#hearbroken
How can one be so carelessly cruel?
To run around a field, picking flower after flower-
not seeing the weeds that have grown
or the flowers you have stepped on.
And I am just a broken petal-
but when you smile at me like that again,
I can forget the bouquet that is in your hand
and let you stomp on me all day
Dec 10, 2020
Dec 10, 2020 at 10:03 PM UTC
You,
I regretted knowing you, though I don't regret our memories. I regretted knowing you at a wrong time, at a time where both of us ain't the best for each other but then again, if fate ain't on our side then I guess there's really ain't any perfect time. Well, what can I say, I'm still stuck with this agony of a feeling, if I would play a scene and rewind it over and over again like a broken tape, the title would be "when I met you".
Me
Oct 12, 2020
Oct 12, 2020 at 7:16 PM UTC
my eyes are drawn
to your white lettering
and black label.
my soul is rather
fired up by that
substance inside you.
my lips,
by the taste.
“don’t do this to yourself, you’ve been good all this time.”
“you’ve been steering clear, you’ve been attending your meetings.”
i tell myself, as i reach in
my pocket and rustle through
the chips i‘ve collected all
this time as reward for
learning to live without you.
but ****
that smell. the way you feel inside me.
the way you make my head shake.
the way you make me forget.
you taste of liquor, my dear, and i’m a recovering alcoholic.
oh **** i’m sorry...correction.
was a recovering alcoholic.
so a toast,
to your wonderfully devilish eyes,
and to another relapse.
-melancholicreator
Nov 9, 2019
Nov 9, 2019 at 6:18 PM UTC
Pasir memeluk kakiku, tak mau melepaskanku.
Licinnya pasir berkali-kali membuatku terhisap.
Sama seperti pelukanmu kala itu,
yang terus mengunciku,
berontak tiada artinya
sampai akhirnya jiwaku tunduk pula padamu.
Kita pernah bahagia,
Bagai burung-burung yang terbang rendah, bermain-main diantara air,
Mengintip manisnya pantulan diri air biru.
Yang lama terasa singkat.
Seperti langit merah muda yang lama lama termakan kabut pindah ke kegelapan malam yang menenangkan hanya dalam hitungan detik.
Bagai kapal yang mengapung terombang ambing kencangnya ombak,
Ia tetap teguh karena telah menjatuhkan jangkarnya.
Begitulah aku ketika pada akhirnya hanya kau dijiwaku.
Namun arus laut begitu kuat,
begitu sulit untuk berenang pada arah tujuan.
Semesta punya ceritanya,
berkali-kali kupaksakan tubuhku tak terbawa arus,
namun kakiku lemah, terus menerus terobek tajamnya batu karang yang tak kelihatan.
Mungkin itu cara semesta beritahu
bahwa disana bukan tempat yang aman bagiku.
Aku menyerah.
Seperti butiran pasir yang kugenggam erat dibawah air laut,
satu per satu rontok,
aku tergoda untuk membuka tanganku di bawah air
dan menyaksikan kemegahan pasir-pasir kecil yang jatuh menghilang terseret air.
Itulah kau.
Laut punya caranya.
Semuanya akan terjadi alami.
Semesta poros pengaturnya.
Biarlah laut hapuskan kau.
Tenang saja,
aku akan kembali baik-baik saja.
Seperti debur ombak yang menyapu kasarnya pasir, ia mampu mendatarkan lintasannya yang sebelumnya hancur teracak-acak angin.
Bagai tapak kaki di basahnya pasir,
berjejak namun akan segera hilang begitu terhanyut ombak ataupun angin yg berhembus.
Apr 6, 2019
Apr 6, 2019 at 1:49 AM UTC
it's unfair.
the control you have
over my heart
body
mind
you make my heart
skip
a beat
then two
just by the thought of you
Nov 16, 2018
Nov 16, 2018 at 3:19 PM UTC
Tell me you love me and we will be together again
Promise me please that you wont ever leave.
Because God knows I need you ,
God knows I'm in love with you.
You are the essence of my being.
You are the source of my happiness .
I love you .
I cherished you more than life it self.
I believed every word you ever said.
I need you more than the air I breathe .
I need you more than you could ever believe.
You are who I live for.
You are who I would die for.
You are my life source decorated with skin.
The sun doesn't rise without you,
nor do the birds sing in the morning.
The sky is no longer blue and the stars no longer shine.
This world, my world can not function without you.
And as I lay here empty, cold and alone I think only of you.
The thought of you pollutes my mind,
And every promise you ever made has engraved itself on my heart.
My skin is covered in the words you said.
My eyes only see you,
and my lips beg to feel yours.
Lord God knows I miss you.
Please just love me and put me back together again.
Feb 17, 2018
Feb 17, 2018 at 5:35 AM UTC
As blood drips on the tile
Panic fills the classrooms
Text messages full of terror are being exchanged
Pop
Another one hits the floor
Pop
Another tear escapes from its owner
Petrified parents pray that their child is safe
Heartbroken viewers across the country watch as another tragedy takes place
Eighteen school shootings this year
When will it end?
Feb 14, 2018
Feb 14, 2018 at 7:26 PM UTC
I am a debris
Of what you built inside that
I prayed for eons
Aug 4, 2017
Aug 4, 2017 at 10:04 PM UTC
You paint black
the surrounding
making people fall in love
as you confidently smile.
And it's hard
to forgive you and forget
the way my name
escaped from your lips.
Moving on
it's far from easy
cause in this world full of words
i wasn't even a full stop
while you still are my favourite book.
Jun 22, 2017
Jun 22, 2017 at 7:14 PM UTC
She loves me.
She loves me not.
Does she really love me?
She loves me not.
Is this meant to be?
She loves me not.
Is this what we could be?
She loves me not.
Time isn't for free,
Wasted all my time just to be
Nothing to me.
May 20, 2017
May 20, 2017 at 1:39 AM UTC
I'm trying to be strong
Knowing that all we have will never be this long
You even think that my heart is a stone
But remember, Babe it hurts
You are the only one who destroy
Those barriers, walls, and partitions
I even let you passed in my heart's division
But how can you leave it broken
And it hurts
At the very beginning you let me believe that you are a keeper
Now I realized that you are a breaker
You made me believe with your promises
But now, I am not the one who you misses
And yes, it hurts
That's why I have decided
Not to feel the pain that you made
I'll let go, and move on
Instead of holding on
I'll be fine
Even when it still hurts
Jan 4, 2017
Jan 4, 2017 at 8:21 AM UTC
lately i've been missing you
more than ever
that i keep on hoping
that i would see a glance of you
passing by
or just us randomly bumped into each other
or just even your silhouette
lately i've been missing you
more than ever
that i start on
seeing you in
every places i go
or seeing a piece of you
in ever guy i see
or
every cup of coffee that i have
in everyday.
lately i've been missing you
that i would just listen to our songs
over and over again
for it's the only thing
that still belong to you
and me
lately i've been missing you
that i started to cheat on reality
and go to sleep
for it's the only place
where we still could meet
and be together
lately i've been missing you
that the bad things that happened to me during the day
would suddenly vanished
after i meet you in my dream
lately i've been missing you
that i would wake up in the middle of the night
and gasping for air
hoping to never wake up
because I ache for you
crying
and
begging silently
for God to end this pain
for I've been missing you lately
Oct 23, 2016
Oct 23, 2016 at 10:35 AM UTC
I've spent all day cry(i)ng
My heart is broken
Going numb
You're right
I've known for a long time
But I always thought
Our love was stronger than anything
I love you
I always will
Even if you (d)on't
Even if you're happier with(o)ut me
I want you to be happy
You deserve it
It was(n)'t fair
I los(t) myself in you
You didn't ask for that
I placed too much (w)eight on your shoulders
When you h(a)d
Your ow(n) burdens
(T)o bare
I miss you so
There are ghos(t)s of
Y(o)u everywhere I look
Every corner of my (b)rain
I was so scar(e)d to live without you
(B)ut now you've left
Me no cho(i)ce
I have (t)o find my own way, I know
I wan(t)ed to be
The girl you deserv(e)
But now I have to do it fo(r) myself.
(I don't want to be bitter)
Apr 1, 2016
Apr 1, 2016 at 12:39 PM UTC