..
but It could not get louder than the voices…
the voices I was raised to obey..
and voices built cages to tame its flame
which is why the fire dimmed….
And even when I walked away
It broke me in pieces where noone could see!
And ever since I have worn silence;
I have worn silence like second skin
But you have lived in every quiet that I entered
Memories of you crawl to me
They find me in my every breath
They find me in my shadow
and just like that
I carry you like my breath
which I dont know to exhale-
I am just an endless tide pulled trembling to your hidden shore.
May 23, 2025
May 23, 2025 at 2:23 AM UTC